POST 100

yay post 100
i cant believe it took me 1 year and 1 half to reach so "many" posts

anyway
weekend was relatively good
managed to push quite a lot of work away
pre-u seminar stuff will be taken care off by calvin
not much thinking left for student council

left econs essay which i supposed to have handed up by friday but didn't and maths tut 2 n 3 which was late by 1 week
but other than that im cool

right now i downloading some gc games
tried to look for some super mario
but they din have it
den when i tried to transfer some games
i relised i lost the cd
so i had to donload it from the net


anyway
if theres one thing im glad for this weekend
its that i did my chinese compo on friday

but if theres 1 thing im not glad for
itz that i couldnt find friends to come with me to watch a free movie which i have tickets of
anyway i couldnt think of anything nice to watch so i gave the tickets back to my parents

My life as described by different people

I have a friend who once described me as this song





I'm Just A Kid- Simple Plan


Honestly, when i first heard of this, i was like, are you sure
then i thought about it for a while, she was quite right.
anyway, at that time i was thinking more along the lines of



How To Save A Life- The Fray

i din really know why i made this suggestion, maybe it was because i liked them so much

but anyway, at this point in time, its quite ironic
i can only say so much right now


i planned to write about this song thing for about a few days
but its only when i write it now, i can truly feel its impact





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week 2 in srjc

It has been 2 weeks of srjc in term 2
i passed interview for student council


homework is beginning to creep up

there's pre u sem stuff
rally stuff
and pw stuff

and then there's homework

notice that pw is on a whole new level above normal homework
that's because it is
we have around 4 days before deadline
and everything u don't feel like doing right now becomes a liability tomorrow
so imagine that liability doubling each day until u reach the day before deadline
by then u would need 4 hours to finish a 2 and 1/2 page chinese compo because you cant focus at midnight
i cant do homework at midnight
but i dun feel like doing it in the afternoon because i feel as if its sucking my "funtime", the time when im most alert( and thus reason enough to devote it to "fun")


so that kind of system works for more or less every proposal
4 days till deadline
so that kinda sucks


there was this council "elects" (ppl who passed the interview but aren't exactly councillors) briefing this afternoon
we had to prepare a poster, a speech and a campaign
poster sucks because i hate putting my face on anything, but otherwise manageable.
speech sucks cuz i have to talk about my reasons for joining and my aspirations on the dais, or podium and say it in front of everyone
campaign sucks most because we have to do something "creative but feasible" which doesn't involve giving sweets
so now for the weekend

i have pw which im gonna finish either now or tomorrow afternoon
speech plus poster tomorrow night
and then some miscellenous homeowrk on sunday

AND actual filming for pre u sem video on monday
on top of that i need to learn flash from kenneth
great weekend








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End Of Week 2 in Srjc

why wasnt i this tired during olevels
jus 2 weeks and i am going to die of tiredness

nothing much happen during this 2 weeks
except homework
lots of it

this school is really embracing the online technology
that sucks
because your homework pretty much doubles or triples

i gt selected into the pre-u seminar thing
means 5 days 4 nights at some local university
woo hoo
i think it happens on school days too
but theres a problem
theres around 29 ppl selected but theres only 25 empty slots
effectively that means 4 ppl will not be selected
but they only tell u that after u do the work
so technically they could get you to do all the work and still not let you enjoy yourself
that sucks
hope its not me


theres also student council interview
i sucked at the interview
i just kept repeating things i said before and say things should be run like military
that is not good
i dunno
its cuz npcc took up half my secondary school life so i dun really have much to talk about
but at least im nt too bad
edmund had to sing the school song for the teacher
and some ppl were asked," where is mas selemat?"
wtf
anyway i think i wont make it past the interview

ya and we went back to get our o level cert last friday
met up with some hihs ppl and go together
we take already den walk around the school to look for teachers
most of them were in ptm so cant find much
i saw tan bee tin but she was talking to a parent so i din disturb her
den we sat at the canteen and talked about stuff
like being embarrassed in sec school when we say go srjc might as well go poly
hahas
everyone there said tat before and look where we ended up
we also talk about initiating our own cca
which jingyi was supposed to write the minutes of in a blog
havent checked it out yet
hope she has actually done it



and thats how my last 2 weeks went




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disgusting

I vomited through my nose, and i saw GREEN undigested little pieces of vegetables from 24 HOURS AGO come out of it

stomach problems since the morning
so had just bread with peanut butter
den slept till 4 plus
den my parents say eat some food
so i eat bread again with milo
den stomach felt worse
so my mum used some chinese medicine powder thing
that actually induced vomit

so i vomited within 10 seconds of drinking the powder
and everything that came out was orange
AND IT CAM OUT OF MY FRIGGIN NOSE
of course from my mouth also la
but there was and still has a very disgusting vomit smell in my nose
DISGUSTING
i hate chinese medicine
in fact i hate all medicine




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not a good day

oddly today is not a good day

my morning was good
no big mishaps
just had a nice breakfast of wanton mee at school
then followed by our first project work and econs tutorials
just some games and intro sessions
nothing big, nothing serious
then chinese tutorial
where i din do the work
but she was very xia lan and said expected
good thing her kind of xia lan is funny
den break
go library get research on the pre u seminar
i did a qns on religion
did there for an hour
den maths lecture
which taught trigo
and i slept
a teacher woke me up
but din scold me
den break again
den go library again
then ct period
chose class committee
i wasn't in any part of it
so that was cool
den i went for the pre u seminar audition/interview
at first was quite nervous
but i din show it to anyone
i just listen to some music and cooled down
den it was my turn to go
lucky my teacher was good
mr kok i think his name was
at first i cluttered my first few lines
but then lucky he din do anything to make me even more nervous
den i went on smoothly for the rest of the speech
he said that my strength was in that my research was very wide, not focused on 1 topic
den i went on to my impromptu speech
which was on death gives meaning to life
so i spoke about life , that death makes u want to accomplish things before your life ends
makes u cherish life and the time you have
i also spoke about gabriel, 8/24
i said that he made me realise that things can end abruptly
need to take hold of the time you have now
and he was a very good "judge"
he gave me very positive comments
like how i would make it into council and that i was confident
few ppl have done that
but i cherish each and everyone of them
so i felt good as i went home
den i go home and makan
den on the computer and read some blogs
and talked on msn
which made me very sad today
it kinda sucks when everything is going so well and 1 little thing can change your mood
damn, and i was having a good day man

few people have made me feel good in a long time
would you like to make me feel good today
sms me now at 97337272

jus some shameless advertising
hahas





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CRAZY crazy things

This week

school was boring
with all the subject talks and all that mumbo jumbo
new og on wednesday
tt sucked because i have ABSOLUTELY positively NO new friends there
despite the fact that i know possibly 20-30 ish ppl there

so i basically picked the same subject combination again
tts SMPE
science stream, H2 Maths, EconS and Physics
but i changed h1 from bio to chem
BIO sux

as for cCa bazaar
as they call it
i picked tennis
big surprise there
i never picked up a racket and played any tennis before in my life
so decided to try
the catch is


that i have to pay 100 for 1 year if im nt in the school team
so that sux like hell


2nd cca i chose
was student council
even bigger shocker

ya tt decision was basically quite easy because it makes a damn good testimonial when you applying for university or even your job
besides the white tshirt looks cool


3rd choice is the biggest shocker of them all
i took DANCE

MUHAHAHAHAHAHS

i lost my mind
i guess its one of those impulse things
im prone to doing really REALLY ridiculous things
such as writing who i liked on my msn nick
and trying to roller blade up a hill
but its interesting
and it looks cool
so i will see how it goes
i mean after all im not exactly lean meat
so its not very aesthetic to see someone as FAT(FRIGGIN FAT) as me trying to do hip hop

and everyone i told laughed in my face
and they laughed, laughed, laughed, laughed, laughed, laughed, laughed, laughed, laughed and laughed somemore
i NEED YOUR ENCOURAGEMENT NOW!!!
in this CRUCIAL time
but i din expect them to encourage me
after all, even i wouldn't encourage myself
hahas


ya and 1 more thing
there are so many christian (catholic) racists that i know of
so what you go to church and identify yourselves as one religion so you can make fun of someone elses skin colour
all the shit here shit there
im sick of hearing it, because its FUCKING OFFENSIVE
they may not take offense to that personally
but that doesn't mean you should say it right
HEY LETS GO CHURCH CAMP AND TELL EACH OTHER BLACK JOKES
whats more there is very little malays and/or indians in CJC right now
making it another effective platform for stupid jokes
and im sure someone will be thinking they are just jokes
yeah, they are right
we take it so casually because we listen to them so often
I REALLY CANNOT STAND MUTHAFUCKERS LIKE THAT
even if they are my friends
can world peace exist in this lifetime
certainly not with those people around
and a significant part of them are catholics or christians, i realized
so what we have to believe that creationism is true and darwin was wrong
JUST because it is written so


and no, indians and malays shouldn't be called shit
now should they?


and this will be one of the really ridiculous things i do for a living
i can be a damned daredevil from now on
hahas









"If we are all God's children, then what's so special about Jesus?"--- Jimmy Carr, comedian, hated by christians (LOL)



"YOU ARE A SICK PERVERTED TWISTED PYSCOPATH! YES FYI THESE ARE BLOODY FLAMES IM SENDING YOU! WHEATHER YOU'RE CHRISTIAN OR NOT IT DOESN'T MATTER THIS STUFF IS NOT FUNNY ITS CRAP A LOAD OF CRAP AND DISGRACEFUL AND DISGUSTING YOU SHOULDNT EVEN BE ALLOWED ON FANFICTION! YOU'RE DISGUSTING GO DIE IN A HOLE. AND YOU CAN PRAY YOU DONT GET STUCK!" -----A typical Christian showing humility and forgiveness in the face of lulz.


gs
doesn't believe in god because he made christians, most of which dont exemplify his beliefs
www.loljesus.com

OMG

Why did the stupid n95 8gb increase in price again!!!
and my stupid n73 drop from 250 to 150 in trade-in


btw
emmanuel made me realised that OMG can actually stand for oh my glennard


OH MY GLENNARD!!!!

hahas



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im making a statement
starting with you

Why Does Everything Seem To Go Downhill For Me, And The Beginning Wasn't Even Very Good To Start With



figure that one out

2cha chalet + vday post + new year

today is valentine's day
still nothing to report

but more importantly today is the last day of the 2cha chalet
around 8 girls out of 26 and almost every guy from our class went
i cant believe i just realized over the past few days that everyone 1 there was either gambling masters or learning to be 1

they just gambled and gambled the whole night
most gambled on blackjack
play until so hiong that they can all stand on table wait for the card to open
then everyone scream

i learned mahjong again
and its fun
but i don't know how to tell who want what tiles

so they just played the whole night
then next morning all either tired until sleep or go home
then there was barbeque
which was normal

anyway before this
i went to penang
to pai nian
i played firecrackers again
i accidentally dropped a rocket
then my uncle panic and quickly aim the rocket somewhere else
he nearly got burned
and he got angry
the rocket hit the wall and exploded

anyway now im addicted to mahjong
so anyone wanna play!?!


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o lvl results plus post 90

gt back o lvl results on thursday
not the best of results
a frigging 15
but i couldnt really complain

at first i got my paper
i was liek 15?
my cousin gt a 9
but now i realised tt
only 10 ppl in my school could have gotten 9 and above
whats more is that he could have factored in cca and bonus pts
but i couldnt care less

but i was sad at first
then i tried to laugh so that i wouldnt cry there
its more or less a simple philosophy i have
but anyway
what really pissed me wasnt really my results
my mum's godmother ( which is my grand godmother, now that i think about it) actually called me tt day and asked about my results
so i just said 15
then she said tts good what tt means u passed
"now in retrospect i should have shut up here, but no i chose to keep saying)
i said ok la, alwin(my cousin) gt 9
orh liddat ar nvm still quite good
then i went pool at dhoby gaut
so FAST FORWARD to at night when i reached home
my mum had tt really sad/disappointed/angry face
so i was like i gt a 15 ,k still quite ok can go in jc
then she told me the whole story

apparently after the call my godmother told my grandmother(which was her sister) pretty much everything i told her
then she calls my mother and says
cannot like that compare 1
you son get 15 very good le

i hear already i want to take chopper kill her liao lor
talk until like i worthless like that
like my mother cannot produce smart children
so what her bloody grandson got a friggin 9
he not even the same surname as her arh
bloody hell

so as i hear finish her story
i felt very angry and also very sad at myself as well
i feel as if i let my mother down
make her throw face
i cried there on her bed
then my dad told me to choose whether jc or poly
i was still having teary eyes
so i told them i would take a shower
i cried there too
i just felt like my immediate family,
my mom dad and brother were ostrasized by them
most of my cousins were tan
me my brother and 2 cousins( my eldest uncles' sons) were the only sim
as in the 3rd generation
and they both are not like them
they are very kind and they think of others before themselves
something that seems to be lacking in my paternal family tree
maybe its because of their upbringing, they are not very rich
unlike the tan


but anyway i try not to think of them as much as i physically possible
which is difficult since we HAVE to visit each other every new year and good friday, which they make use of to sao mu, or pay respects to the deceased


anyway, i put tampines jc and catholic as my 1st 2 choices
hope i get in


remember what i did last year around this time of year
i tried to compile a list of what people felt and thought about me
so as to properly make my new years' resolution
this year i planned to do the same
but everyone seems busy
maybe i choose less people to give their opinions
maybe 6 or 4
but they will probably be close friends

well, we'll just have to wait and see




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SRJC Orientation

The jc orientation is finally over
after 2 long weeks

the first five days were seriously boring, very very boring
there were subject talks where you'd sit in the hall for close to 2 hours
and my first orientation grouping was not very memorable
i honestly contemplated leaving the school and not coming back for the rest of the days
and the sample lectures sucked
alot

but then came the last 3 days
everyone was reassigned new groups
this time, it was much more fun
because we could open up more
and there were games to keep us occupied

there were hell lot of fun
everyone was writing in their surveys
too short
must be longer
my second group(the fun one)
were more ready to speak up and try to lead in cheers
at least better than my first one
I also met a friend from primary school
PAUL
we didn't know each others names at first
so i just said u from hips 1 right

hahas
easy starter conversation

also
for this orientation
i felt different
i wanted to stand out from the rest
be a leader
because i remember myself back in all the past camps, sec 1 sec 2 sec 3
npcc orientation also
i remember telling myself to shut up, even when i had a good idea
because i was always afraid that they would shoot me down
den i become very lau kui
very jia lat
then i look back and realise that
hey if i kept quiet i ended up after 4 years with nothing but a sergeant to show and not even any quartermaster or squad leader or even any best cadet award or something
den you will regret for the rest of your life
just like mine, always thinking, how i wished i spoke up more.

This time, i chose to speak up
i wanted to stand out from the rest
i at first tried being loud, but after the first hour
when it was not getting me or even any of us anywhere
i tried teaching the best of the best cheer
because our cheering was "subtle"
hahas
ya so i tried
and it feels good when people is paying attention
and then u tell them thisthisthisthisthatthatthatthat
and they actually listen!!! OMGWTF

hahas
yeah of course no one can master anything so quickly
then ended up having i shout the first few words den they just continue
but its good to know they actually tried
im not a student leader so i dont know how that feels
den play station games for all 3 days but the thing is that everyday gt like different "theme"
like first day is just normal
den second day is water games
and then third day is ra-ra games which is quite rough and competitive

when we dominate certain games,its usually because of individual brilliance
such as me when i tried to pass the chair from the back of the line in the first game we played as a grp
or paul for the taboo game, where he said american pa giu and the eagle puiA(fly in hokkien) in the sky
or sam and brenda in the passing out ball, their muo qi very gd can together carry so many ball across

we rocked
period
and i always forget how to cheer unless is my own cheer, so we everytime kanna confusion

i was also part of the aquila performance because i got forcefully "chosen" by my ogl
nicholas and xue fong
cuz they know that im loud
at first very xia suay
but den i sabo michael aso
so we tried our performance
and in turn made even more new friends
i think the performance group will naturally bond because we all have to work very hard together and come up with a performance in 2 days
so we will like go into overdrive straight away
something like how ppl will only study very very hard just before their o levels
something like that
oh ya and i gt kanna whack in the nose during our performance
but at least it looks smooth
and the mascot really flew and i feigned being beaten up

and the amazing race,
i brought nothing but a bottle
so i carried the flag most of the way
it really reminded me of my 10 km hike with my npcc unit
when i was as nco
we were always pushing for people to
CLOSE UP THE GAP!!
hahas
and the crossword puzzle has very ridiculous clues
like no coke only pepsi
which is kfc
and the crossword puzzle was very difficult to even find the pieces

So thanks to all the OGLs, especially nicholas and xue fong, as well as our teachers, mr Ho and mr Lee.

NEWYEARPLUSPOP

happy new year
but not much with the happy

i mean yeah i gt an xbox360(hinthint)
but i would have rather enjoyed more time out with friends and family
so it work both ways


last year i had a bunch of ppl whom i asked what they felt about me
that was so i could figure out what i did wrong last year and do it better in 2007
i wanted to do that again this year, but everyone seems so busy, no ones really online, so bo bian
everyone is busy as heels, so im bored


this holiday was supposed to be spectacular
i was gonna do this, do that, play this, play that
now it seems very meaningless
everyones off to work or whatever the heels they do
no fm with the 4 la liga teams
no soccer every week
no actual fun stuff
just work all the way
even the chalet was messed up ( the word "messed" is supposed to be replaced with the f word ) its called a 4hum chalet
not a private get together
the last time i checked 4hum had what 40 odd people excluding teachers
less than 20 were there
and even less stayed overnight
ending up with lots of excess food no one could eat( poor sherlyn, wee kiat, xin hui)
i mean hey its not their fault
but is the class of sec 4 humility 2007 seriously so pathetic, so spineless
or are we so very ashamed of our own class, we can't even come to a little gettogether, which they did not have the privilege of planing
BTW thanx to othe organizers of the chalet, sherlyn, xinui and weekiat and his parents! THANK YOU!!!





the biggest thing that happend before 2007 ended ( i used the term biggest loosely )
was POP
or passing out parade
it was the first of which we could use rifles or arms in the parade itself
so coming back to train brought back nostalgic moments
i honestly thought the parade itself was great
yeah there were a few mistakes here and there
but it happens
i just wished the day ended with the high from the parade.
the phototaking session after was also great

the party was abit less high
maybe it was because not all of us were there
the performance was there
the food was there
the atmosphere was there, thx alot to sec 1s and 2s
but something felt missing
i couldn't really pinpoint it
but i felt very strongly that it was because there were guests
i got the "vibe" that the people there were more or less entertaining guests
but thats just me you know

honestly, i know that everyone has put in alot of hard work for us
THANKYOUVERYMUCH
thanks
seriously



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Changing Direction

Yesterday must be a milestone for me
i have decided to change the perspective of my life
no more chasing grades
no more chasing girls, man

i mean i realized, after a long and engaging talk (with myself) (on the mrt)
my life wasn't meant for chasing girls or grades or money for that matter
i still haven't found out what it was for though
but hey, this kind of xia lan face surely not for girls to like 1, RIGHT!!
hahas

this reminds me of '05 when i made a very big realisation that no one cares about your birthday
it crushed me but i guessed everyone was just too busy, who could blame them?


I guess its time for this boat to to set sail on a new course

I believe there are 3 factors that affect what people do, and how they do it
they are logic, faith and emotion
Logic is the little voice inside your head that tells you not to jump off a 10 storey high building because you WILL die
Faith is a little different, it has a little bit of both logic and emotion, yet at the same time it contradicts logic and emotion, such as fasting on certain days.
I have stopped believing for some time, because i felt since there were so many, which one is right, but that (anti)belief has been cemented into my head by THAT DAY, the day i(and many others) lost a friend.
The last thing is emotion, you know anger, hate, love happiness, that kind of thing
in short, because you feel close to a friend or family, it makes you wanna try more than usual to help them

i have stopped faith from interfering with my judgement
and now im going to stop emotion on the day 4/12/07
the only thing affecting my judgement is logic
and if i ever lose that, you can see me in woodbridge
but must make appointment first, hahas

just like how i stopped celebrating christmas
sighz


Money saved
from birthday gifts since '05: $70
from Christmas since '06: $20
from chasing grades: $10
from chasing girls: >$100
Freedom( at least partially): priceless




To the friend i chatted with after work: yeah, we're just friends, good friends



To eugene( you MUST read this hor, bugger): wah lau eh you ne mu xiao xi cannot trust one leh, where gt chance, no chance arr!!


REAL Madrid 32
BARCAlona 28

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Prom

Prom Was yesterday

It was fun

i lost my lucky draw ticket
but its not like i would have won anything

anyway big shockers for prom king and queen

wayne gt 3rd, everyone gasped, hahahs it was so funny
sheryl ( i think thats how it spelled) won even bigger shocker
everyone who knew her ( emphasis on the knowing her part) knew or felt that she was acting cute and wearing like cosplay or anime or stuff like that, but she won, so i guess tt wouldn't matter

everyone thought vivian or linda would have won but guess not


it was a fun night



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A gyroscope is a device for measuring or maintaining orientation, based on the principle of conservation of angular momentum. The device is a spinning wheel whose axle is free to take any orientation. This orientation changes much less in response to a given external torque than it would without the large angular momentum associated with the gyroscope's high rate of spin. Since external torque is minimized by mounting the device in gimbals, its orientation remains nearly fixed, regardless of any motion of the platform on which it is mounted.
--- Wikipedia

In short, the gyroscope can rotate along its axis with complete freedom from all 3 of its supporting columns .
Likewise, we can move to our own rhythm and pace but we need the support of our family and friends,
for without them, we are nothing


the gyroscope can only function when it is spinning.
we cannot, ever, stop moving and contributing to our society
if we stop at anytime, our heart and our spirit will start to falter
it will be difficult to keep trying
its about the same as dying inside, being a physiological zombie, theoretically


as we continue to spin, there will definitely be forces try to stop us, like friction from moving constantly, the psychological and emotional fatigue that comes with motion
but we must never let it stop us
ever


we must never let those who support us down

not our family
not our friends
not anyone



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WELCOME TO THE END

OF THE O LEVELS

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now is the new age of staying to play games and watch tv instead of mugging ( which i never really did )


ALL HAIL NOVEMBER 13th!!!

I'm Zidane!!

Which soccer player are you? Zinedine Zidane You are Zinedine Zidane! You are very humble but inside you know your the best. You would rather have a great assist than a goal. You can beat a player or two if you need it as well. You are a well rounded player. Myspace Quizzes

Quizzes are fun


i tried a few soccer position questions
most of them were just 5 questions each
so i doubt they were very accurate
plus i did'nt know what strong meant
(does it mean you can kick the ball far or when you tackle aggressively)

so most of the choices were
agile
strong
finisher
last ditch takle
save goals

pretty much like that all the way
but it was quite fun

got 1 midfield result
1 center back result
and a few others i cant seem to remember

but i didn't get any side backs or wing backs
which is my preferred positions since i can run up for assists and defend
but i don't mind defensive midfield
its similar


english and maths paper 2moro
from 8 am all the way to around 4 - 5 pm

vive zizou!!


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!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 111!!!!!11!!!!!1!!!!!!1!e^0!!!!!sin 0

Note that its spelt ex-CLAM-a-tion

not ex-CLAIM-a-tion


so now you know, remember to spell it exclamation mark for now on


!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111!!!!!!!!!!1!!!!11!!11!111!!1!!



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2 Days Before School Ends

10/3/07
rite now
mom's birthday
Happy birthday
Hope You Have A Better Birthday at work than me


anyways
i realised that a LOT of people decided to post on 28th and 29th september
and they posted nearly the exact same thing
"im not gonna blog until after O levels"
or something to that effect


Eugene is recruiting peoples to go CRUBBING (clubbing) with him
interested people please go and find him before he bugs the hell out of me and everyone else
lolwthroflbbq


realise i have been using a lot of "colourful language" recently
alot more than normal actually
maybe its stress getting to me subconsciously
yeah right

THERES NO P.E TOMORROW BECAUSE THE WONG VEI LI TOOK IT AND REPLACED IT WITH A AMATHS PAPER2
Dude, allcaps rulez, EEVVAARR




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