Not A Good Week

Aug 20 - Aug 24
is nt a good week

Unfortunate things happened 1 after another
and the worst thing is to have lost maybe more than just 1 friend

1) Went out of the class cuz gt no file on Aug 20
2) Handed in a crappy maths file on Aug 21
3) blablabla (dont say here) on Aug 22
4) Completely forgot how to do physics, the science im banking on for A1 on Aug 23
5) Gt scolded by friends + enemies over 27 dollar issue on Aug 23
6) Offended a friend + his friend on Aug 23
7) Lost a Friend. Rest In Peace, Gabriel Goh on Aug 24

Not a good week at all

Have you ever gt the feeling that because you are a man, you cannot show emotion
when it overwhelms you, you will feel very ashamed of yourself, especially when others say that
so you try to act as if nothing happened afterwards, then the people who didnt see you show emotion will think your heartless, or something


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Losing Faith

To Gabriel Goh Wee Siang:

You are a great student
An even greater man
You have many accomplishments that i cannot even dream to have
but yet you passed so quickly
so suddenly
all of your friends at HIHS, 2charity 05, 4sincerity 07, and 6E 03 are missing you, including me
you are not a quitter
and you never said offended your friends
you are a catholic by faith

so please help me ask the man upstairs

he said that he has a plan for each and everyone
is that all you were meant to do?
are all of us the only people that will experience you?
if he had a plan,
is that it for you?
or was it for an even greater plan for the ones around you,
the plan is so great that he had to sacrifice you to do it
you, of all people
the scout,
the student leader,
the friend,

im starting to lose faith in every religion
Can someone help me?



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Open...

Open
Do you know where i want to be right now?

Right there beside you




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Really Insensitive Questions

After Reading Some Other People's Blogs
and from conversations with other people

i realized what kind of world i lived in
"the world is beautiful, yet the people who lived there weren't "

Here are some very VERY insensitive questions
If you think you will be offended, please don't read
i will refer to everyone by name
including my friends

Chances are, some of what i wrote there are wrong, so correct me, besides I'm already being so brutally honest.


To Bryan:
Why is it that you study ( a lot more than me ) and yet you get very low scores, as if you didn't study at all?


To Wei Quan:
Is it worth being a Chairman and adding one more thing to your already impressive list of achievements, when you are forced to make decisions that will hurt the ones that you were supposed to lead and become the dog of your superiors?


To Zheng Yang:
Why are you wearing the tie when we all know you hate it?


To Evon:
Does staying in the EXCO for 2/3 years collecting money and writing down staff count as experience in the sense that you know how to deal with people better? eg. How can you believe a newbie counsellor instead of me when i have stayed in the EXCO for 2/3 years ( Because I think i have more experience than you in handling people while working for 1 month )


To Wayne:
What if it was you were fat and people were laughing at you for being fat?


To Caiyi:
Why must talk as if every statement was directed at you, as if everyone was talking to you?


To Wen Hui:
Why do you remain friends with a hypocrite, AFTER knowing that they are hypocrites?


To Xiao Tong:
Why do you remain friends with a hypocrite, AFTER knowing that they are hypocrites?
(Same Question)


To Chun Ling:
Why are you such a hypocrite, and start scolding me just because your friends are too?


To Grace:
Why must you type at everyone else's tagboard that i decided to "lock my blog up"
And Why do you cheer when theres no lesson even though you don't participate in it when there is a lesson?


To Wei Xiang:
Why do you talk so big and yet do so little?


To Eugene:
Why do you deny it (your relationship)?


To Miss Tan Bee Tin:
Why do you keep saying i can't achieve my goals, when you tell my parents that i can because i am intelligent?


To Joan:
Why do you think phark shouldn't be said in front of you, when you say shoots and oh my tian regularly in front of everybody? ( Its just another slang word )


To Guan Zhong:
Why do you deny studying after getting high marks for a test, but not when you get low marks for 1?


To Xin Hui:
What is wrong with my pool table fund?


To Sirs and Ma'ams Of HOLY NPCC ( Probably Not Everyone ):
Why did you always scold us for our mistakes, while you can laugh and joke with the 4 when they commit one? ( not always, but it happens quite often that most of us realizes it)


To Qianru:
Why let go of your hatred for pretty much everything? eg. 2 charity 05


To Miss Lim Lin Lin:
Why do you need so many people to be your lackeys? Doesn't the SLB have enough people that you need those CCA Leaders


To Mrs Wong Vei Li:
Why must you always chuckle a bit ( Hum Chio ) After you scold someone?


To God / Buddha / Whoever:
Why weren't humans made perfect when you have the power to make it so?


To Myself:
Why am i doing "art" when i clearly suck at it?




Qns: Should I really post this entry?
Ans: Yes


Everyone must question their own conscience some time or rather
and i realized that prayer helps you connect with your god, rather than make you find your own mistakes

Sometimes people cannot see their own faults, including me

Sometimes we need other people to tell it to us straight, no sugar-coating
Its not worth being sensitive to feelings when nothing gets done.

Chances are, some of what i wrote there are wrong, so correct me, besides I'm already being so brutally honest.


If you hate me after reading this post, too bad
But ask yourself, Am i accusing you of anything ot merely making a statement not intended to offend you?
remember to check the definition of "accuse"

"The world is beautiful, yet the people who lived there weren't"

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Goals

Took Back Our Chinese olvl results on monday
got a c6 with merit for the oral
not gonna retake because i most probably won't use it for l1r5

Had English oral today
could have been better
but when i saw those 2 examiners
suddenly panic
then a lot of things planned to say but never
could have been better, a lot better


with only 1 week +++ to prelims
its about time i set some goals

these are my targets for prelims
English B3
Humanities B3
E Maths A1
A Maths B3 or B4
Physics A1
Biology A1
Chemistry B3 or B4

but im still not working hard, at all
plus those targets can only get me a 12 for L1R5
shyt

i REALLY wanna get a 9 for L1R5 for Os
REALLY REALLY
my targets for Os
English A2
Humanities B3
E Maths A1
A Maths A1
Physics A1
Biology A1
Chemistry B3

mostly to change after getting back prelims results
if i were to show my am and chem teachers my goals
they will probably laugh
out loud
then i will be emo after that
haha
...

sometimes i feel that my Os are just to prove to other people that Im not stupid
i dunno why
i just wanna get an A1 and laugh in their faces
and then they will say i know you will get 1 la, i just trying to push you to work harder
sianz
but what if i don't
they will be laughing at me
sighz

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Pass The Message

i know i started it without everyone's ideas
i know there wasn't a theme
i know only maybe only bryan or nisha wanted me to design
i know my design sucks
i know i was stupid to not ask for help
i know i was stupid enough to only ask for people whom i know will support me
i know i should not have wasted time to go that far
i know i was stupid to waste other people's time
i know that alot of people didn't like my design but never said anything
i know many people din like my design because it was mine
i know i know that wayne is a much better communicator than me
i know that i will shout when i speak to people i hate
i know you are stubborn
i know you are very stubborn
i know that mr tan is a good teacher
i know that everyone has different views
i know i should not have taken anything for granted
i know she only sa jiao to some people
i know i suck
i know i suck alot
i know i suck alot at design cuz im nt an art student
i know people probably have scolded me in their posts
i know alot of you hate me
i know ONLY polo has that specific texture that you like
i know you are allergic to black
i know 38 people must change their views just so you 3 can be happy
i know my friends are all fed up of you
i know the class is ready to go to war
i know you are blocking me on msn
i know im blocking you on msn
i know that the class's opinion is important
i know i took my friends for granted
i know you are the boss and im here to serve you

guess wad?

i don't really care
but since you can't really read the message
i will ask those who can to pass the message


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The Power of Silence

Some pharkers need to learn to shut up
as in really stop talking and think for a little while
help them make tshirt make so much phreaking noise
u so pro u make yourself la
no one stopping you wad
bloody hell
dun pay dun pay la
like i earning your money liddat

eh please la remember wad kind of small fry you are before you start making so much noise
the whole class only you one person and that b*tch making noise okay
you think wad, say redesign den redesign so easy arr
say change colour means change colour so easy arr
you ask some other people make they also will tu lan 1 leh
is no energy fight with you nia
cuz you overwork them by asking them redesign wad
u so pro u do la, need me for wad
make me waste my time spend 2 trips go queensway and some ulu place

texture not good not happy
gt collar nt happy
colour too black nt happy
picture too big nt happy
gt number nt happy
uncomfortable nt happy
too expensive nt happy
so pro make urself la
irritating pharker

still gt 1 more b*tch
never do anything keep asking
eh so is polo or jersey
polo or jersey
eh pharking irritating leh you noe
like if jersey means will lose your arm liddat
a stupid pharking reason like this make my friend cry
eh ask yourself, is also your friend leh, this is how you treat your friend 1 is it
somemore is more of your friend than mine leh
you know wads her rationale for stopping
is cuz she know you are tt type of ppl leh,
even your own friend pity you, tts why be your friend
you honestly think you got attractive and sociable personality arr
even conscience also dont have, only have other people sympathise for you
pharking b*itch

Anyway, if you are a reader of my blog, chances are that you are not those 2 b*tches
today during recess i ask wei quan write on whiteboard to bring 20$ buy shirt, gt extra den return
so during chinese lesson, they ask me is polo or jersey, see her face so pissed off liao, so just say 1 word jersey.
she shout across the room "ehh jersey leh, i dun wan buy liao"
so i shout back from beside her " DUN BUY, DUN BUY LA"
she look back at me say " gt talk to you arr"
bloody hell
she can shout i cannot shout arr
den keep talking among the girls, say wad jersey cannot, uncomfortable dunno wad shiite.
like the texture can make you die liddat
think wad toxic arr
those girls only like 8 odd people with maybe a few spectators
den onli about 2 people talking
so that 2 people influence everyone listening
somemore say that they represent all the girls leh
how is it possible that they represent all "27"(i dunno where she get this figure) when i already know of at least 6 girls who are not for their ideas
den keep asking the same stupid questions, polo or jersey?
answer until tu lan liao arr
so while they doing [nothing productive]
I or rather the boys tried to ask for the size of their pe t shirt so we can average the size when we going there on wednesday
den 5 mins later they keep asking
wad colour, wad design, wad texture
so wenhui go there and explain to them
explain liao still ask somemore
somemore is ask the same way as some gangster would ask you "ehh you borrow my money when going to return" that kind of tone.
of course i tu lan la
say like i owe them money liddat
den tt b*tch call wayne, say dunno wad, den he ask me draw the design at the board
i draw the design which we found to be less than 20$ at queensway
den they nt happy, say gt number as crest very weird.
bloody hell never see before say weird
tts not even the worse part yet
keep saying dun wan dun wan cannot put number, liddat very weird
den their own people say dun put number means like copy unity class tee
wad the hell
you want everything to look exactly generic (IE the same) but you still want unique
you are contradicting yourself rite
i stand there shout that line in chinese or singlish or sumthing
ready to shout somemore
den i remember i still in classroom and mr tan still inside
so i stop as a sign of respect to him
den wayne keep taking my phone show them number at the crest is not weird
they see liao nothing to say, so start to argue about the colour
say black not nice
i tot that was settled like 3 weeks ago
think so easy change colour, change yourself la
bloody hell i hear liao dam tu lan lor
lucky wynnie was their "representative"
den even more lucky she understand that cannot change colour so easily
den for some reason she can convey that message to them, thankfully
and the best part is she also don't support them, hurray!!
many people said then that the class was divided by where we sat
and we were ready to go to war
i "send" wenhui there help me explain to them the design
during the second time she go there
her own friend was arguing with her
as if she from iraq liddat
please la
wad kind of backstabber can you be
anyway by looking at her facial expression
we knew she was failing
den me and guanzhong at the side kept saying must send wayne liaoz
den suddenly she walked to the toilet
naturally at least 5 girls followed her
i was damn pissed off at that time lor
if no teacher there i confirm shout back or even throw a chair
i followed them out after a while
lucky she there laughing liao
if not i will be damn guilty
anyway, we tried to compromise
because they couldn't send a sample without us paying
they bo bian must send people there to represent the girls
if the representatives can agree to that SPECIFIC texture or colour or price over THERE. den we settle there liao, no more changing
guess wad that b*thc say
orr i go la, but i cannot on national day celebrations cuz i go out celebrate wad birthday watch wad jay chou movie
so you expecting us to change the date for you la
bloody hell
den the 2 pharking representatives they send HAD TO BE the other b*tch and her best friend
great i have to spend 1 pharking afternoon with them
bloody hell
i hope i have enuff friends to talk to then so i wont shout in front of the shopping center



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A Story Of (insert name)'s Life

you know how people always keep saying
this is just another chapter in my life
the story of my life will be interesting
or the story of my life will not be interesting (IE low self esteem people)

So i gt to thinking
you know how a story have main character (protagonist)
the supporting characters (eg robin, superboy, anyone other than the simpsons family in "the simpsons" and blahblahblah)
the kind people will onli remember if you talk about the main character

so what if your role is only just a supporting character in someone else's story
you were only there to maybe say a few lines that motivate the protagonist so he will feel good about himself
or you were just there to set off a chain of events such that the main character can save the day in a heroic fashion
i mean what if the only purpose in your life is to play seconds to some main character so that he can get a happily ever after
then the story of your life would be " how some idiot lived his life so he could do things that motivated the hero"
if that kind of story came to bookstores, would you even think about it for 2 separate occasions, much less buy it.
i mean could you imagine going to heaven and when "god" or whatever you think the judge is( i dont promote religions)
when he is reviewing your life in a convenient DVD format while you watch nervously beside him
he says " hmm, so you manage to motivate the hero in a typical fashion so he could save the day and/or get the girl, you get to go to heaven ."
If it was me, i would be wondering " so i got to go to heaven because some bastard save the day, not because i actually did something worth going to heaven for, My life must've sucked"

Sometimes i get the feeling my life is like that, but counselling and immediate phsychiatric help changed that

Anyway, speaking of "getting the girl" I've never been a girl but i actually wonder what those type of people are like.
maybe they just sit around all day waiting for some hero to kiss them
or maybe they are perfect in every manner and extremely intelligent , only to serve as some mindless slave doll for the hero/villain.
ever get the feeling that when you read the book, everything the girl seems to do only alludes to the fact that (you think) the only reason she's doing it is so the protagonist will like her ( or so you thought)
i don't think i will ever figure that out, so i wont bother

But there is this one aspect
the villain ( dum-dum-DDDDUUUUUMMMMMM)
you know, the antagonist who only serve to hurt you, and in some aspect make you a better person

i wonder how their book would be written
the protagonist would speak of him as if he was a devil
and then he would write as if he was a hero and he hurt him for a good reason
nevermind im too bored to write any longer

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desparation

i din realize i was being so despo
maybe im just trying to get attention.

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hormones sux

Caution: Every Sentence With The Word "I" Is Fiction, You've Been Warned



Damn all these beautiful girls
they onli wanna do you dirt
they'll have you suicidal, suicidal
when they say it's over


damn these hormones
life was so much easier before girls came into the picture

that's why it'll never work

u think so easy find arr!?!

My friend once said
this kind of thing cannot find one, nature will take its course
but by then you have to learn to take initiative

stupid eugene!!

he found his already

mrs ganesan once told me (in her car) that the trend in 4humility classes
is that by prelims most of us would have found a stead

how true that is
who knows

they say we're too young,to get ourselves sprung
oh we didn't care,we made it very clear
and they also said, that we couldn't last together

nothing really meaningful in these words


Everytime evon and eugene talk about their relationship, i just stand there and hear, not really knowing what is going on


i wish i could do a handstand or bicycle kick

girls have caused me to make too much changes to myself
and yet none seem to realise that
maybe cuz everyone is making the same changes to themselves
so no one is really standing out
everyone hair gt spike/put gel or wax or wadever they put in their hair

I hope im not still a bachelor by 25, seriously
i miss my old life
stupid hormones had to mess it up

apparently i don't have any photos of me with my friends
maybe the result of not having the habit of taking photos or not having friends
i think its a bit of both
yet a whole lot of nothing

i feel sad everytime i visit my own friendster page

can someone shoot me
then replace me with a clone so nobody finds out and doesn't feel sad about it
its a little complicated but its worth for my friends and family



kinda like my anti depressant
i believe i can fly
see me running thru that open door
i believe i can fly

everyone's talking about their him and their hers
then their best friends have to tag along when they get into an argument etcetera
if i had a her
i wonder who would be the best friend to tag along
but more importantly, who would be the her

sometimes i wonder if i am misled by beauty
maybe so, maybe not

im not a big fan of being positive
i NEED to talk to someone honestly
someone who wont get shocked or surprised or judge me
i desperately need to go for counselling
i feel like harry potter except i dont have magic to help me

can someone counsel me
because the me you see at school is just a big ideal picture of some slacker who is happy go lucky
i tot that was me
until i realised there was another me trying to break out of that cage
for one reason or another
and i am dying day by day
until all thats left is a cage with someone dead inside
and all you see is just a ideal happy go lucky slacker
and you dunno why he went insane

!!!!!!!!


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Some Anti Smoking Essay

I suddenly got the inspiration for this after 2 consecutive rides on the bus.

In my family of four, no one commands more respect and power than my father. He is not exactly a typical tyrant than you would expect, but yet he somehow manages to make you do things you wouldn't normally do without resorting to violence or anger. He is a friendly man who can communicate with pretty much anyone. He is also a very successful businessman who treats both his clients and employees well. In fact, many people consider him to be the perfect man, since he neither drinks nor gambles, but what they do not know is that he smokes, a lot. He doesn't smoke in front of anyone other than his family, and only does it when he is under immense stress. When I was a kid, i used to ask him why he smokes, since it smelt so horrible. He would always answer, " Every time I smoke, one of my wishes will be granted, but i have to use them sparingly, or else there will be no more wishes left." And it wasn't without "evidence", on one occasion he smoked 7 cigarettes in a row the night before an important meeting about a deal with a client. The next day he came home early to celebrate the closing of the deal. So as time went by, I started to believe in what he told me. And i had no reason not to, after all why would my father lie to me?

Next up would be my brother. He is 21 right now and living on his own with his girlfriend. He wasn't very bright in school, only averaging passable grades, making my father very ashamed of him, since he himself was a university graduate. He too was a social person, being one of the most popular kid back in his secondary school days. He was also a natural leader, organising many environment- friendly events in the school. However, the big difference between my brother and my father, was that the former hated smoking. My brother tried to stop him from smoking but he just refused, straining their relationship. Fortunately, even though they never admitted it, I believe that they deeply respected each other's strengths and flaws. My brother is working as a construction worker now, as well as a part time bartender job at night to save up for his future wedding. my mom once described him as being too good to other people for his own good.

My mom was a great woman. Strong, caring and sensitive, and the best part is she totally loves her children. She dotes on me and my brother so much, sometimes we have to ask her not to. But she was the person who instilled a lot of discipline in me. When I was a kid, she used to be very fierce and punished me severely, especially if i did something morally wrong like lying. But as I grew up, she became less strict and shows her caring side.

Lastly, there's me, a Secondary four student who's still a kid at heart. I am quite a smart kid, but lazy. My father puts all his hopes of his children being doctors on me and splurges on me, making me feel guilty that i was stealing attention away from my brother. Fortunately, he understands and doesn't hold grudges against me. As far as religion goes,I'm pretty much a freethinker, with little bits of christianity from my mother and buddhism from my father and grandparents. I do believe that there is a force controlling this world who guides everyone, depending on what they have done. Myd. brother calls it karma, in short, if you do good deeds, you will be rewarded, if you do bad things, you will be punishe So that made me wonder, maybe it was because my father did so many good deeds that made him successful, rather than the cigarettes, but i didn't really pursue the matter.

Now, finally i can continue with the story. I entered Secondary four life as a completely naive child. I didn't know what having a girlfriend was like, what new friends I will have, why people are having so much problems over their boy-girl relationship. And the LCE lessons weren't helping one bit. During the first three months, I did make new friends, but i didn't participate in their activities, basically going home everyday to study, so my grades were quite consistent.

During the one week break, one of my friends, Buddy, called me out to watch a movie with them. Naturally i agreed since i had nothing better to do than study. We watched "insert movie here" and went to play pool nearby until 11pm. Just before we left the area, Buddy led me to a small alley near my house. He then took out a small box from his pocket, which under the dim lighting could not be seen clearly, but he did take out a stick from it. He said' "try it, just one smoke." I hesistated before taking it, but just as i reached out to grab it, a huge torrent(?) of rain swept across the alley, catching both of us by surprise and causing Buddy to drop the stick. I sped towards the opposite void deck near my house. He threw the box to me before running in the opposite direction towards the void deck, shouting to me across the rain, " keep it!" Needless to say I went home drenched, with an angry mother waiting at the door.

On the first day of the 2nd semester, Buddy rushed up to me and put another box of cigarettes into my bag, saying that he has been blacklisted by the Discipline Master and I need to keep the box with me for safekeeping. Before I had to chance to say anything, he dashed off, leaving a motion of blur in its wake (exaggerate too much) . So i was stuck with the another box for who-knows-how-long. School wasn't any much harder for the 2nd semester, except that i have less time to study since I was playing with Buddy and a new friend, "Guy". Guy was a big, strong, tough guy with lots of muscles and a sensitive heart. Its no wonder so many girls are attracted to him, since he was handsome and romantic at the same time. The three of us were interested in both soccer and basketball, so we could fit in with most cliques easily. We played virtually every day after school, alternating between the two sports. One weekend, we played all day at the video arcade until 5 pm, after which we sat by the steps and chatted about life and things like that. I found out that Guy was a smoker, but the only reason he did it was to "keep" his girlfriend. How ironic for a tough guy to be manipulated by a girl. They also tried to persuade me to smoke, saying it was cool and stuff. I tried to light a cigarette in my mouth, but a speeding car went by and splashed water on all three of us, making all the cigarettes as well as the lighter wet. This was the period when they kept pressuring me into smoking.

My Mid-year Examinations results declined by quite a lot. Many of my teachers complained about the sudden tiredness they see in me, mainly because I play till the wee hours of the morning. So during the holidays, my father decided to bring me to a hawker center for lunch as well as a father-to-son talk. As he was holding a lighted cigarette in he left hand and his handphone on the other, he started to check the 4d results. The 1st prize was 1991, which he missed by 2 digits, while the 2nd prize was 1210 which he also missed by 2 digits. However,he blinked a few times when he saw the 3rd prize, the 3rd prize was 9733, which meant he won! Now i began to wonder if cigarettes really did grant wishes.



To Be Continued ...

Life .... After 16

Im not here to blog about what happened during HI Idol. Everyone else did that already, but still congrats to Sulasteri on winning. I don't support popularity contests.

When you reach 16, you start to do a lot of thinking, thinking what you will do after school, what kind of girl/guy will be your future ( or current) girlfriend/stead/wife, how much you will earn or even the the next important thing thats gonna happen to you, whether you are going to a JC or Polytechnic.

I know each has plus and minus(es) and i also know different people who go for different reasons. Some being higher education, some because their parents chose this path for them, some because they WANT to go against their parents. but im not here to talk about that.

im talking about what happens after. Not everyone who gets out of school is automatically given a job related to their diploma/degree, nothing in life EVER happens so predictedly (if such a word exists). Cuz if thats the case, there would no longer be any more hawkers to serve you favorite food, no more cleaners to clear all your messes, and no more annoying salesmen who bug you until you buy something you already have (though that may actually be a good thing).

SO does anyone really have a backup plan if the Integrated Resort (which you took as a diploma) went bankrupt, or if the next biggest trend in jobs is hygiene engineering (i just made that up as a word for toilet) and you just happen to not have a d/d in that industry like pretty much everyone else. or they decided to go back to primary industries so the business d/d just became void.

After all that virtually useless crap, I have classified all the jobs in the world into 3 groups which im not gonna list out since that would take up the internet.
The 3 groups are makers/getters --- the people who does work so you have something in your hands, mainstream include miners, manufacturers, designers while less mainstream workers include sweat shop workers and parents to a certain extent. The next group is the fixers --- the people who fix things, things you got form makers or otherwise. Mainstream jobs include doctors and repairman, detectives, teachers, while less mainstream jobs include cosmetic surgeon, hitmen (people who kill other people, assasins), lawyers, pimps and mama sans. The 3rd group is the entertainer --- people who make sure you are happy and can do your job well. Mainstream jobs include comedians, dancers, actors while less mainstreams include prostitutes and psychologists.

There is this last group, their main purpose is to ensure others are doing what they are supposed to be doing, the Controller, or Leader.they are the CEOs and policemen and stuff. They are the type of people whom schools are trying to groom because they earn the most yet do the least compared to others, they just need to know how to talk and maybe management skills.

So mainly different people have abilities and interests and skills related to different groups. and i also find that its quite difficult to have interested in 2 jobbs of the same groups ( which are nt related) , such as liking doctor and repairman. however, it is obvious when you like music, usually you will like all sections of it but i wont touch on that.

I feel that it is important to be skilled in or at least interested to know more about jobs from various groups, as that will keep you versatile when deciding which job you wanna take when your diploma becomes useless in the real world, or if your education doesn't suit your or the current job demand

for example
im still dunno if i can make it to the JC, which is my first choice
so im making some backup plans

if i DO make it into a JC
i will probably take engineering or medical courses
engineering because i like it and medical because can be doctor/specialist and earn alot of money

But if i DON'T make it, and go into a poly instead

i will avoid engineering because a uni engineer can easily earn more than a poly engineer so difficult to find job.
i will take optometry(eyes) as there is currently no degree yet or theirs is specialist one

if i fail really really badly and go to ITE
i could become a bartender or something the industry then needs.


but im keeping my fingers crossed for jc although being a bartender sounds cool

so basically i wrote all that crap above to write about my plans after 16 provided i dont get retained la


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3rd strip up

3rd strip up
yay!
i still haven't started on ANY homework yet

my hand is still very ugly, the skin hasn't closed the wounds up yet
its pain when i bend my elbow or touch water


Patrol Lima Oscar Lima 3 by ~wargsmon on deviantART

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Sentosa Trip : Episode 2

Went to sentosa again
this time i gt injured - death by blood loss

wayne was the last one to arrive at hg station (nt surprisingly)
this time onli 6 peeps nia
me,gz,nisha,sherlynn weekiat and wayne nia

when they reach harbourfront vivo
gt ppl try to get their donations
me and gz walked as if we din noe them
they said they could donate 2$ and write a message on a box of juice carton
wayne wrote weekiat [heart] sher and 4 hum below
den we went sentose via monorail

had a bloody blister(literally) due to yesterday's game
so went to the beach first
go there the blister burst, den in the end never go into the water
just sit in the sun/shade suntan
bloody hell

skin crispy liao den go rent bikes
they kept asking me if i was biking or not
so i kept answering i am
and i did
weekiat and sher take tandem bike
gz and wayne aso take tandem bike
me and nisha solo
biked around the bicycle trails a few times
i still very lousy sometimes
cannot keep the bike straight
sumtimes will swerve to left or right
near bang to others
especially weekiat and sherlynn
den we went near palawan beach, the other beach
there the trail very sandy
den i stupid go and speed up
wee kiat suddenly come up next to me den i swerve and fall down
lucky i din bang them, if not i will feel very guilty
i bled quite alot at my right elbow and left hand
the cut quite deep
but not very pain, no saltwater touch, heng arr
washed off with some water before going to the first aid station
the first aider dressed the wounds den take picture, dunno for wad
i still carried on riding the bike to get to our lockers
they keep saying i shldnt
but i still did
in the end, my bandage nearly came off and had to get it re-dressed

went back to vivo at about 5
sher and weekiat went home first
went window shopping
actually i was really bored then
go eat after den go play arcade
altogether play 10+++ matches of air hockey
gz keep saying he is very pro
in the end first match lose quite a big gap
we betted on it
whoever lose pays for the game
i played for 4 matches with gz
2 win 2 lose
the wins all gap very big 1
den lose gap very small like 11-12 or 13-11
den nisha and wayne aso played air hockey
played time crisis 2 after
wayne and nisha played first
den me and gz turn
he died quite early
and had a lot less points than me
but too bad we werent betting

after go outside too find the juice box
they using all the juice boxes to make houses
they trid to find it for 15 odd minutes
den i found it at the first house they checked
lousy, hahas

reached home at 9 plus

the end
hahas

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patrol lima oscar lima #2

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yay second strip
still nt much opinions on the first 1 yet
i shld be studying for chinese olvls rite nw

comic

Patrol Lima Oscar Lima 1 by ~wargsmon on deviantART


A little something made in spare time
please dont critisise
done in the style of rich burlew of order of the stick www.giantitp.com/oots
i havent gt his permission yet cuz cant contact him

The Comprehensive Guide To Understanding Glennard -- entry #1

in an effort to make myself more transparent, strictly figure of speech
i decided to blog out stuff about me
such that when and if i say something stupid or hurts u in some way
u can say, glennard is like that 1 la, dun take it seriously or dun be bothered

i see a lot of ppl helping out their frens in such ways
but has anyone helped me yet, i think

The Comprehensive Guide To Understanding Glennard -- entry #1

Glennard \ˈglen-ne:(r)d\ n Organism, half shy, half outgoing human male currently still in teenage years. Known to think too much and talk loudly when it thinks a certain point should be reinforced. However, it is capable of being completely quiet and emo ( see EMO--entry ##) when under stress or awkward situations such as in a room full of strangers. Prone to breakdowns. Relatively creative. Considered by the general populace as one who has low self esteem and is generally negative and slacking

Nil Gramends \ i co(u)ldn't fi:nd the `pro-noun-c(i)a-tion \ n Fictional Character. Alter ego of Glennard Sim. Most commonly found online. It is more brave than Glennard in comparison and has done numerous bold and daring deeds, deeds that will never be mentioned by Glennard to any other, besides those involved. Has a long list of infamous actions, most done online. Glennard usually reverts to this character either online, or trying to escape harsh realities of life. Many of the "creative' ideas are created by Glennard when in his alter ego of Nil Gramends, as usually Glennard will think that they suck and don't even try. Perfectionistic a in certain sense



Some of the things Glennard usually says and what he really thinks

I'm Bored

[What he really thinks]

I feel lonely and want someone to talk to, and was hoping that by saying im bored would instantly be a conversation topic.


Don't Want [to do something] lah

[What he really thinks]

I really want to join it but due to some insecurity issue, refuse and use laziness as an excuse.


Bloody Hell

[What he really thinks]

Bloody Hell


I tell u something/ Do u want to listen?, don't want jiu suan le(nevermind)

[What he really thinks]

Im about to tell you something very important which will either give u an advantage or make me feel better and less insecure, so shut up and listen.



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Sentosazzz

Second post of the day
very tired liaoz

Went to sentosa today with 4hum ppls
about 10 nia

evon said its the first actual 4hum gathering den call mrs susanne ng to congratulate us
wayne say mrs ng will say y neve invite us
hahas

went to the beach first
played a little soccer in the sand while waiting for the ppl to change
the sand was very very hot
but wear slippers very itchy
so play barefoot

when they changed and jumped into the water
i just stayed dry with wayne and joan
they kept trying to "persuade" us to go in
den we give up and went to change
when we change finish
gt wet for a few minutes den they say wanna go cycle
wah lao wet liaoo den say go
hahas

later we go cycle
i brought roller blades
so no need pay money
but i the slowest
cuz small wheels top speed very slow

they went a main road way
for cars and bus 1
den a lot of uphill and downhill road
den i escaped death 3 times
2 times when i fell at the road
all the bus uncles look at us keep pointing us to stay away
bryan went back to find me
he aso kanna pointing by the uncles
i fell down 3 times lor all during down and uphill road
1ce when bryan made me carry his bag den i cannot balance
but he stay with me cuz i very slow
i aso cannot do downhill cuz too fast
if use heel brake den will slide 1 side hit the wall or trees
1ce i actually fell in the middle of road
lucky bus already pass by
they went to see the merlion
in the end reach there cannot go up
so take picture at the small fountain

went back to the bus station
i took off my blades and walked back
they went to return the bikes
i just sit at the steps wait for them
only joan rachel bryan and evon went back to find me
the rest playing soccer at the beach
we bought some water and go back to find them
saw them playing with other ppl
wayne play for a while den break his skin at the toe
bleed alot
so ask the first aider come and help
i subbed him
den playplayplay
i back heel the ball alot
everytime take the ball wait a while before passing
seldom dribble
dunno y
maybe lazy
wayne scored and dribbled around them alot
everyone was impressed with his skill
even them
after 2 goals(draw) we went to bathe
den too many ppl so go to bus station toilet to bathe
in the end there aso no shower
so they walk back
i just sit there again wait for them
in the end the girls never bathe
cuz queue too long

went back to vivo afterwards
in a monorail
went to a place overlooking the port
to pose for picture
there saw michelle covering her mouth
she saw wayne tried to run away
went to burger king to eat
7$ for 1 small burger and large fires and coke
plus both aso nt very big
rather eat at carls jr
much MUCH bigger burgers sia
walked to the station
along the way the saw a watch shop
they decided to take a look
so i stood outside
after a while rachel and evon join me
say they take very long to choose watch
in the end everyone( ithink) who were looking at the watch bought 1
walk some more
saw the custom bag shops
the brand name was taggar
almost like mine
but i saw the bag like very flimsy
very easy to break

den take mrt home
and bus
den finish
the end

hahas

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High School Never Ends

In High School
different people introduce different things to ur life
things that u wldnt have explored if they werent in ur life

simple examples

fear-ms michael(closest too the actual thing)
sadism- WONG vei li

she smiles to herself when she invigilates and she smiled during msmichael talk

humor thru being idiots and minor perverts- Boys of 2cha`05
sports- Boys Of 4hum`07 and probably a few girls
Mass Hardcore Studying- General Population of 4hum
Trust- Yang
Innocence- WenHui
Diao ing- Xiaotong and linda ( no offence)
Respect- Npcc
Teamwork- Npcc
Technology/various nerdy stuff- Kenneth(no offence)
Humor- Haoxiang


wanna keep my list short
if nt no one will read
hahas

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