NS letter

so, my parents came home and got a letter from the army. so my mum calls me down to open my letter (i was upstairs). and i was like, oh crap going to enlist liao, shhhhhhiiiiiittttt.

then i saw the letter, and it was from the navy, i was like im going to the navy . then i opened the letter and saw the weird cardboard thing. inside got the weird grayish looking paper that's basically an advertisement to entice you to get into the navy along with a weird reply card with no instructions or anything. anyway, you can see in one of those pictures that my name is repeated 3 times, if you can't read the words above them are, commanding officer, powerpoint supervisor, excel sheet manager. which the last 2 is supposed to (ithink) sound bad. it actually took me a few minutes to register that "joke". also, there's 2 small triangle thing so you can fold it and make into some cheap table stand thing. which is quite funny, and my mum was like, wah liddat spend the money one ar. hahas

anyway, after i read finish the letter then i realised how much i sweat(ed). in case, you didn't know, after writing yesterday's post, i suddenly felt so overwhelmed by the future. it's like it just suddenly hit me and i didn't know what was going to happen after jc. and more importantly, it was scary. it's terrifying to not know what is going to happen. in school there's always more school more education, promoting to the next year of education, but no more, not now anyway.

i mean i thought about my career so many times in the past, i just never got around to link them together neatly, so they always remained fragmented ideas and just thoughts floating around. until yesterday, i have never felt so unsure before. why is that?

this is not healthy

just a short post today, but hey pictures!

i need to drop this baggage before i go in for the exams, anyone free?