The end has a new meaning in my heart

Good News before the bad, the exams are OVER (ok they were over a long time ago)



BAd News, NPCC has just unleashed 3 activities in a row, BLESSING parade, ATC camp and NCO camp
firstly, the blessing is extremely significant cuz the principal likes it, or else no one wld have remembered it. She is trying to sell it to the catholics by making it sound good. i mean who cares, why should sumone care when u just feel like lazing at home rite?? For the first time, Im part of the GUARD OF HONOR, but before u celebrate, i DONT know how to do rifle drills as well as the sec 2s.

I wanna cry

the ATC camp is going to hurt me as we are going to UBIN AGAIN, YAYAY !!!! there is going to be a wet activity this time and i dont feel like bringin anything wet back home. worse still, we cant bring any home clothes there, onli np or skool shirts. its still quite okay compared to the nco camp

I wanna run away

Now, the NCO camp is going to be the highlight of this year, cuz we get to run a campfire for the first time. but i scared we not up to standard. the whole nco camp will decide what post we get. that alone leads to many questions. What if i dont get the post i want?What if Im not up to standard? What if The understudy NCOs are better then me? I WILL push myself this time, i realli hope i can do it. Joey told us today that our squad has been weak from sec1 to now. its true but its very demoralising to hear from an officer. He told us that there will be CONFIRMED understudys. that means we were not good enough to run the unit by ourselves that we need help from others. I realli wanna prove myself during the camp, i dont wanna let my seniors down. I dont wanna let me instructors down. I dont wanna let myself down (i am so selfish) but i realli hope to prove sumthing during this camp. maybe im just not cut out to be a squad leader. I realli wanna cry if i dont get the post i want. what will happen after that? i dont know. I hope i can be more iniative for my np life from now on.

I wanna hide from all my troubles and wait till they go away

Help me......

PILLS, the world could definitely use less of them

I hate pills.
They make children cry because of their bad taste
They make old people sick because of bad contents
They make aunties buy them because they are kiasu about health
They make men hate it because aunties make them eat it. See Above
They make ME hate it because of ALL the reasons above, except the auntie one.
In short, They just plain sucks.
oh ya, before i forget I HATE PILLS

You may be wondering why i wrote this. I have to take pills everyday, my mum forces me to take it because she says its healthy. The human body is capable of protecting and keeping itself healthy and working, so why do we need "health supplements" when its not necessary.

As I stared at the pills last night, I started wondering, What if they could create a DESTRESS pill? You take one and you are destressed. I dunno what your reaction would be, but i would most probably avoid it, possibly coz i dun develop stress like the rest of my 3 HUM classmates, thus im the 3humblacksheep. But still, sumthing that good will definitely have side effects and desperate people will deifinitely, i repeat DEFINITELY overdose and end up kicking the bucket.

So if it truly happens, there will be a huge craze over it, like the ones about slimming pills among three people, students, teachers and possibli workers. The teachers can abuse it during exam period like putting stress on the students and selling them at half price(just a thought).

But honestly, would studying really push you to such a desperate time that you will do things like pills?

Perhaps...

doing photoshop manipulation, failing horribly. O2 jam is fun. I haven study for geog [Insert random thought here]

I LOVE BALL GAMES (no seriousli)

im going crazy

after skool bh suddenli rush up and sae gt wad gathering then ask us go canteen find janice. then reach there nobody, so yang go call then they say at hg mall macdonald. so we go there then she and sotong and jelena(feel tempted to write jel) sit at 1 corner, not enuff space for us. so we sit another corner, then bh alwaes use the" If u are part of 2 cha then u go wif us la" then in the end still boyz one side, girlz one side, dam @#@$#%@6# leh. so we ate stuff wif adrian $$ and edwin joined us later. didi fighting wif edwin den suddenli punch his bag and crush his calculator, dam nice leh.

then we ( the 2CHA rockers minus fangyuan and ben ) go back to skool to play some ball, we playing at the corridor cuz the class lined up for exam liao. den we playplayplay until tired then go in 3unity . den we tok, den suddenli yang say SONGBO, i turn around see guei big body wif a camera. he call us take picture wif the ball. dam stupid, den adrain still face the stupid camera wif "that" face. after that we go down to the office and he scoldscoldscold until he ask us wad punishment to get. we sae detention, originalli we wanted 1 week, but then he say three hrs b4 we replied. then edwin still ask can after exam anot. WTH mr guei nearli wanted to scold us for bargaining ,lucki mrs wong come out at that time then "tok" to us. then suddenli after that he sae punishment change to CWO but 1 hr onli. wah lao, i wanted detention lor. nevermind.


ON a side note,
i hate the stereotype that all humility ppl are smart and cannot fail. wah lao, it sux lor. then if we dunno sumthing, i get suaned. iz realli very unfair lor, cuz IM NOT THE TYPE VERY NERDY 1 ! but almost everyone else is in humility. summore they alwaes go home on the dot after lesson, never play sports r anithing besides wayne la. alwaes go home revise like theres no tomorrow. I WANT TO CHANGE CLASS.

The worst has yet to come...

I HAVENT STARTED STUDYING!!! YEAH!!! and to those who havent started as well , i urge you to start for i do not want to see anyone retain , except maybe me.

I will say a few words on behalf of the part of my brain which is capable of thought before it dies later on...

English : It would be much easier if it wasnt tested, HECK everything is.
but still, its much easier when Mrs. Hendra was marking my paper

Chinese : YAY no more studying. But now the lessons are real pointless

E Maths : My teacher can revise one topic in 15 minutes while I see other classes fainting in front of their txtbks. Okay so im exagerating

A Maths :
WHY do they include this subject in our syllabus
WHY cant i understand quadratic function
WHY dont i feel that A maths is easier than E maths
WHY cant i understand indices and surds
WHY isnt she responsible for my failure
WHY do they have to bundle our exam paper and show to our parents
WHY cant i understand everything else except matrix
Pretty much

Pure Biology : Our teach hates our class, till now i still dunno why. Why bio need so much memory work. pretty much everything is memory work which i am suckish at. And then theres practical. When the o lvls are over, im gonna tear or burn or sadistically get rid of the txtbk

Pure Chemistry : The teach should work at a polytechnic, but she doesnt the salary thats why shes stuck in our school. The subject is "grasp"able but need a lot of explaination which im also suckish at.

Pure Physics : Possibly my favourite subject if not for english or something else. This subject is rather easy to grasp has only a few formulas to memorixe compared to bio and chem. BUT there are hundreds of ways they can ask you the same question and there are many factors to include in your working.

Social Studies : Basically a very simple way to revise it
1) memorize everything from chpt 1 to 3 (a lot more than u think)
2) Study the different ways to write it
3) Write everything you remember into that format
so its simply memory (which i sick at) and reformatting

Geography Elective: I like this subject becoz...
1) No need for reformatting
2) Just dump it all on foolscap
3) There is sometimes a graph or chart to help you
4) ITS ONLY 45 MINS COMPARED TO HISTORY 1 HR 45 MINS

On a side note, I liek basketball( jus kiddin)
i just donned a new hairstyle some say is cool, some dont seem to notice it whatever
People around school seem to have pimples popping all over due to stress and whatnot

I need a sanctuary...

I hate mood swings
seriously...

woke up today feeling quite okay except for a little fatigue, must be getting old. Anyway, i was quite okay until i reached school. I started feeling very depressed and my heart was heavy, i couldnt explain it. It just happened. it lasted thruout the whole day during lesson time. The whole day was just very tiring, but i didnt feel compelled to sleep, i just felt that my heart was heavy, literally.

Lessons finalli over at 2.30. met up with adrian them. we were talking in canteen the whole time until fy joined us at about 4+. I was laughing at their jokes so hard i coughed all the way home. It was very wierd and i couldnt realli have a productive thought in my head.

Then as i was going home, i saw my bus pass me at the traffic light. so i decided to walk to the other stop quite far away, then a another 62 came as i just passed the road and there was no way i could run back. Unlucky right, the one time i decided to walk, they give me a reason i shouldnt. whats was even wierder was that i didnt feel angry or pissed off or anything, it just like faded away

I realli starting to lose control of mi mind and body.
dunno when it will end, hopefully soon....

im just so tired...
someone help me...

First law of holes: When in a hole, stop digging

A scattered dream is like a far off memory,
a far off memory thats like a scattered dream.
i wanna line the pieces up
yours and mine



This song is very meaningful, at least to me

Sanctuary (Utada Hikaru)


In you and I there's a new land,
Angels in flight
A sanctuary, my sanctuary, yeah
Where fears and lies melt away
Music will tie
What's left of me
What's left of me now

I watch you fast asleep,
All I fear means nothing

In you and I there's a new land,
Angels in flight
A sanctuary, my sanctuary, yeah
Where fears and lies melt away
Music will tie
What's left of me
What's left of me

My heart's a battleground

You show me how to see,
That nothing is whole and nothing is broken,

In you and I there's a new land
Angels in flight
A sanctuary, my sanctuary, yeah
Where fears and lies melt away
Music will tie
What's left of me
What's left of me now

My fears, my lies
Melt away...

If i ever get the mp3, maybe just maybe i will change the tune
Been having a lot of thoughts lately, never got around to blog about them, maybe later

maybe...

the video is extremely amazing

In contrast to the rather sad or low tone of whatever written above, if you have taken the time to read, some observations on life....

Enjoy

We tend to overestimate the effect of a technology in the short run and underestimate the effect in the long run


When a distinguished but elderly scientist states that something is possible, he is almost certainly right. When he states that something is impossible, he is very probably wrong.
The only way of discovering the limits of the possible is to venture a little way past them into the impossible.
Any sufficiently advanced technology is indistinguishable from magic.

As an online discussion grows longer, the probability of a comparison involving Nazis or Hitler approaches one

Work expands so as to fill the time available for its completion

The best way to describe work, SSDD, Same Shit, Different Day

When you let things go by their own, they usually go from bad to worse


Any new solution brings by itself new problems.
It's useless to make something foolproof, fools are very smart.

Never assume malice when stupidity will suffice

This post was longer than i expected

I onli realised how tired i truly am, and this is 3 weeks before my exams, great
maybe theres a way....

maybe.....

The Big Fat Liar

Let me tell you a tale,

Once upon a time, a little boy loves to lie. He would lie all day long to avoid getting into trouble. He was a very good liar and only few can tell if he is lieing or not. However, he did not feel good when he lies. He would always feel very guilty about lieing but he would never admit or stop lieing.

One night, as he saw a shooting star speed across the skies, he made a wish, to stop feeling guilt after lieing. A great and beautiful fairy descended from the star after hearing his call, he said to him, " If I take away your guilt, I would have to give you another ......" The boy immediately replied, " Anything but this " So the fairy agreed.

The next day, the boy woke up happily as he remembered the incident last night. He tried it out by telling his mother that he was feeling very ill today and could not go school. True enough, he did not feel guilt at all. So he stayed at home the whole day and played and had a lot of fun. His mother did not know that he was lieing. The next day, he woke up a little taller than yesterday, but he did not notice. He went to school and told all his friends that his father won the lottery and invited them over for a party. As soon as he said that, he grew an inch taller and 1 pound heavier. All his friend came over while his parents were out and partied the whole day. During the evening, his parents returned home and wanted to know why it was so noisy. The little boy lied to cover up for his first lie. Later, he had to lie to his friends to make them leave. He lied to his parents the whole night to make sure they did not know what happened. He could not stop lieing. The lie just got bigger and bigger.

The next morning, he woke up to find that his bed was only size of his head. He tried to walk but everytime his feet touched the ground, it would tremble. His mother heard the noises and went to his room, onli to find a 1500 pounds giant. His mother screamed and fainted from the sight. His father came in and saw te great monstrocity that was his son. But, he could not see his son's face as it's cheek was too large and covered a large portion of his face. His voice also changed due the large weight of his new head. He could not tell his father that he was his son. So he ran. His father called the local authorities about him. the little boy ran and ran. He did not know where he was going but he still ran. Soon police cars and helicopters were chasing him. The boy kept running and running till he reached the forest. The police decided to stop chasing him and wait till he came out......

This story is partly written by me, parts of it are from references in the net and Television

I have not written the end of this story as i feel that there is no fitting end form the little boy. I feel that as i wrote the story, i reflected and found most of it familiar as i was the little boy. I LIE very OFTEN. I sometimes cannot control myself. I am rather capable of lieing and i can make people believe me. But, I will always feel very guilty about it. Although the guilt has driven me to near depression, I still cant kick the habit.

Maybe I need help...... I realli need help

This post was written when the author was feeling guilty after a big mistake/lie

知己知彼, 百戰百勝 (If you know your enemies as you know yourself, Victory will be yours)

How often does a teacher come across something that a student does outside school and actually praises it. I would say close to never. But it happened to me in my 9th year of school. Gotta stop before i get too bhb.

A wise person once told me that she wanted to be a secondary teacher, even though she knew it was going to be hard work. She said that she wanted to do something to understand people in their period of growth, both physical and mental. She wanted to help teenagers to learn and help themselves. Try and guess who she is.

I know of teachers who can connect to their pupils, not just because they are young and know what students do at home. They are generally more accepted as they actually make an effort to care about students, and they respect us at individuals. Thus when we feel that, we in turn care and respect them as a form of appreciation.These are the types of teachers we come back to visit when we graduate. A very good example would be Miss Jacqueline Nai( dunno if i spelt it right). She really helped us through our lower secondary life.Thanks!!

Then when there is a good side of things, there will definitely be the dark side. Teachers who have a philosophy of " My job is a teacher, I get students to pass their O levels and nothing else." These types of teachers are usually less significant, mainly because we 'switch off' during their lessons or seriously dislike them due to harsh punishment or useless lectures which can help us. They should not be mistaken with teachers like Mr Jamil, who is a really nice guy. This type of teacher do not care about their students, even if its their form class, they just take care of the admin stuff, make sure the class is alive and running. They also take credit if the students get good grades, which they do not deserve since its the pupils hard work and not the teachers. I shall call them the objective teacher

Teachers like that should really get another job. Students in primary or scondary school are growing up and the people around them are going to be the ones that mold them in to what they will be. The objective teachers simply act as a form of communication like a postman. Then why does the government pay them so much more than a postman. The government pays the teachers a lot because the children are the future of the country, the teachers are responsible for its well-being and growth, apart from friends and parents. However, the government is paying that much because it truly takes a lot have effort and talent to be a teacher. He needs to think like an adult, a friend, as well as a social worker at the same time. Only so, will the children be able to learn and grow. but the objective teachers only focus on the academic aspect of their job and thus is "cheating" the government and parents of their time and money. I can honestly say that at least 30% of the teachers in Singapore are objective teachers. There are many people around us that should become teachers, but they lack the knowledge and drive to be one, thus they would rather have another job.

Children and teens need someone to help them grow. Their friends can influence them a lot but they also sometimes do not know the light from the dark. The parents know whats right and wrong, but their efforts are ignored more often than not. A caring teacher is the balance between the two and they have more influence on the kids if the children trust them. These are the people we should really celebrate, not some guy who sings about change and doesnt do anything.

Teenagers between ages 13-18 are very vulnerable as they are given a
lot more freedom and responsibility than they can handle. But parents dont keep them under check, most of the teens stray away due to peer pressure( parents are uncool).If the teachers onli focus on teaching O lvls, they will feel that the classroom is just another place where the unpleasant always seem to happen.

In this post, I really want to commend the caring teachers that have helped me in my life from pri 4 to now. I will list them down another time.

Psychology---study of human mind and behaviour

At this point in time, its abt week 9 of term 1, veahave scored better in tests than most people that beat( or totally destroyed and humiliated) me in grades. There is one key difference btw NOW and THEN.THEN, year 2005 (charity rox) I see people study and cramming things into their mind that i myself panic that i did not study and try last minute work< results failed miserably. NOW, year 2006, I have never study for any test from start of the year till now, seriously. just before i enter the classroom, i just read a list of possible answers, and basically (try to) keep calm and positive. oddly enuff, the test become rather easy and i have no problem dealin with it. end of test, everyone saein wah so difficult, fail liao la yet they are the ones who score the highest.anyway, when the papers are returned, i suprisingli scored rather well(my own standard) and beat a few others(hehehehe). okay so i failed 1 test. so what, i go home with a happy face and forget it, why? remembering such things can make one unhappy and honestly ask yourself, isit worth getting yourself sad over ONE lousy test ?

After this string of events, i realised that how you feel, how you react to the teachers' supposed "clues" and even how others react are reflected in test results. When a person is panicky, shocked or frustrated, their heart rate increases and they start to sweat, thoughts of "wah lao fail liao, so difficult" speed across their minds, limiting the space of actual productive thinking.

When a person is positive and calm, they will be doing things much more efficiently than their peers, even though they are not as smart. they are capable of using their minds to their fullest potential. Thats' why i think that durin O levels' results ceremony, many people think that they could have scored much higher.

That is what I learnt for 2 months of 2006, which is probably than any maths formula geography facts. Try it, keep a cool head during a test(which you paid attention to in class) and skip all that studying and panicking involved.
maybe it will be for the batter,who noes

Another point i want to make is that people dont think and dey just yell out no if the teacher asks if there is supposed to be a test. if the teach saes there is a compre, or compo, or anything else doesnt need studyin, they shld take the closest date possible or esle it will all be crammed at thurs or friday

people in humility class..... get 59/70 not happi, get 27/30 aso not happi.... whats up wit this perfectionism.... nobodi's gunna blame u if u did ur best

Confessions of a guy who stayed in a tent for 5 days in ubin, freaking ubin

OBS.....funner than i expected

day 1
waited in school till 9+am bfore the bus arrived, then waited for the boat to arrive, then waited for everyon else to arrive.....(you get the point) everything started at onli bout 11+am. Our grp Amundsen had 5 from 3 hope and 9 from humility. the first day was quite okay, we did a lot of admin stuff, like medical status, who will be ic and such. me and ping ru was the IC for day 1. we ran around all day to find out where they were and whatnot. den we wore our wet attire and went down for the first time. it was very cold but quite fun. i lost mi shoes in the mud(quicksand) a lot of time, so much so that it became brownish black, eeewww. we tried kayaking for the 1st time its dam tough. i sat in front while ping ru sat bhind i noe how to steer but he didnt so we had a hard time, it was very tiring and definiteli not fun. At night, we had to pitch our tent in the dark and cook, we couldnt see anything, it sucked, seriously.

day 2
we were the last few to pack our bags cuz we woke up quite late. we packed our bags till 11+ then we went for rock climbing. we had to learn belaying lessons b4 we could start. nuthing much happened except for a gigantic spider at one of the stations. we went over to the rockclimbing station and our instructor seren gave a demo b4 we started. i was her belayer. she climbed up and then suddenli started to fall. I FLEW IN FRONT. luckily she gt ask me to lock on. i climbed l8r, onli managed to go across the red line (sob). the rocks were very slippery and very difficult to climb on. after the rocks and the climbing, we prepared for our hike to camp 1. the bags were dam heavy and very difficult to carry, we aso had to hold on to a piece of twine as a challenge by serene. fortunateli it ws onli a short distance but we got stung by lots of insects. we finally arrived at the camp site, and oddli we were the first. we pitched it up and went to look for serene. she gave us a tour and we finalli had real food for dinner (it was like we never ate food in a year) l8r we sat at the external rock wall for jounal writing. den supper den sleep.

day 3
i woke up wit a ton of mosquitos bite at mi leg cuz i 4GOT TO FREAKING WEAR MY SOCKS. we went for breakfast and then we go build raft. at first sum dunno how to tie, den jayson jacob and jian hui anyhow tie lar. lucki our grp gt 3 unformed grp members, if not die liao. we failed, but if we had 10 mins we cld have done it. i see other grp all aso failed. wah lao guan zhong npcc 1 ask ow to tie, very tiu lian leh(throw face) but we jumped in the 'cleansing' pool, is like jetty jump but shorter. our grp lucki nobody scared. l8r we went to bathe den go lunch. the thoght of this being our last make everybody afraid and take alot. wen we eating halfway, jian hui say he take too much cannot eat finis, dam funni sia. den l8r he say gt 1 advertisemen about a horse fart, he even make the sound come out, everybodi laff. l8r we go for hiking shiwei took the map and go according to the checkpoint. l8r then serene sae can anihow go make us go uphill for nothing. l8r as we go she sae cancel the activity, l8r i fedup ask everyone faster, den she counsel me say i badmouth her, oh well. the boys go very fast, while the girls take their own sweet time. we reach the campsite saw bing hui veri black, dam funni. we set up tent den cook at night . i cant bliv our toilet is in the forest, that sux. l8r gt sea expedition(sea ex if u read it very fast it bcums sex) jian hui, bryan, wayne and clement i think was the cx leaders. the ppl in my tent went to sleep today as we were very tired i noe i didnt do sentry duty =)

day 4

Its kayaking day.... everybody so scared lor. we woke up at 6+am still very dark. i ate 1 piece of bread and buried the other =)had to bring all the bags down to the speedboat, den still gt the kayaks ,very tiring. finally we set off, this time me bhind and ping ru in front. we were quite fast cuz we knew wad to do now. i saw a lot of ppl going to seasick den faster steer away. ping ru suddenli gt adrenaline den keep going forward ask him stop aso dunwan. den in the end had to go back for de others.we had lunch out at sea. the instructor jus throw the food out for us to catch lik animals like that.once they threw at jayson den he try to catch but drop in to the water, wen he try to get up, his boat overturn, dam funni. after lunch, zhihui wanted to change boat with mi. i changed but droppped in to the water, she never. den we keep moving forward and banging ppl cuz she keep talking to mi and never look in front. she keep argueing wit me den everytime let her paddle she change direction, make mi have to change back.very tiring but fun.l8r dinner no one wanna eat, so onli shiwei and jianhui gt eat can food. went to sleep l8r

day 5
this five days very fast go by. we packed finis the stall den get back our cert and photo den go to sovenir shop. i dint buy anything there. sum 1 lost their wallet and they ahd to search the entire school for it, dam irritating.

but finally this five days were tiring but definitely fun

The final feast before the execution

I dunwanna go OBS, PLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLS

Jus packed bags for Ubin, man it sucked, had to go down to hougang mall just to buy a stinking ball of twine..... let this 5 days quickly end.

last fridae, bh,didi,adrian,ben and me went to takkin hse to pai nian (15th haven pass okay) we played mahjong for three rounds.edwin was owning everyone as no one knew how to play the game well execpt him, adrain and bh.(adrian wld get owned at any game, even if he was pro at it) bh wasnt plaeing and tot didi how to plae. i was watching the first match. at first ben screwed up so he didnt wanna plae the next round
i took over his seat and had no idea wad to do. we played and edwin owned. ben and takkin went downstairs to plae badminton. we thought we lost four tiles when we were plaein the third match so everyone stopped to play naruto. we called takkin and ben ( they were the main suspects) to see if they took it. tak gt worried and went around (forcing us to ) looking for it. we searched the ENTIRE HSE and could not find it. so we counted it, we messed it up and arranged it 3 times, THREE FRIGGIN TIMES. and still no success. so we tried to arrange it in the box. it was a perfect fit but we still coudnt figure out the problem. so we took it out and arranged it according to the tile. it worked but we couldnt find the problem still. so tak asked his mum and she said it was the hong kong version and had onli that many tiles.I CANT BLIF EVERY! OF US WAS SO PA JIAO(BLIND) which leads us to another key qns, how could they have played correctly when the rules they were using are wrong?????

tak and his family and ruthless...(im toking bout games) they dun even let us figure out the buttons and/or combos and starting crushing us like puni little insects WASSUPWITDAT. And he (his family) tries to own the weaker players every chance they get, they realli need som sportsmanship.

im sleepy dunwanna go camp need health dunwanna go camp help......

Living without numbers is like playing a song without any notes

2moro gt test, im done for. i have no idea wad the formulas are and i cant do a single qudratic qns. my calculator busted cuz its out of battery. in short, im screwed

today we had lunch in the canteen. adrain and ben keep saein about going to sum1 hse to pai nian but in the end they go home maple (or sumting else). onli didi and bing hui come. we did a little work at first. but then like all other meetings, we ended up plaeing games. i tried out my 4 player xbox for the first time, the screen was dam small but it was realli fun. we played HALO 2, at first its free for all, i took a sniper and keep sniping them. then they not happi team against me, but still no match. didi angry liao betray bh and start koilling him. l8r we played team slayer with my bro. we owned them like siao. but the fun part was not killing them(okay,i lied) it was watching their reaction to it.
quotes from the noob battlefield
y u keep missing
he behind u he behind u... u ded
wad u duin, behind u aso cannot c
wah i kil wargsmon i kil 1 leh
team lah team lah
its dam funni. wont forget this anytime soon

valentine is coming. dont know how im celebrating it, dont noe whether i care. i noe i wont be celebrating it since i dont have a valentine( cuz i noe i wont have the guts and she will never agree) the tv ad(s) about valentine shows are realling getting to my head. i reali dont noe why there is such a big commotion about it. i have no guts(sob)

LOVE can make a man forget about his car, a woman forget about a shoe sale and a singapore based teenager forget about leveling up in maple

Cleaning the bloodstains off my sword

wah January so fast pass by like that, remember durin dec holidays still worring go wrong class or mess up. But sad thing is this month onli 6 posts, but then again 6 posts get 300 hits not bad leh.

Never thought my class, 3 hum wld have ppl that reali tell off( or insult) a trainee teacher like that quote" I want to hear your opinions about me lah, cuz i heard some pretty nasty things about me from the other groups" Ms Toh. Damn sad lor, here all booksmart not streetsmart.
this has given me a lot insight on what the ppl here could really be......

I got to take a squad for drills during NP training . IT ROCKED. But too bad onli 5 sec 2s. cheng boon, jing yi, jian yong take 2 cadets while i take 3 of them. They are quite good lah onli not alert and slack abit, but its okay. i dun like tense training. quote " IT ROCKED" seriousli.

Todae, got CNY celebration. the stupid government sae is not new year eve cannot give half day off. but i slacked off for the whole day lah. go find edwin and didi booth, then talk until go concert. THANK YOU for giving onli 40mins concert, but the carnival a bit lame. I get 2 free chop from my squad mates and junior(THX) then meet up with takkin and kang yue help me get the rest. kang yue bluff almost every1 for free chops. We get 1 packet of free sweets for getting everything yay!!

After go visit pri skool with frenz, finalli talked to mrs Seet unlike last year, she said she take bio in sec skool, interesting that she likes to dissect animals(backs away slowly). She aso said that chen suo (my old skool fren) teach his maths teacher how to do maths with model drawing in 1 step(rebellion rox). Which brings me to another point, y cant we use model to solve our problems, it seems so much easier and faster than algebra, even mrs Seet agrees with me. I wanna go back (to a time long long ago) wen i actually understood sumthing in class

during yesterdae after skool talk with bh and didi abt uniform and hair style a little quote

didi: we shldnt get punished, cuz they aso never go by the rules
gs: that case ask teachers wear uniform lah...
chuckle chuckle.....
gs: then paint the skool black and white then realli look like jail liao...
HAHAHAHAHAS (not funni)

If there is an exception to every rule, then isnt there an exception to the rule that there is an exception to every rule...

YAY chinese new year is coming....
i only have 1 rant this update
y do we have to sit down in the hall until our butts are numb and watch stupid chinese new year "programmes" i mean isnt there a more meanigful and less numbing way of celebrating the lunar new year. so moe and the school thinks it helps us "understand our culture". we have been "understanding" that same culture every year for 8 years, doncha think we wld have understood by now. bsides thay wanna teach less and learn more, so y no less teaching. i mean itz boring, if we wanted to learn, we wld have googled it or sumthing. 1 simple but time consuming alternative wld b to actualli visit sum1, that way malays and indians could actualli learn and see sumthing abt us, instead of listening to "theory lessons".

i have recently felt the amazing gift, i did part of my a maths hw by myself. lemme tell you that after failing so many times at the same questions, It feels great to wipe the smile off the txtbks face and say" take that stupid question" i got the urge to jump up on my desk and dance "numa numa yay"

I was looking for a few free mp3s sites cuz my dad doesnt want me to download a p2p program
anybodi noe 1 lemme noe

Theory is practically useless, while Practical are, in theory not practical.
numa numa is a weirdly addictive song
yawnz im sooo tired.....

Has the defintion of genius changed in the past 100 years....

2dae lesson until 2.30 dam tired. somemore got a maths homework + last week 1 i haben hand in. buried under algebra, requesting medical attention.....

but the fun doesnt stop here, cuz 2moro gt another 3 periods with algebra (AAAAAHHHHHHH)

k enuff with the rants. went to sonic house for studying, when we were supposed to be studying in school until """Sumbody""" wanted to eat. helped sonic install flash at his com. tried to do 2 A maths qns until fedup then! #^!%@#! at the stupid book and see him talk to davis. i never realised msn could be so fun, seriously. but he creeps me out sometimes. aso sonic sumtimes never say his true thoughts 1 i figured out today. girls mus beware !!! (jus joking)

In school, since mr ong is at HK doing aome bigtime, ultra secret, confidential, hushhush business, MY npcc madam took over, she is teaching us geog temp. extremely informally.
aso SQ keep pestering mi abt qns, so i tell her to go online, then never show up.............
waste time

A little quote during sonic and my conservation

sonic: wah lou eh, damn leng(cold) lor the way he talk
gs: He is a prime example of a sad case
sonic: Wah, humiltiy ppl suan, gt full pakaging 1 ar
gs: hahas

empty...........

Im a liar, Im a hypocrite.

Im both

My trip home on the bus, i suddenly felt so lonely, so empty, like i was missing something. I realised why almost immediatly, i was not accepted. Everywhere i go i see people in groups or pairs, and yet im alone.

I asked myself a crucial question, why?
Mayb cuz im a hypocrite, mayb cuz im a liar, mayb cuz im not physically atrractive, mayb cuz im dont have a good personality. i feel so empty right now...... in the past, when i look at face, i feel so comforted, so lighthearted almost instantly. now, i feel so crushed, wanting to slam my head against the wall thinking i am stupid.....

but still i really want 2 noe mi faults

alittle philosophical(is that a word) sentence b4 i end off

Everything, Sin or goodwilll, begins or is linked with fear, nothing has to end that way.....

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Still waiting for a chio girl to fall in love with me........

sleepy....

its 10.19 at night and im getting sleepy after some time of experimenting with different styles of drawing myself, i finally got it, it may not seem like much but it will be the base of most of my self drawings in the future. ill post it when i feel like it(or when some1 requests 4 it, its just a doodle)

it feels good to noe something in paper looks like you. im so tired. used the photoshop most of the time during the day. tried to make a sin costume out of my photos. FAILED BADLY, i finally know how hard it is. and it needs alot of layers like 50+ for a acceptable 1.......

lifes like that u noe, make u work on (and get excited over) something that is so seemingly worthess after 10mins of straight thinking. but its worth it, i did get some practice and find out the truth about ps the hard way. too tired must sleep .......

1st post......6/1/06

wow first post yay!! hopefully it will last till end of year. k so today my maid has been painting the rest of the door(they started since who noes when)
In skool met a few new teachers. 1 teach in particular, her lesson according to the clock is an hour, according to me forever. i dunno why it just is...
but not all teachers are bad yet. a few indian and malay teachs but its okay.

ANTIRACISM YAY

so recess cam and went to find the guys( which u probably dunno) watched the sec 1s play with water during camp(we never have that) so we recall of memories when we were sec 1s .
recess ended too quickly so met our e maths teacher. quite scary at first but he s ok
then english, nothing much then LCE then go home

went home and found devart gt lotsa things I cant Bliv I GT CHOSEN

not a bad day.