I suddenly got the inspiration for this after 2 consecutive rides on the bus.
In my family of four, no one commands more respect and power than my father. He is not exactly a typical tyrant than you would expect, but yet he somehow manages to make you do things you wouldn't normally do without resorting to violence or anger. He is a friendly man who can communicate with pretty much anyone. He is also a very successful businessman who treats both his clients and employees well. In fact, many people consider him to be the perfect man, since he neither drinks nor gambles, but what they do not know is that he smokes, a lot. He doesn't smoke in front of anyone other than his family, and only does it when he is under immense stress. When I was a kid, i used to ask him why he smokes, since it smelt so horrible. He would always answer, " Every time I smoke, one of my wishes will be granted, but i have to use them sparingly, or else there will be no more wishes left." And it wasn't without "evidence", on one occasion he smoked 7 cigarettes in a row the night before an important meeting about a deal with a client. The next day he came home early to celebrate the closing of the deal. So as time went by, I started to believe in what he told me. And i had no reason not to, after all why would my father lie to me?
Next up would be my brother. He is 21 right now and living on his own with his girlfriend. He wasn't very bright in school, only averaging passable grades, making my father very ashamed of him, since he himself was a university graduate. He too was a social person, being one of the most popular kid back in his secondary school days. He was also a natural leader, organising many environment- friendly events in the school. However, the big difference between my brother and my father, was that the former hated smoking. My brother tried to stop him from smoking but he just refused, straining their relationship. Fortunately, even though they never admitted it, I believe that they deeply respected each other's strengths and flaws. My brother is working as a construction worker now, as well as a part time bartender job at night to save up for his future wedding. my mom once described him as being too good to other people for his own good.
My mom was a great woman. Strong, caring and sensitive, and the best part is she totally loves her children. She dotes on me and my brother so much, sometimes we have to ask her not to. But she was the person who instilled a lot of discipline in me. When I was a kid, she used to be very fierce and punished me severely, especially if i did something morally wrong like lying. But as I grew up, she became less strict and shows her caring side.
Lastly, there's me, a Secondary four student who's still a kid at heart. I am quite a smart kid, but lazy. My father puts all his hopes of his children being doctors on me and splurges on me, making me feel guilty that i was stealing attention away from my brother. Fortunately, he understands and doesn't hold grudges against me. As far as religion goes,I'm pretty much a freethinker, with little bits of christianity from my mother and buddhism from my father and grandparents. I do believe that there is a force controlling this world who guides everyone, depending on what they have done. Myd. brother calls it karma, in short, if you do good deeds, you will be rewarded, if you do bad things, you will be punishe So that made me wonder, maybe it was because my father did so many good deeds that made him successful, rather than the cigarettes, but i didn't really pursue the matter.
Now, finally i can continue with the story. I entered Secondary four life as a completely naive child. I didn't know what having a girlfriend was like, what new friends I will have, why people are having so much problems over their boy-girl relationship. And the LCE lessons weren't helping one bit. During the first three months, I did make new friends, but i didn't participate in their activities, basically going home everyday to study, so my grades were quite consistent.
During the one week break, one of my friends, Buddy, called me out to watch a movie with them. Naturally i agreed since i had nothing better to do than study. We watched "insert movie here" and went to play pool nearby until 11pm. Just before we left the area, Buddy led me to a small alley near my house. He then took out a small box from his pocket, which under the dim lighting could not be seen clearly, but he did take out a stick from it. He said' "try it, just one smoke." I hesistated before taking it, but just as i reached out to grab it, a huge torrent(?) of rain swept across the alley, catching both of us by surprise and causing Buddy to drop the stick. I sped towards the opposite void deck near my house. He threw the box to me before running in the opposite direction towards the void deck, shouting to me across the rain, " keep it!" Needless to say I went home drenched, with an angry mother waiting at the door.
On the first day of the 2nd semester, Buddy rushed up to me and put another box of cigarettes into my bag, saying that he has been blacklisted by the Discipline Master and I need to keep the box with me for safekeeping. Before I had to chance to say anything, he dashed off, leaving a motion of blur in its wake (exaggerate too much) . So i was stuck with the another box for who-knows-how-long. School wasn't any much harder for the 2nd semester, except that i have less time to study since I was playing with Buddy and a new friend, "Guy". Guy was a big, strong, tough guy with lots of muscles and a sensitive heart. Its no wonder so many girls are attracted to him, since he was handsome and romantic at the same time. The three of us were interested in both soccer and basketball, so we could fit in with most cliques easily. We played virtually every day after school, alternating between the two sports. One weekend, we played all day at the video arcade until 5 pm, after which we sat by the steps and chatted about life and things like that. I found out that Guy was a smoker, but the only reason he did it was to "keep" his girlfriend. How ironic for a tough guy to be manipulated by a girl. They also tried to persuade me to smoke, saying it was cool and stuff. I tried to light a cigarette in my mouth, but a speeding car went by and splashed water on all three of us, making all the cigarettes as well as the lighter wet. This was the period when they kept pressuring me into smoking.
My Mid-year Examinations results declined by quite a lot. Many of my teachers complained about the sudden tiredness they see in me, mainly because I play till the wee hours of the morning. So during the holidays, my father decided to bring me to a hawker center for lunch as well as a father-to-son talk. As he was holding a lighted cigarette in he left hand and his handphone on the other, he started to check the 4d results. The 1st prize was 1991, which he missed by 2 digits, while the 2nd prize was 1210 which he also missed by 2 digits. However,he blinked a few times when he saw the 3rd prize, the 3rd prize was 9733, which meant he won! Now i began to wonder if cigarettes really did grant wishes.
To Be Continued ...
Friday, July 13, 2007
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Life .... After 16
Im not here to blog about what happened during HI Idol. Everyone else did that already, but still congrats to Sulasteri on winning. I don't support popularity contests.
When you reach 16, you start to do a lot of thinking, thinking what you will do after school, what kind of girl/guy will be your future ( or current) girlfriend/stead/wife, how much you will earn or even the the next important thing thats gonna happen to you, whether you are going to a JC or Polytechnic.
I know each has plus and minus(es) and i also know different people who go for different reasons. Some being higher education, some because their parents chose this path for them, some because they WANT to go against their parents. but im not here to talk about that.
im talking about what happens after. Not everyone who gets out of school is automatically given a job related to their diploma/degree, nothing in life EVER happens so predictedly (if such a word exists). Cuz if thats the case, there would no longer be any more hawkers to serve you favorite food, no more cleaners to clear all your messes, and no more annoying salesmen who bug you until you buy something you already have (though that may actually be a good thing).
SO does anyone really have a backup plan if the Integrated Resort (which you took as a diploma) went bankrupt, or if the next biggest trend in jobs is hygiene engineering (i just made that up as a word for toilet) and you just happen to not have a d/d in that industry like pretty much everyone else. or they decided to go back to primary industries so the business d/d just became void.
After all that virtually useless crap, I have classified all the jobs in the world into 3 groups which im not gonna list out since that would take up the internet.
The 3 groups are makers/getters --- the people who does work so you have something in your hands, mainstream include miners, manufacturers, designers while less mainstream workers include sweat shop workers and parents to a certain extent. The next group is the fixers --- the people who fix things, things you got form makers or otherwise. Mainstream jobs include doctors and repairman, detectives, teachers, while less mainstream jobs include cosmetic surgeon, hitmen (people who kill other people, assasins), lawyers, pimps and mama sans. The 3rd group is the entertainer --- people who make sure you are happy and can do your job well. Mainstream jobs include comedians, dancers, actors while less mainstreams include prostitutes and psychologists.
There is this last group, their main purpose is to ensure others are doing what they are supposed to be doing, the Controller, or Leader.they are the CEOs and policemen and stuff. They are the type of people whom schools are trying to groom because they earn the most yet do the least compared to others, they just need to know how to talk and maybe management skills.
So mainly different people have abilities and interests and skills related to different groups. and i also find that its quite difficult to have interested in 2 jobbs of the same groups ( which are nt related) , such as liking doctor and repairman. however, it is obvious when you like music, usually you will like all sections of it but i wont touch on that.
I feel that it is important to be skilled in or at least interested to know more about jobs from various groups, as that will keep you versatile when deciding which job you wanna take when your diploma becomes useless in the real world, or if your education doesn't suit your or the current job demand
for example
im still dunno if i can make it to the JC, which is my first choice
so im making some backup plans
if i DO make it into a JC
i will probably take engineering or medical courses
engineering because i like it and medical because can be doctor/specialist and earn alot of money
But if i DON'T make it, and go into a poly instead
i will avoid engineering because a uni engineer can easily earn more than a poly engineer so difficult to find job.
i will take optometry(eyes) as there is currently no degree yet or theirs is specialist one
if i fail really really badly and go to ITE
i could become a bartender or something the industry then needs.
but im keeping my fingers crossed for jc although being a bartender sounds cool
so basically i wrote all that crap above to write about my plans after 16 provided i dont get retained la
www.lightamillioncandles.com
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Live Earth 07.07.07
I'M NOT EXAGGERATING
When you reach 16, you start to do a lot of thinking, thinking what you will do after school, what kind of girl/guy will be your future ( or current) girlfriend/stead/wife, how much you will earn or even the the next important thing thats gonna happen to you, whether you are going to a JC or Polytechnic.
I know each has plus and minus(es) and i also know different people who go for different reasons. Some being higher education, some because their parents chose this path for them, some because they WANT to go against their parents. but im not here to talk about that.
im talking about what happens after. Not everyone who gets out of school is automatically given a job related to their diploma/degree, nothing in life EVER happens so predictedly (if such a word exists). Cuz if thats the case, there would no longer be any more hawkers to serve you favorite food, no more cleaners to clear all your messes, and no more annoying salesmen who bug you until you buy something you already have (though that may actually be a good thing).
SO does anyone really have a backup plan if the Integrated Resort (which you took as a diploma) went bankrupt, or if the next biggest trend in jobs is hygiene engineering (i just made that up as a word for toilet) and you just happen to not have a d/d in that industry like pretty much everyone else. or they decided to go back to primary industries so the business d/d just became void.
After all that virtually useless crap, I have classified all the jobs in the world into 3 groups which im not gonna list out since that would take up the internet.
The 3 groups are makers/getters --- the people who does work so you have something in your hands, mainstream include miners, manufacturers, designers while less mainstream workers include sweat shop workers and parents to a certain extent. The next group is the fixers --- the people who fix things, things you got form makers or otherwise. Mainstream jobs include doctors and repairman, detectives, teachers, while less mainstream jobs include cosmetic surgeon, hitmen (people who kill other people, assasins), lawyers, pimps and mama sans. The 3rd group is the entertainer --- people who make sure you are happy and can do your job well. Mainstream jobs include comedians, dancers, actors while less mainstreams include prostitutes and psychologists.
There is this last group, their main purpose is to ensure others are doing what they are supposed to be doing, the Controller, or Leader.they are the CEOs and policemen and stuff. They are the type of people whom schools are trying to groom because they earn the most yet do the least compared to others, they just need to know how to talk and maybe management skills.
So mainly different people have abilities and interests and skills related to different groups. and i also find that its quite difficult to have interested in 2 jobbs of the same groups ( which are nt related) , such as liking doctor and repairman. however, it is obvious when you like music, usually you will like all sections of it but i wont touch on that.
I feel that it is important to be skilled in or at least interested to know more about jobs from various groups, as that will keep you versatile when deciding which job you wanna take when your diploma becomes useless in the real world, or if your education doesn't suit your or the current job demand
for example
im still dunno if i can make it to the JC, which is my first choice
so im making some backup plans
if i DO make it into a JC
i will probably take engineering or medical courses
engineering because i like it and medical because can be doctor/specialist and earn alot of money
But if i DON'T make it, and go into a poly instead
i will avoid engineering because a uni engineer can easily earn more than a poly engineer so difficult to find job.
i will take optometry(eyes) as there is currently no degree yet or theirs is specialist one
if i fail really really badly and go to ITE
i could become a bartender or something the industry then needs.
but im keeping my fingers crossed for jc although being a bartender sounds cool
so basically i wrote all that crap above to write about my plans after 16 provided i dont get retained la
www.lightamillioncandles.com
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Live Earth 07.07.07
I'M NOT EXAGGERATING
Monday, June 11, 2007
3rd strip up
3rd strip up
yay!
i still haven't started on ANY homework yet
my hand is still very ugly, the skin hasn't closed the wounds up yet
its pain when i bend my elbow or touch water
Patrol Lima Oscar Lima 3 by ~wargsmon on deviantART
www.lightamillioncandles.com
yay!
i still haven't started on ANY homework yet
my hand is still very ugly, the skin hasn't closed the wounds up yet
its pain when i bend my elbow or touch water
Patrol Lima Oscar Lima 3 by ~wargsmon on deviantART
www.lightamillioncandles.com
Saturday, June 09, 2007
Sentosa Trip : Episode 2
Went to sentosa again
this time i gt injured - death by blood loss
wayne was the last one to arrive at hg station (nt surprisingly)
this time onli 6 peeps nia
me,gz,nisha,sherlynn weekiat and wayne nia
when they reach harbourfront vivo
gt ppl try to get their donations
me and gz walked as if we din noe them
they said they could donate 2$ and write a message on a box of juice carton
wayne wrote weekiat [heart] sher and 4 hum below
den we went sentose via monorail
had a bloody blister(literally) due to yesterday's game
so went to the beach first
go there the blister burst, den in the end never go into the water
just sit in the sun/shade suntan
bloody hell
skin crispy liao den go rent bikes
they kept asking me if i was biking or not
so i kept answering i am
and i did
weekiat and sher take tandem bike
gz and wayne aso take tandem bike
me and nisha solo
biked around the bicycle trails a few times
i still very lousy sometimes
cannot keep the bike straight
sumtimes will swerve to left or right
near bang to others
especially weekiat and sherlynn
den we went near palawan beach, the other beach
there the trail very sandy
den i stupid go and speed up
wee kiat suddenly come up next to me den i swerve and fall down
lucky i din bang them, if not i will feel very guilty
i bled quite alot at my right elbow and left hand
the cut quite deep
but not very pain, no saltwater touch, heng arr
washed off with some water before going to the first aid station
the first aider dressed the wounds den take picture, dunno for wad
i still carried on riding the bike to get to our lockers
they keep saying i shldnt
but i still did
in the end, my bandage nearly came off and had to get it re-dressed
went back to vivo at about 5
sher and weekiat went home first
went window shopping
actually i was really bored then
go eat after den go play arcade
altogether play 10+++ matches of air hockey
gz keep saying he is very pro
in the end first match lose quite a big gap
we betted on it
whoever lose pays for the game
i played for 4 matches with gz
2 win 2 lose
the wins all gap very big 1
den lose gap very small like 11-12 or 13-11
den nisha and wayne aso played air hockey
played time crisis 2 after
wayne and nisha played first
den me and gz turn
he died quite early
and had a lot less points than me
but too bad we werent betting
after go outside too find the juice box
they using all the juice boxes to make houses
they trid to find it for 15 odd minutes
den i found it at the first house they checked
lousy, hahas
reached home at 9 plus
the end
hahas
~~~~~~~~~~
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this time i gt injured - death by blood loss
wayne was the last one to arrive at hg station (nt surprisingly)
this time onli 6 peeps nia
me,gz,nisha,sherlynn weekiat and wayne nia
when they reach harbourfront vivo
gt ppl try to get their donations
me and gz walked as if we din noe them
they said they could donate 2$ and write a message on a box of juice carton
wayne wrote weekiat [heart] sher and 4 hum below
den we went sentose via monorail
had a bloody blister(literally) due to yesterday's game
so went to the beach first
go there the blister burst, den in the end never go into the water
just sit in the sun/shade suntan
bloody hell
skin crispy liao den go rent bikes
they kept asking me if i was biking or not
so i kept answering i am
and i did
weekiat and sher take tandem bike
gz and wayne aso take tandem bike
me and nisha solo
biked around the bicycle trails a few times
i still very lousy sometimes
cannot keep the bike straight
sumtimes will swerve to left or right
near bang to others
especially weekiat and sherlynn
den we went near palawan beach, the other beach
there the trail very sandy
den i stupid go and speed up
wee kiat suddenly come up next to me den i swerve and fall down
lucky i din bang them, if not i will feel very guilty
i bled quite alot at my right elbow and left hand
the cut quite deep
but not very pain, no saltwater touch, heng arr
washed off with some water before going to the first aid station
the first aider dressed the wounds den take picture, dunno for wad
i still carried on riding the bike to get to our lockers
they keep saying i shldnt
but i still did
in the end, my bandage nearly came off and had to get it re-dressed
went back to vivo at about 5
sher and weekiat went home first
went window shopping
actually i was really bored then
go eat after den go play arcade
altogether play 10+++ matches of air hockey
gz keep saying he is very pro
in the end first match lose quite a big gap
we betted on it
whoever lose pays for the game
i played for 4 matches with gz
2 win 2 lose
the wins all gap very big 1
den lose gap very small like 11-12 or 13-11
den nisha and wayne aso played air hockey
played time crisis 2 after
wayne and nisha played first
den me and gz turn
he died quite early
and had a lot less points than me
but too bad we werent betting
after go outside too find the juice box
they using all the juice boxes to make houses
they trid to find it for 15 odd minutes
den i found it at the first house they checked
lousy, hahas
reached home at 9 plus
the end
hahas
~~~~~~~~~~
www.lightamillioncandles.com
Sunday, May 27, 2007
patrol lima oscar lima #2
Patrol Lima Oscar Lima by ~wargsmon on deviantART
yay second strip
still nt much opinions on the first 1 yet
i shld be studying for chinese olvls rite nw
Friday, May 25, 2007
comic
Patrol Lima Oscar Lima 1 by ~wargsmon on deviantART
A little something made in spare time
please dont critisise
done in the style of rich burlew of order of the stick www.giantitp.com/oots
i havent gt his permission yet cuz cant contact him
Thursday, May 24, 2007
The Comprehensive Guide To Understanding Glennard -- entry #1
in an effort to make myself more transparent, strictly figure of speech
i decided to blog out stuff about me
such that when and if i say something stupid or hurts u in some way
u can say, glennard is like that 1 la, dun take it seriously or dun be bothered
i see a lot of ppl helping out their frens in such ways
but has anyone helped me yet, i think
The Comprehensive Guide To Understanding Glennard -- entry #1
Glennard \ˈglen-ne:(r)d\ n Organism, half shy, half outgoing human male currently still in teenage years. Known to think too much and talk loudly when it thinks a certain point should be reinforced. However, it is capable of being completely quiet and emo ( see EMO--entry ##) when under stress or awkward situations such as in a room full of strangers. Prone to breakdowns. Relatively creative. Considered by the general populace as one who has low self esteem and is generally negative and slacking
Nil Gramends \ i co(u)ldn't fi:nd the `pro-noun-c(i)a-tion \ n Fictional Character. Alter ego of Glennard Sim. Most commonly found online. It is more brave than Glennard in comparison and has done numerous bold and daring deeds, deeds that will never be mentioned by Glennard to any other, besides those involved. Has a long list of infamous actions, most done online. Glennard usually reverts to this character either online, or trying to escape harsh realities of life. Many of the "creative' ideas are created by Glennard when in his alter ego of Nil Gramends, as usually Glennard will think that they suck and don't even try. Perfectionistic a in certain sense
Some of the things Glennard usually says and what he really thinks
I'm Bored
[What he really thinks]
I feel lonely and want someone to talk to, and was hoping that by saying im bored would instantly be a conversation topic.
Don't Want [to do something] lah
[What he really thinks]
I really want to join it but due to some insecurity issue, refuse and use laziness as an excuse.
Bloody Hell
[What he really thinks]
Bloody Hell
I tell u something/ Do u want to listen?, don't want jiu suan le(nevermind)
[What he really thinks]
Im about to tell you something very important which will either give u an advantage or make me feel better and less insecure, so shut up and listen.
~~~www.lightamillioncandles.com~~~
this is not an ad
i decided to blog out stuff about me
such that when and if i say something stupid or hurts u in some way
u can say, glennard is like that 1 la, dun take it seriously or dun be bothered
i see a lot of ppl helping out their frens in such ways
but has anyone helped me yet, i think
The Comprehensive Guide To Understanding Glennard -- entry #1
Glennard \ˈglen-ne:(r)d\ n Organism, half shy, half outgoing human male currently still in teenage years. Known to think too much and talk loudly when it thinks a certain point should be reinforced. However, it is capable of being completely quiet and emo ( see EMO--entry ##) when under stress or awkward situations such as in a room full of strangers. Prone to breakdowns. Relatively creative. Considered by the general populace as one who has low self esteem and is generally negative and slacking
Nil Gramends \ i co(u)ldn't fi:nd the `pro-noun-c(i)a-tion \ n Fictional Character. Alter ego of Glennard Sim. Most commonly found online. It is more brave than Glennard in comparison and has done numerous bold and daring deeds, deeds that will never be mentioned by Glennard to any other, besides those involved. Has a long list of infamous actions, most done online. Glennard usually reverts to this character either online, or trying to escape harsh realities of life. Many of the "creative' ideas are created by Glennard when in his alter ego of Nil Gramends, as usually Glennard will think that they suck and don't even try. Perfectionistic a in certain sense
Some of the things Glennard usually says and what he really thinks
I'm Bored
[What he really thinks]
I feel lonely and want someone to talk to, and was hoping that by saying im bored would instantly be a conversation topic.
Don't Want [to do something] lah
[What he really thinks]
I really want to join it but due to some insecurity issue, refuse and use laziness as an excuse.
Bloody Hell
[What he really thinks]
Bloody Hell
I tell u something/ Do u want to listen?, don't want jiu suan le(nevermind)
[What he really thinks]
Im about to tell you something very important which will either give u an advantage or make me feel better and less insecure, so shut up and listen.
~~~www.lightamillioncandles.com~~~
this is not an ad
Saturday, May 19, 2007
Sentosazzz
Second post of the day
very tired liaoz
Went to sentosa today with 4hum ppls
about 10 nia
evon said its the first actual 4hum gathering den call mrs susanne ng to congratulate us
wayne say mrs ng will say y neve invite us
hahas
went to the beach first
played a little soccer in the sand while waiting for the ppl to change
the sand was very very hot
but wear slippers very itchy
so play barefoot
when they changed and jumped into the water
i just stayed dry with wayne and joan
they kept trying to "persuade" us to go in
den we give up and went to change
when we change finish
gt wet for a few minutes den they say wanna go cycle
wah lao wet liaoo den say go
hahas
later we go cycle
i brought roller blades
so no need pay money
but i the slowest
cuz small wheels top speed very slow
they went a main road way
for cars and bus 1
den a lot of uphill and downhill road
den i escaped death 3 times
2 times when i fell at the road
all the bus uncles look at us keep pointing us to stay away
bryan went back to find me
he aso kanna pointing by the uncles
i fell down 3 times lor all during down and uphill road
1ce when bryan made me carry his bag den i cannot balance
but he stay with me cuz i very slow
i aso cannot do downhill cuz too fast
if use heel brake den will slide 1 side hit the wall or trees
1ce i actually fell in the middle of road
lucky bus already pass by
they went to see the merlion
in the end reach there cannot go up
so take picture at the small fountain
went back to the bus station
i took off my blades and walked back
they went to return the bikes
i just sit at the steps wait for them
only joan rachel bryan and evon went back to find me
the rest playing soccer at the beach
we bought some water and go back to find them
saw them playing with other ppl
wayne play for a while den break his skin at the toe
bleed alot
so ask the first aider come and help
i subbed him
den playplayplay
i back heel the ball alot
everytime take the ball wait a while before passing
seldom dribble
dunno y
maybe lazy
wayne scored and dribbled around them alot
everyone was impressed with his skill
even them
after 2 goals(draw) we went to bathe
den too many ppl so go to bus station toilet to bathe
in the end there aso no shower
so they walk back
i just sit there again wait for them
in the end the girls never bathe
cuz queue too long
went back to vivo afterwards
in a monorail
went to a place overlooking the port
to pose for picture
there saw michelle covering her mouth
she saw wayne tried to run away
went to burger king to eat
7$ for 1 small burger and large fires and coke
plus both aso nt very big
rather eat at carls jr
much MUCH bigger burgers sia
walked to the station
along the way the saw a watch shop
they decided to take a look
so i stood outside
after a while rachel and evon join me
say they take very long to choose watch
in the end everyone( ithink) who were looking at the watch bought 1
walk some more
saw the custom bag shops
the brand name was taggar
almost like mine
but i saw the bag like very flimsy
very easy to break
den take mrt home
and bus
den finish
the end
hahas
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this is not an ad
very tired liaoz
Went to sentosa today with 4hum ppls
about 10 nia
evon said its the first actual 4hum gathering den call mrs susanne ng to congratulate us
wayne say mrs ng will say y neve invite us
hahas
went to the beach first
played a little soccer in the sand while waiting for the ppl to change
the sand was very very hot
but wear slippers very itchy
so play barefoot
when they changed and jumped into the water
i just stayed dry with wayne and joan
they kept trying to "persuade" us to go in
den we give up and went to change
when we change finish
gt wet for a few minutes den they say wanna go cycle
wah lao wet liaoo den say go
hahas
later we go cycle
i brought roller blades
so no need pay money
but i the slowest
cuz small wheels top speed very slow
they went a main road way
for cars and bus 1
den a lot of uphill and downhill road
den i escaped death 3 times
2 times when i fell at the road
all the bus uncles look at us keep pointing us to stay away
bryan went back to find me
he aso kanna pointing by the uncles
i fell down 3 times lor all during down and uphill road
1ce when bryan made me carry his bag den i cannot balance
but he stay with me cuz i very slow
i aso cannot do downhill cuz too fast
if use heel brake den will slide 1 side hit the wall or trees
1ce i actually fell in the middle of road
lucky bus already pass by
they went to see the merlion
in the end reach there cannot go up
so take picture at the small fountain
went back to the bus station
i took off my blades and walked back
they went to return the bikes
i just sit at the steps wait for them
only joan rachel bryan and evon went back to find me
the rest playing soccer at the beach
we bought some water and go back to find them
saw them playing with other ppl
wayne play for a while den break his skin at the toe
bleed alot
so ask the first aider come and help
i subbed him
den playplayplay
i back heel the ball alot
everytime take the ball wait a while before passing
seldom dribble
dunno y
maybe lazy
wayne scored and dribbled around them alot
everyone was impressed with his skill
even them
after 2 goals(draw) we went to bathe
den too many ppl so go to bus station toilet to bathe
in the end there aso no shower
so they walk back
i just sit there again wait for them
in the end the girls never bathe
cuz queue too long
went back to vivo afterwards
in a monorail
went to a place overlooking the port
to pose for picture
there saw michelle covering her mouth
she saw wayne tried to run away
went to burger king to eat
7$ for 1 small burger and large fires and coke
plus both aso nt very big
rather eat at carls jr
much MUCH bigger burgers sia
walked to the station
along the way the saw a watch shop
they decided to take a look
so i stood outside
after a while rachel and evon join me
say they take very long to choose watch
in the end everyone( ithink) who were looking at the watch bought 1
walk some more
saw the custom bag shops
the brand name was taggar
almost like mine
but i saw the bag like very flimsy
very easy to break
den take mrt home
and bus
den finish
the end
hahas
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High School Never Ends
In High School
different people introduce different things to ur life
things that u wldnt have explored if they werent in ur life
simple examples
fear-ms michael(closest too the actual thing)
sadism- WONG vei li
she smiles to herself when she invigilates and she smiled during msmichael talk
humor thru being idiots and minor perverts- Boys of 2cha`05
sports- Boys Of 4hum`07 and probably a few girls
Mass Hardcore Studying- General Population of 4hum
Trust- Yang
Innocence- WenHui
Diao ing- Xiaotong and linda ( no offence)
Respect- Npcc
Teamwork- Npcc
Technology/various nerdy stuff- Kenneth(no offence)
Humor- Haoxiang
wanna keep my list short
if nt no one will read
hahas
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different people introduce different things to ur life
things that u wldnt have explored if they werent in ur life
simple examples
fear-ms michael(closest too the actual thing)
sadism- WONG vei li
she smiles to herself when she invigilates and she smiled during msmichael talk
humor thru being idiots and minor perverts- Boys of 2cha`05
sports- Boys Of 4hum`07 and probably a few girls
Mass Hardcore Studying- General Population of 4hum
Trust- Yang
Innocence- WenHui
Diao ing- Xiaotong and linda ( no offence)
Respect- Npcc
Teamwork- Npcc
Technology/various nerdy stuff- Kenneth(no offence)
Humor- Haoxiang
wanna keep my list short
if nt no one will read
hahas
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Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Friday, May 11, 2007
exams over
MYE is over
dun feel like celebrating
din put in much effort so dun expect much results
also dun expect myself to be excited about end of exams
ya i know there are people who really tried their best
they deserve to scream when the papers are over
they are the ones who truly felt that the end of mye was a good thing
nt just another passing day
but among those who screamed the loudest, none seem to have put in effort
maybe tts y i wasnt in the really high mood that day
but i put on the clown's mask
and tried to play the fool
maybe i wasnt even close
hope no one notices
my results are nothing to be proud of either
the only 1 i can think of is probably 8/10 for the first part of cl paper 2
the one with a passage den feel in the blanks
usually i just get a 4 or 3/10
but nothing else really
i din get to see my compo today
i tried personal recount in a long time
it was quite dramatic
if i dun get gd results, i probably wont risk personal recount again
np day
raining again
no hiccups
gd
Walk Away And Move On
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dun feel like celebrating
din put in much effort so dun expect much results
also dun expect myself to be excited about end of exams
ya i know there are people who really tried their best
they deserve to scream when the papers are over
they are the ones who truly felt that the end of mye was a good thing
nt just another passing day
but among those who screamed the loudest, none seem to have put in effort
maybe tts y i wasnt in the really high mood that day
but i put on the clown's mask
and tried to play the fool
maybe i wasnt even close
hope no one notices
my results are nothing to be proud of either
the only 1 i can think of is probably 8/10 for the first part of cl paper 2
the one with a passage den feel in the blanks
usually i just get a 4 or 3/10
but nothing else really
i din get to see my compo today
i tried personal recount in a long time
it was quite dramatic
if i dun get gd results, i probably wont risk personal recount again
np day
raining again
no hiccups
gd
Walk Away And Move On
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Friday, May 04, 2007
An Old Essay keeping it here so i can remember next time
Write about an occasion when you were given some good advice and how you reacted to it.
“This could be your big break!” those words kept ringing in my ears. I could still remember that event clearly. I was spray-painting a wall about two blocks away from my school. The piece was almost done when I heard someone shout behind me, ” stop!” that voice was vaguely familiar, but my mind couldn’t process it that moment. Escaping was the only thought in my mind, I even dropped my spray can and bolted towards the nearest exit. At first, I was able to put some distance between him and I, but he soon caught up because I had difficulty breathing through my gas mask.
In a few seconds, the brutish man held on to my arm and shoulder, threatening to report the incident to the police. He said that he would only give me the slip if I took off the gas mask which covered my face. I hesitated for a moment, but after weighing my options, took off the mask. Both of us were shocked as we recognized each other. He was once my Art teacher who was promoted to be a senior lecturer at the Arts Academy. He dragged me back to the scene of the crime and gathered all my spray cans. He said that my piece was the greatest work of art he has ever seen from a teenager and wanted to give me a scholarship to the Academy. For the second time in one day, my jaw dropped. Never in a million years had I expected graffiti to be rewarding. It has only served as a form of self-expression until this point in time. He gave me his hand phone number and told me to give him my decision in a week’s time. He advised me to take this opportunity and make a name for myself.
With a box of spray cans in my arms, I walked home, deep in thought of the slightest possibility of my parents accepting the proposal. My parents were respected doctors who treated family like an army. They were people of science and worked with fixed formulas, unlike myself, who needed creative space to work to my fullest potential. I’m an underground hip-hop and graffiti fan, while my parents followed the National Geographic like it was the Bible. In short, we are the polar opposite of each other.
As I opened the door, part of me was hoping that my parents would accept my decision, while another part was trying to forget the incident. I wrote everything that happened today in my diary, hoping that it would only lighten my mood. I also tried to recall all the good times I had with my family, but it all seemed to turn sour. In a fit of anger and disappointment, I tore out the pages from my diary and threw it away, thinking of giving up and not letting my parents know at all
For the next six days, my world turned upside down. Everything and everyone just seemed to be in my way. My parents decided to take the day off and spend some time cleaning the house, surprising me as they had never let the cleanliness of the house, or anything else as a matter f fact, to obstruct their work. I went into my room, drawing my art pieces when my parents entered and showed me the pages of diary, which I tore out. They said that all they want is for me to be happy. For the first time, I saw their understanding side and a single tear rolled down my cheek as they said.” follow your dreams.”
In the next few years, I graduated as valedictorian of my batch in Arts Academy. My parents also amassed a small fortune, which they used to build a school for orphans, where I was one of the teachers. The school also has a mural facing the gate, the same one that I never completed back as a teenager, still incomplete, with the words written at the side. “ Follow your dreams.”
By: glennard sim
4 Hum 2007
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Music
Music is the language of the soul, an expression of self, a portrait of the point of view of the artist him/herself
it is usually a form of breaking the rules or confines of society throught its lyrics / rhythm
some examples
it is usually a form of breaking the rules or confines of society throught its lyrics / rhythm
some examples
Genres:
Pop - Breaking the rules to earn (a lot of ) money
Gospel - Breaking the rules to spread religion / religious principles
Christian rock/any other genre - Breaking the rules to spread christianity
Jazz - Breaking the rules to showcase vocal or instrumental talents (they are really good at that)
Traditional - Confining to most rules while spreading their culture
EMO - Breaking the rules to tell others of their pain inside
Blues - Breaking the rules to show their sadness but not as much as emo (sometimes fun though)
Rhythm and Blues (RnB) - Breaking the rules to merge jazz and blues but mostly with happier and funner lyrics
Soul - Breaking the rules to express themselves or their ideas
ROCK - Breaking the rules to make other genres possible
Punk - Breaking the rules to preserve their ideas and principles (anti-establishment)
Metal - Breaking the rules to break your ear drums or just because they can
Goth - Breaking the rules because they hate everyone else
Hip Hop - Breaking the rules to Preserve their history or pride or make people aware of their issues
Electronic - Breaking the rules to showcase their computers
Dance - Breaking the rules to make you move your feet on the dancefloor
Techno - Breaking the rules to give you something to rock your head to when you take ecstasy
Raggae - Breaking the rules to infuse dance and culture
Country - Breaking the rules to IRRITATE THE HELL OUT OF YOU
HEAVY METAL - Breaking the rules to MAKE METAL 10 TIMES WORSE
Pop - Breaking the rules to earn (a lot of ) money
Gospel - Breaking the rules to spread religion / religious principles
Christian rock/any other genre - Breaking the rules to spread christianity
Jazz - Breaking the rules to showcase vocal or instrumental talents (they are really good at that)
Traditional - Confining to most rules while spreading their culture
EMO - Breaking the rules to tell others of their pain inside
Blues - Breaking the rules to show their sadness but not as much as emo (sometimes fun though)
Rhythm and Blues (RnB) - Breaking the rules to merge jazz and blues but mostly with happier and funner lyrics
Soul - Breaking the rules to express themselves or their ideas
ROCK - Breaking the rules to make other genres possible
Punk - Breaking the rules to preserve their ideas and principles (anti-establishment)
Metal - Breaking the rules to break your ear drums or just because they can
Goth - Breaking the rules because they hate everyone else
Hip Hop - Breaking the rules to Preserve their history or pride or make people aware of their issues
Electronic - Breaking the rules to showcase their computers
Dance - Breaking the rules to make you move your feet on the dancefloor
Techno - Breaking the rules to give you something to rock your head to when you take ecstasy
Raggae - Breaking the rules to infuse dance and culture
Country - Breaking the rules to IRRITATE THE HELL OUT OF YOU
HEAVY METAL - Breaking the rules to MAKE METAL 10 TIMES WORSE
pretty much everything i understand about music
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Friday, April 13, 2007
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Time
Time waits for no man
post number 45 liao
5 more posts til the big 50
Lotsa ppl have been telling me to link them
i probably wont till im desparately bored or olvls
only half a year left till Os
im aware of it but i dun seem to be doing anything about it
10 points seem very far away if i carry on like this
HELP!!
We probably have like 1week - 2months before we actually fall out
i probably wont know about it until the day itself
Am i going to miss NPCC? Or will i be glad its finally over? :(
both answers seem to be excuses
Why do all the teachers who teach subjects that i excel at always seem to say U are a very smart kid?
And all those whom im weak at suan me even when i actually work hard?
If You Had A Choice, Would You Choose To Be A Thief Or A Police?
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post number 45 liao
5 more posts til the big 50
Lotsa ppl have been telling me to link them
i probably wont till im desparately bored or olvls
only half a year left till Os
im aware of it but i dun seem to be doing anything about it
10 points seem very far away if i carry on like this
HELP!!
We probably have like 1week - 2months before we actually fall out
i probably wont know about it until the day itself
Am i going to miss NPCC? Or will i be glad its finally over? :(
both answers seem to be excuses
Why do all the teachers who teach subjects that i excel at always seem to say U are a very smart kid?
And all those whom im weak at suan me even when i actually work hard?
If You Had A Choice, Would You Choose To Be A Thief Or A Police?
www.lightamillioncandles.com
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Sorry Starts With An Ass
Sorry Starts With An Ass
Im sorry
Today i was the ass
Im sorry
sometimes people just stop thinking and do something stupid and make everything from bad to worse. And The Even worse part comes from the fact that it was my fault. I know im stupid, sometimes i just forget to think and start acting like a jerk. And I gt wad i deserved, A cold Shoulder and a few drops of tears. IT was thoroughly my fault, I shouldnt have laughed so loud and so hard, i shouldnt have distanced myself. But i did and the onli one i can blame is me.
Im sorry
The Biggest mistakes in the world are not caused by evil intentions, but idiots who stop thinking, even for 1 sec.
A Burst of laughter can lead to millions of tears
A drop of rain can lead to a flood
An angry thought can lead to violence
You can say its a stupid mistake but the guilt never goes away until you are forgiven
Im sorry
Will You Forgive Me?
From The Bottom of my heart,
Im sorry
___________________________________________________________
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Im sorry
Today i was the ass
Im sorry
sometimes people just stop thinking and do something stupid and make everything from bad to worse. And The Even worse part comes from the fact that it was my fault. I know im stupid, sometimes i just forget to think and start acting like a jerk. And I gt wad i deserved, A cold Shoulder and a few drops of tears. IT was thoroughly my fault, I shouldnt have laughed so loud and so hard, i shouldnt have distanced myself. But i did and the onli one i can blame is me.
Im sorry
The Biggest mistakes in the world are not caused by evil intentions, but idiots who stop thinking, even for 1 sec.
A Burst of laughter can lead to millions of tears
A drop of rain can lead to a flood
An angry thought can lead to violence
You can say its a stupid mistake but the guilt never goes away until you are forgiven
Im sorry
Will You Forgive Me?
From The Bottom of my heart,
Im sorry
___________________________________________________________
We Don't Need Your Money, We Just Need Your Support
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Friday, March 16, 2007
Camp's Over
Sec 1 leisure camp is finally over
the hard work that most of us put in has paid off
although i wouldn't mind more manpower throughout the camp
I felt proud of myself after the camp, for the first time. Seriously. I felt that i have really contributed to my squad and the instructors. i just hope everyone else feels the same way about me!!
The preparation itself had a lot of hiccups along the way. mainly due to time constraints and the stupid after school lessons. Plus there were many things we really really din know until we became ncos, such as instructors can sleep on mattresses and kerosene bombs and ropes will spoil if they touch water. It's these little things that really gave us a lot of problems.
The first day of the camp was probably the worst. We were all very lax and left a lot of things to let the senior ncos do like suicide window, so we gt scolded basically. We din really know what to do cuz some went to help sec 3s but ci taking so we dun dare go near them then others try help suicide window but they are doing everything and we dont know what to do.the seniors also made a 5 spar flagstaff but it broke so we reduced it to 3. so the first day was nt quite successful
there was 1 sentence during debrief that i remember very well and motivated me for the next day. " You all know that you are short on manpower, so you have to do 2 person's work. My senior Ncos are only here to help you all, not run the camp for you all."
The second day was much better IMO. everyone knew what to do and we werent like first day keep running around aimlessly. but still quite problematic cuz cannot find each other when we busy. But our squad still can't motivate a large group of cadets, esp sec 1s, well enough yet, since they are more afraid of CIs than us. Another problem about taking squad is that, sometimes we dont know the priorties, whether to train them discipline first or to save time first so we usually get very confused over this matter, and thats when the CIs or senior Ncos start to scold us.
the main problem in this day was that a lot of us was too caught up in preparation that we din take the sec 1s at all, some people even played with flour and water. The campfire was successful but only after using wei quan's wood. our campfire nearly died cuz we din have a kerosene bomb and our wood wasnt dried properly. So lesson Learned here. the campfire really gt high after the sec 2 and 3 performance. YOU GUYS DID VERY WELL!! KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK!! thx to all who contributed esp the instructors.
Third Day was area cleaning plus urban hike. The urban hike was quite interesting but it was very tiring. WE WON. Our group was the first and we did it b4 lunchtime. THX Kelvin, elaine, woei jiun, wee kit, jun xian, jun liang(energizer), ming hui(map man), nina, lijing, Shenn Ma'am plus ME. if i miss out anyone must tell me hor. shenn maam gave jun liang a lollipop and he suddenly energize liao and walk dam fast. But he made us run cuz usually he reach checkpoint first.
lesson learned here is that mus keep encouraging cadets and let them navigate on thier own dun help too much.
The sec 1 leisure camp is over, Ive learnt many things as an NCO, i only fear that its too late.
When u try your best and people still shoot you down, that sux. THX jianyong for trying to up my morale
the hard work that most of us put in has paid off
although i wouldn't mind more manpower throughout the camp
I felt proud of myself after the camp, for the first time. Seriously. I felt that i have really contributed to my squad and the instructors. i just hope everyone else feels the same way about me!!
The preparation itself had a lot of hiccups along the way. mainly due to time constraints and the stupid after school lessons. Plus there were many things we really really din know until we became ncos, such as instructors can sleep on mattresses and kerosene bombs and ropes will spoil if they touch water. It's these little things that really gave us a lot of problems.
The first day of the camp was probably the worst. We were all very lax and left a lot of things to let the senior ncos do like suicide window, so we gt scolded basically. We din really know what to do cuz some went to help sec 3s but ci taking so we dun dare go near them then others try help suicide window but they are doing everything and we dont know what to do.the seniors also made a 5 spar flagstaff but it broke so we reduced it to 3. so the first day was nt quite successful
there was 1 sentence during debrief that i remember very well and motivated me for the next day. " You all know that you are short on manpower, so you have to do 2 person's work. My senior Ncos are only here to help you all, not run the camp for you all."
The second day was much better IMO. everyone knew what to do and we werent like first day keep running around aimlessly. but still quite problematic cuz cannot find each other when we busy. But our squad still can't motivate a large group of cadets, esp sec 1s, well enough yet, since they are more afraid of CIs than us. Another problem about taking squad is that, sometimes we dont know the priorties, whether to train them discipline first or to save time first so we usually get very confused over this matter, and thats when the CIs or senior Ncos start to scold us.
the main problem in this day was that a lot of us was too caught up in preparation that we din take the sec 1s at all, some people even played with flour and water. The campfire was successful but only after using wei quan's wood. our campfire nearly died cuz we din have a kerosene bomb and our wood wasnt dried properly. So lesson Learned here. the campfire really gt high after the sec 2 and 3 performance. YOU GUYS DID VERY WELL!! KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK!! thx to all who contributed esp the instructors.
Third Day was area cleaning plus urban hike. The urban hike was quite interesting but it was very tiring. WE WON. Our group was the first and we did it b4 lunchtime. THX Kelvin, elaine, woei jiun, wee kit, jun xian, jun liang(energizer), ming hui(map man), nina, lijing, Shenn Ma'am plus ME. if i miss out anyone must tell me hor. shenn maam gave jun liang a lollipop and he suddenly energize liao and walk dam fast. But he made us run cuz usually he reach checkpoint first.
lesson learned here is that mus keep encouraging cadets and let them navigate on thier own dun help too much.
The sec 1 leisure camp is over, Ive learnt many things as an NCO, i only fear that its too late.
When u try your best and people still shoot you down, that sux. THX jianyong for trying to up my morale
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
VDAY'S EVE another sucky "holiday"
Its tat time of the year again where people get all lovey dovey and flower sellers (botanists?) get all high from the pure cash they are getting. Just by going out with a flower basket can net you $4 per rose if you know where lovers roam.
ok im bored
Once again its the stupid holiday that reminds me of the infinite loserdom that im trapped in. as if Christmas hasnt done enough to the poor psyche of a young fragile teenage mind.
life sucks when you cant celebrate valentine's day. If only.
I've always wondered whats wrong with me. Maybe i wasn't born with looks like mr.shawn and maybe i wasn't born with talent like alam shah. Maybe i wasn't born with social skills like edwin or maybe i wasn't born smart but who really likes smart guys anyway. maybe im just too scared or maybe i dunno the right words to use or maybe im just dumb.
Someday
When my life has passed me by
I lay around and wonder why you were always there for me
One way
In the eyes of a passerby
I look around for another try and fade away
Just close your eyes and Ill take you there
This place is warm without a care
Well take a swim in the deep blue sea
I go to leave and you reach for me
Somesay
Better things will come our way
No matter what they try to say
You were always there for me
-sugar ray
i wonder who will be the 'you' for me in those lyrics.
maybe im just too stupid to realize that 'you' are just in front of me
ok im bored
Once again its the stupid holiday that reminds me of the infinite loserdom that im trapped in. as if Christmas hasnt done enough to the poor psyche of a young fragile teenage mind.
life sucks when you cant celebrate valentine's day. If only.
I've always wondered whats wrong with me. Maybe i wasn't born with looks like mr.shawn and maybe i wasn't born with talent like alam shah. Maybe i wasn't born with social skills like edwin or maybe i wasn't born smart but who really likes smart guys anyway. maybe im just too scared or maybe i dunno the right words to use or maybe im just dumb.
Someday
When my life has passed me by
I lay around and wonder why you were always there for me
One way
In the eyes of a passerby
I look around for another try and fade away
Just close your eyes and Ill take you there
This place is warm without a care
Well take a swim in the deep blue sea
I go to leave and you reach for me
Somesay
Better things will come our way
No matter what they try to say
You were always there for me
-sugar ray
i wonder who will be the 'you' for me in those lyrics.
maybe im just too stupid to realize that 'you' are just in front of me
Monday, February 05, 2007
Dam Migraine
Dammit Migraine for 2 weeks liao
every attack seem to happen after go in or go out of aircon room or very cold place
summore onli gt migraine when brain stop working
when
play com
surf net
listen music
play with dog
or do homework den no attack
summore everytime sleep wake up either migraine or no appetite
been trying to act macho to the problem for 2 weeks
onli try using panadol 3 days ago
gt abit effect but must have relatively slow music
like SUGAR RAY
summore when do homework until dunno how to do sit there stare at qns den start migraine again
dam
doctor say may be due to stress
but everytime i tell ppl i have stress they laugh at me think i joking
sianz nvm its your own opinion
my mum say maybe have 'hidden' stress, cuz got stress also dunno or trying to repress it
today went to see doctor during lessons
at start of lessons during chem no problem onli start when doing corrections in english lesson
den recess force myself eat
so that can eat panadol
but when eating feel like want to vomit cuz no appetite
dammit
den take 1 panadol see gt effect
after 10 mins migraine worse so take second 1
then later go up 4th floor with eyes almost closing like wanna faint like that.
feeling like when you stand at NDP until the stupid guest of honour come that type
try to endure the pain through maths lesson
cuz we go com lab
dam stuffy plus hot so pain become worse
then finally give up weixiang bring me go find mrs ng
she say call parents so can go home
my mum came in about five minutes time cuz she working nearby
then go see Doctor H. H. Tay (i think)
around kovan area
the doctor say that nothing wrong with muscles
he also say its hereditary cuz my mum had it as well plus hers is worse
he also say maybe due to sudden change light or sound
extra sensitivty
he also say maybe cuz nerve problem in my right side of the brain
cuz i still young den maybe gt have more severe problems or blood clot
sianz
scarly i gt nerve or brain cancer sianz
my brain right side pain onli left side not pain
Sorry to all the people who had to waste time because i was sick
sorry mrs ng for making u waste your time on me when you could have marked other papers
sorry Weixiang for making you waste curriculum time to bring me to sickbay
sorry guanzhong for helping me tell teacher i was sick
sorry wenhui for wasting your time to worry about me and calling me
sorry xiaotong for wasting your time to bring down my bag
sorry bryan for helping me carry my books up
sorry ZhiHui for asking about how i feel and wasting your energy on me
sorry MUM for making you waste money on going doctor and taxi fare
AND THANK YOU ALSO for worrying about me
but i dun wan uall to waste your energy as you could have done better things at that time
PS CONGRATS LIONS!!! for winning the ASEAN Cup
esp Daniel Bennett, MUSTAFIC FAHRUDIN, Aide Iskandar, Noh Alam Shah, Khairul Amri, Indra, Precious, LIONEL LEWIS, Baihakki, SHI JIA YI, Ridhuan, Fazrul Nawaz, Shahril Ishak, Subramani, Hafiz Osman, Noh Rahman
and Of course
Raddy Avramovic
every attack seem to happen after go in or go out of aircon room or very cold place
summore onli gt migraine when brain stop working
when
play com
surf net
listen music
play with dog
or do homework den no attack
summore everytime sleep wake up either migraine or no appetite
been trying to act macho to the problem for 2 weeks
onli try using panadol 3 days ago
gt abit effect but must have relatively slow music
like SUGAR RAY
summore when do homework until dunno how to do sit there stare at qns den start migraine again
dam
doctor say may be due to stress
but everytime i tell ppl i have stress they laugh at me think i joking
sianz nvm its your own opinion
my mum say maybe have 'hidden' stress, cuz got stress also dunno or trying to repress it
today went to see doctor during lessons
at start of lessons during chem no problem onli start when doing corrections in english lesson
den recess force myself eat
so that can eat panadol
but when eating feel like want to vomit cuz no appetite
dammit
den take 1 panadol see gt effect
after 10 mins migraine worse so take second 1
then later go up 4th floor with eyes almost closing like wanna faint like that.
feeling like when you stand at NDP until the stupid guest of honour come that type
try to endure the pain through maths lesson
cuz we go com lab
dam stuffy plus hot so pain become worse
then finally give up weixiang bring me go find mrs ng
she say call parents so can go home
my mum came in about five minutes time cuz she working nearby
then go see Doctor H. H. Tay (i think)
around kovan area
the doctor say that nothing wrong with muscles
he also say its hereditary cuz my mum had it as well plus hers is worse
he also say maybe due to sudden change light or sound
extra sensitivty
he also say maybe cuz nerve problem in my right side of the brain
cuz i still young den maybe gt have more severe problems or blood clot
sianz
scarly i gt nerve or brain cancer sianz
my brain right side pain onli left side not pain
Sorry to all the people who had to waste time because i was sick
sorry mrs ng for making u waste your time on me when you could have marked other papers
sorry Weixiang for making you waste curriculum time to bring me to sickbay
sorry guanzhong for helping me tell teacher i was sick
sorry wenhui for wasting your time to worry about me and calling me
sorry xiaotong for wasting your time to bring down my bag
sorry bryan for helping me carry my books up
sorry ZhiHui for asking about how i feel and wasting your energy on me
sorry MUM for making you waste money on going doctor and taxi fare
AND THANK YOU ALSO for worrying about me
but i dun wan uall to waste your energy as you could have done better things at that time
PS CONGRATS LIONS!!! for winning the ASEAN Cup
esp Daniel Bennett, MUSTAFIC FAHRUDIN, Aide Iskandar, Noh Alam Shah, Khairul Amri, Indra, Precious, LIONEL LEWIS, Baihakki, SHI JIA YI, Ridhuan, Fazrul Nawaz, Shahril Ishak, Subramani, Hafiz Osman, Noh Rahman
and Of course
Raddy Avramovic
Monday, January 29, 2007
Homework Song
My Brother Josh
(electric guitar solo NANEINANEI)
Is Doing His Homework
(NANEINANEI)
The Kind Of Work
(NANEINANEI)
You Do At Home
(NANEINANEI)
Guess thats Why They Call It Homework
(NANEINANEI)
WILL YOU STOP IT (josh)
--- Drake and Josh
(electric guitar solo NANEINANEI)
Is Doing His Homework
(NANEINANEI)
The Kind Of Work
(NANEINANEI)
You Do At Home
(NANEINANEI)
Guess thats Why They Call It Homework
(NANEINANEI)
WILL YOU STOP IT (josh)
--- Drake and Josh
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Suddenly I See
We've got some BIG polys right here in singapore.
no wonder we dun have enough space for other stuffs.
thurs
went to Temasek Poly in around tampines area
one way trip
quite okay la, except tt the students very enthusiatic
everytime we enter or exit one school they start cheering, which gets really lame after a while
reminds me a lot about PSLs
anyway, itz quite a organized school, although itz big, they gt alot of exhibition so take up alot of space and make ppl squeeze thru so they dont break their exhibits
also got quite some people cosplaying but all very ugly. the onli 1 mildly acceptable is the guy trying to be L of deathnote. he still quite okay except hair abit wrong.
to the school itself, still quite nice. architecture still quite new, not much wear and tear on their stuff cuz they jus built(?) or something. but still quite ok la can get around the school without getting lost. we had some kind of tour or something so the whole class had to see IT,applied science and engineering until 3plus.
the engineering school was disappointing, cuz all the exhibits never explain plus all jus gt blinking light nia, nothing impressive.
throughout the trip, i carried wenhui,xiaotong n jelena goodie bags cuz they carry so much school stuff and im the only one that dun have any books hahas. but they also quite good la, the only ones waiting for me when i too slow. ONE WAY SUX especially when you dont know the way. whats the point of putting 1 way when u go so far and 2 ways when the school is so near.
FRI
went to ngee ann polytechnic
clementi area
its like a small town in itself. its really big and some are areas are quite high up compared to the roads on the highway
also 1 way so road back sux
REALLY REalLY big. starting go to some lecture hall for a video clip den aso get goodie bag
aso same help the girls carry bag. we went to some convention hall den split up liao. cuz no tour except at the seperate schools. met up with the integ ppl and takkin den go IT school first. quite far from the main hall. quite interesting, but aso disappointing cuz they guide mention bleach n naruto so the whole integ ppls all waiting to see thier face. in the end is just 'this the the room we used to animate' HAHAHS. den we go shuttle bus stop wait for bus. wait for 3 bus still none of them want to alight. somemmore so dam hot den we wanted to walk back den sweeswee gt 2 bus com at the same time, so we split up cuz bus no space. we went to mass comm with onli about 6 ppl. we went up 9 floor ON STAIRS cuz the effing adrain wanna see plus the lift overflow of ugly girls. so we went up to find them, lucky at the end gt air con if nt die of exhaustion. when we finish come down liao, adrain n ben say they wanna go see business den edwin say wanna go home. so i call jelena they all and waited downstairs until they finish their tour.yang and shuan waited with me. whil waiting saw kenneth and edwin tan(?) come down. den we talk for awhile den they go off. finally the 3 vip girls come down summore with black face. so dun dare make jokes hhahahs
later the guys n me met up and went for dinner at 401 near the church via 74 bus.
After seeing the different polys, i found 2 feasible choices to take.
one is Engineering/Physics
One is Doctor/Biology(wadever tt school is called)
but im not going poly im going jc so the choice is still very much open.
mass comm and IT is out of the question cuz my father will kill me cuz he thinks gt too much ppl out those diplomas and diff to get job
business is possible if i going poly but nt if i go jc cuz by then it will be too late plus im nt a businessy person
Applied science is out cuz CHEM SUX
Design is still possible but diff to get idea when stressed during exam plus i dun think jc have.
my father kept bugging me to be doctor or more specifically specialist(specialise in one thing like eyes or cancer)i always dismissed tt suggestion cuz i din think i could get that much of education. what if i failed, tt means i wasted up to 10 years of tertiary education. but now after seeing ppl in poly, i suddenly rmb my dad's suggestion. it wasnt becuz i gt smarter out of the blue, but because i remembered y i went for tertiary education. because i wanted to give my parents and my future family a good life. which i can onli achieve with MONEY and a good job. So suddenly i felt like specialist was my onli career choice and yet i dont seem to be working any harder. maybe sumone need to wake me up.
the other choice is engineering which deals with physics. yay physics. I love physics. so obvious choice. but my onli fear in this job is that wont get gd job in the end end up as air con servicer. cuz there may be too many engineers in singapore already. sadsadsad. zomg. somemore a good job in engineering is nothing compared to a small time doctor in a clinic. the $$$ difference is quite big.
WAKE ME UP FROM THINKING OLVL IS """ONLY""" a few months AWAY
"Suddenly I See, This Is What I Wanna Be,
Suddenly I See, Why The Hell It Means So Much To Me" -- KT Tunstall (Suddenly I See)
no wonder we dun have enough space for other stuffs.
thurs
went to Temasek Poly in around tampines area
one way trip
quite okay la, except tt the students very enthusiatic
everytime we enter or exit one school they start cheering, which gets really lame after a while
reminds me a lot about PSLs
anyway, itz quite a organized school, although itz big, they gt alot of exhibition so take up alot of space and make ppl squeeze thru so they dont break their exhibits
also got quite some people cosplaying but all very ugly. the onli 1 mildly acceptable is the guy trying to be L of deathnote. he still quite okay except hair abit wrong.
to the school itself, still quite nice. architecture still quite new, not much wear and tear on their stuff cuz they jus built(?) or something. but still quite ok la can get around the school without getting lost. we had some kind of tour or something so the whole class had to see IT,applied science and engineering until 3plus.
the engineering school was disappointing, cuz all the exhibits never explain plus all jus gt blinking light nia, nothing impressive.
throughout the trip, i carried wenhui,xiaotong n jelena goodie bags cuz they carry so much school stuff and im the only one that dun have any books hahas. but they also quite good la, the only ones waiting for me when i too slow. ONE WAY SUX especially when you dont know the way. whats the point of putting 1 way when u go so far and 2 ways when the school is so near.
FRI
went to ngee ann polytechnic
clementi area
its like a small town in itself. its really big and some are areas are quite high up compared to the roads on the highway
also 1 way so road back sux
REALLY REalLY big. starting go to some lecture hall for a video clip den aso get goodie bag
aso same help the girls carry bag. we went to some convention hall den split up liao. cuz no tour except at the seperate schools. met up with the integ ppl and takkin den go IT school first. quite far from the main hall. quite interesting, but aso disappointing cuz they guide mention bleach n naruto so the whole integ ppls all waiting to see thier face. in the end is just 'this the the room we used to animate' HAHAHS. den we go shuttle bus stop wait for bus. wait for 3 bus still none of them want to alight. somemmore so dam hot den we wanted to walk back den sweeswee gt 2 bus com at the same time, so we split up cuz bus no space. we went to mass comm with onli about 6 ppl. we went up 9 floor ON STAIRS cuz the effing adrain wanna see plus the lift overflow of ugly girls. so we went up to find them, lucky at the end gt air con if nt die of exhaustion. when we finish come down liao, adrain n ben say they wanna go see business den edwin say wanna go home. so i call jelena they all and waited downstairs until they finish their tour.yang and shuan waited with me. whil waiting saw kenneth and edwin tan(?) come down. den we talk for awhile den they go off. finally the 3 vip girls come down summore with black face. so dun dare make jokes hhahahs
later the guys n me met up and went for dinner at 401 near the church via 74 bus.
After seeing the different polys, i found 2 feasible choices to take.
one is Engineering/Physics
One is Doctor/Biology(wadever tt school is called)
but im not going poly im going jc so the choice is still very much open.
mass comm and IT is out of the question cuz my father will kill me cuz he thinks gt too much ppl out those diplomas and diff to get job
business is possible if i going poly but nt if i go jc cuz by then it will be too late plus im nt a businessy person
Applied science is out cuz CHEM SUX
Design is still possible but diff to get idea when stressed during exam plus i dun think jc have.
my father kept bugging me to be doctor or more specifically specialist(specialise in one thing like eyes or cancer)i always dismissed tt suggestion cuz i din think i could get that much of education. what if i failed, tt means i wasted up to 10 years of tertiary education. but now after seeing ppl in poly, i suddenly rmb my dad's suggestion. it wasnt becuz i gt smarter out of the blue, but because i remembered y i went for tertiary education. because i wanted to give my parents and my future family a good life. which i can onli achieve with MONEY and a good job. So suddenly i felt like specialist was my onli career choice and yet i dont seem to be working any harder. maybe sumone need to wake me up.
the other choice is engineering which deals with physics. yay physics. I love physics. so obvious choice. but my onli fear in this job is that wont get gd job in the end end up as air con servicer. cuz there may be too many engineers in singapore already. sadsadsad. zomg. somemore a good job in engineering is nothing compared to a small time doctor in a clinic. the $$$ difference is quite big.
WAKE ME UP FROM THINKING OLVL IS """ONLY""" a few months AWAY
"Suddenly I See, This Is What I Wanna Be,
Suddenly I See, Why The Hell It Means So Much To Me" -- KT Tunstall (Suddenly I See)
Friday, January 05, 2007
New Year Resolutionzzz
HAPPY NEW YEAR ok maybe a little too late
but Ive come up with a few new year resolutions ( finally)
i used the first few days of 2007 to try and collect 'opinions' of what people thought of me
there were people who knew me for 4-5 years but also people who onli remebered my name after 2006, so the opinions were quite different. there are still many similarities.
i did this to find out how people with different levels of contact with me thought i was. like how someone who knows me for onli 2 months thought i was, its a little difficult to explain but i wanted to know what kind of person i was from their point of view
so my findings include ( all comments are quoted ) ::
"erm...still ok.very depressed.think alot about life.often ask qns. gd 2 ppl. lazy.
easy to get along with.dif 2 understand me"
ok...quite expected except the "gd 2 ppl" part, maybe i am but no one seems to appreciate or thank me when i do ( or i din rmb them) so it doesnt stick to the mind
"can be funny.. straight forward.. quite cool at times.. pro at some kind of thing like paint and photoshop... good as a friend.. "
once again quite a positive 1, maybe cuz he knew me for a very long time, but cool only "at times" but still ok rite.
"u sometimes seems to find me at the wrong time"
basically it means bad timing, but i can see why.
"sometimes you think to much. thn is like. small lil stuff you think until so big. causing headache for others."
understandable
"i think u r a person who needs more confidence in whatever you are tasked to do... but i believe, u can do great things if you have the correct attitude towards the things you have to face.... =)"
obviously this comes from someone much wiser than myself.
"a gd fren, accept u keep on say i typical humility, then so much philosophy, others still ok, not serious abt studies, but other than that really a gd fren , can keep secret"
pretty much the same thing except the not serious about studies. SO TRUE and the can keep secret as well
"hahas. easygg lo, but stm i think u too straightforward bah"
wow im easygoing? but ive been straightforward all my life, and proud of it!
"DUNNO"
no comments
"straightforward guy"
read above for straightforward
"you appear to me as someone with quite low self esteem. thus, not being happy most of the time. kinda think lowly of yourself and don mix much with people. err...
from wad i see in npcc as well as in class last time la"
this was actually 1 of the longer conversations ive had about tt qns (what do you think about me?) cuz most ppl jus say DUNNO hahaz. but ya i agree with it mostly cuz tts how ive been in 2006
and then comes the most unexpected of all
"unpredictable"
WhAT? when i asked if it meant depressed like most answers ive gotten, i gt a no
I'm Actually unpredictable? wow
OK so on to my actual resolutions
1) actually study this year
2) be less depressed, i dunno how tts actually possible but...
3)get better timing
4)always tell people of how straightforward i am so they do not get hurt as much
5) get a CHIO girl to fall in love with me ( so far that has not happened yet, oh well )
6) umm make more friends who will remeber me after my secondary school years
but Ive come up with a few new year resolutions ( finally)
i used the first few days of 2007 to try and collect 'opinions' of what people thought of me
there were people who knew me for 4-5 years but also people who onli remebered my name after 2006, so the opinions were quite different. there are still many similarities.
i did this to find out how people with different levels of contact with me thought i was. like how someone who knows me for onli 2 months thought i was, its a little difficult to explain but i wanted to know what kind of person i was from their point of view
so my findings include ( all comments are quoted ) ::
"erm...still ok.very depressed.think alot about life.often ask qns. gd 2 ppl. lazy.
easy to get along with.dif 2 understand me"
ok...quite expected except the "gd 2 ppl" part, maybe i am but no one seems to appreciate or thank me when i do ( or i din rmb them) so it doesnt stick to the mind
"can be funny.. straight forward.. quite cool at times.. pro at some kind of thing like paint and photoshop... good as a friend.. "
once again quite a positive 1, maybe cuz he knew me for a very long time, but cool only "at times" but still ok rite.
"u sometimes seems to find me at the wrong time"
basically it means bad timing, but i can see why.
"sometimes you think to much. thn is like. small lil stuff you think until so big. causing headache for others."
understandable
"i think u r a person who needs more confidence in whatever you are tasked to do... but i believe, u can do great things if you have the correct attitude towards the things you have to face.... =)"
obviously this comes from someone much wiser than myself.
"a gd fren, accept u keep on say i typical humility, then so much philosophy, others still ok, not serious abt studies, but other than that really a gd fren , can keep secret"
pretty much the same thing except the not serious about studies. SO TRUE and the can keep secret as well
"hahas. easygg lo, but stm i think u too straightforward bah"
wow im easygoing? but ive been straightforward all my life, and proud of it!
"DUNNO"
no comments
"straightforward guy"
read above for straightforward
"you appear to me as someone with quite low self esteem. thus, not being happy most of the time. kinda think lowly of yourself and don mix much with people. err...
from wad i see in npcc as well as in class last time la"
this was actually 1 of the longer conversations ive had about tt qns (what do you think about me?) cuz most ppl jus say DUNNO hahaz. but ya i agree with it mostly cuz tts how ive been in 2006
and then comes the most unexpected of all
"unpredictable"
WhAT? when i asked if it meant depressed like most answers ive gotten, i gt a no
I'm Actually unpredictable? wow
OK so on to my actual resolutions
1) actually study this year
2) be less depressed, i dunno how tts actually possible but...
3)get better timing
4)always tell people of how straightforward i am so they do not get hurt as much
5) get a CHIO girl to fall in love with me ( so far that has not happened yet, oh well )
6) umm make more friends who will remeber me after my secondary school years
Thursday, December 28, 2006
5 Days Left Before Hell Starts Anew
SIANZ 5 more days niaz.
November seemed very slow but december seemed very fast.
WHY the teachers take away our 2 weeks if not is just nice 2 months of holidays liaoz
SIANZ
5 more days and we sec 4s liaoz
have to prepare o lvls
i haven done any homework yetz
imagine teacher's reaction
SIANZ
onli 4544 hitz on my blog since it first started on January this year (i think)
Can someone spam refresh on my blog so i can show off my 5000 hits banner on my blog
PLEASE at least in 3 days time so atleast i have 5000 before the new year starts
PLEASE
and if you want to be rmbed put a tag on the tagboard so I know you helped me gt 5000 hits
You will not be forgotten
hahahz
PS i din get any christmas presents this year cuz everyone was working (including me)
November seemed very slow but december seemed very fast.
WHY the teachers take away our 2 weeks if not is just nice 2 months of holidays liaoz
SIANZ
5 more days and we sec 4s liaoz
have to prepare o lvls
i haven done any homework yetz
imagine teacher's reaction
SIANZ
onli 4544 hitz on my blog since it first started on January this year (i think)
Can someone spam refresh on my blog so i can show off my 5000 hits banner on my blog
PLEASE at least in 3 days time so atleast i have 5000 before the new year starts
PLEASE
and if you want to be rmbed put a tag on the tagboard so I know you helped me gt 5000 hits
You will not be forgotten
hahahz
PS i din get any christmas presents this year cuz everyone was working (including me)
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
JOURNEYman vs RESULTer
"Reaching there is only half the journey"
That was an old saying
To me, results are far better and they tend to give me more motivation than the process itself. Im sure most people see results as motivation too. But just to check :
I eat because i like eating ////or//// i eat because i want to survive
i drive because i like the road//// or//// i drive because i like that place im going
i know i hurt people ////or//// I know i hurt people because
because i like it//////////////////they are in pain
Im happy with my marks if ////or//// Im happy with my marks if i know i did my best //////////////////i get better than somebody
I know i have great friends if ////or//// I know i have great friends ifi made the effort to stay close /////////they will remember me
I have a loving gf/bf //or// i have a loving gf/bf ifi love him/her with all my heart /////she/he thinks of me and loves me
JOURNEYman ///////////or ////////////RESULTer
this 'table' may be a little difficult to read
Personally im a resulter, even though sometimes i keep reminding myself that the journey is more impt, i just dont get that kind of motivation. Whereas if i saw my results which was good i will work even harder
As for me its the results that tells me whether ive worked hard anot. I tend to compare myself with others ALOT, even though they dont know it. If the event i was planning was successful, i know i did a good job. If I don't get high marks for a subject im good at, i will automatic feel very low, even though i did or did not work hard for it.
So its a matter of personality, some ppl no need results to please themselves. All they need to know is that they did their best and they can sleep well at night, without any worries. but tts not me
That was an old saying
To me, results are far better and they tend to give me more motivation than the process itself. Im sure most people see results as motivation too. But just to check :
I eat because i like eating ////or//// i eat because i want to survive
i drive because i like the road//// or//// i drive because i like that place im going
i know i hurt people ////or//// I know i hurt people because
because i like it//////////////////they are in pain
Im happy with my marks if ////or//// Im happy with my marks if i know i did my best //////////////////i get better than somebody
I know i have great friends if ////or//// I know i have great friends ifi made the effort to stay close /////////they will remember me
I have a loving gf/bf //or// i have a loving gf/bf ifi love him/her with all my heart /////she/he thinks of me and loves me
JOURNEYman ///////////or ////////////RESULTer
this 'table' may be a little difficult to read
Personally im a resulter, even though sometimes i keep reminding myself that the journey is more impt, i just dont get that kind of motivation. Whereas if i saw my results which was good i will work even harder
As for me its the results that tells me whether ive worked hard anot. I tend to compare myself with others ALOT, even though they dont know it. If the event i was planning was successful, i know i did a good job. If I don't get high marks for a subject im good at, i will automatic feel very low, even though i did or did not work hard for it.
So its a matter of personality, some ppl no need results to please themselves. All they need to know is that they did their best and they can sleep well at night, without any worries. but tts not me
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Im Bored. Period
Im really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really Bored
Haven't met up with the 2cha guys for 1 month i think, that makes it even more boring. tomorrow's the bbq, suddenly feel sad after 1 week's hype of it. maybe cuz pretty much everyone who usually attends cha gatherings are there so unusual faces cannot be seen Again.
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I have been calling ppl up almost everyday for the past week, almost all phonecalls were not picked up or sms nt replied. IZIT BECAUSE I NOT IMPORTANT ENOUGH. have been calling np ppls and 2cha ppls, both dont seem to hear me when i scream. but when someone else call them at any given time they answer, WHY. I Not big enough izit. NOT respected enough izit. all the exact same ppl who my frenz call and they pick it up. DAM EFFED UP
I think the guy who invented the phone's objective was to let ppls have access to everyone else at any time, NOT PURPOSELY IGNORE IT JUST CAUSE SOMEONE like me IS CALLING.
2moro bbq is very pathetic, i think less than 20 of a 42 mamber class is going. and onli about 5 of the 42 member class is realli interested in it, the other 15 are just callefair. Bloody hell. STOP CALLING IT A EFFING 2CHA GATHERING IF CHARITY PPLS ARE NOT GOING, INTENTIONALLY.
Life sux when your not respected, itz almost like not having friends or having a mouth but you can't talk
Haven't met up with the 2cha guys for 1 month i think, that makes it even more boring. tomorrow's the bbq, suddenly feel sad after 1 week's hype of it. maybe cuz pretty much everyone who usually attends cha gatherings are there so unusual faces cannot be seen Again.
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I have been calling ppl up almost everyday for the past week, almost all phonecalls were not picked up or sms nt replied. IZIT BECAUSE I NOT IMPORTANT ENOUGH. have been calling np ppls and 2cha ppls, both dont seem to hear me when i scream. but when someone else call them at any given time they answer, WHY. I Not big enough izit. NOT respected enough izit. all the exact same ppl who my frenz call and they pick it up. DAM EFFED UP
I think the guy who invented the phone's objective was to let ppls have access to everyone else at any time, NOT PURPOSELY IGNORE IT JUST CAUSE SOMEONE like me IS CALLING.
2moro bbq is very pathetic, i think less than 20 of a 42 mamber class is going. and onli about 5 of the 42 member class is realli interested in it, the other 15 are just callefair. Bloody hell. STOP CALLING IT A EFFING 2CHA GATHERING IF CHARITY PPLS ARE NOT GOING, INTENTIONALLY.
Life sux when your not respected, itz almost like not having friends or having a mouth but you can't talk
Sunday, November 26, 2006
Another Piece Of My Life...
I just found another piece of evidence that shows that my life, or rather, I suck.
I do not want to write the details down because i dont want to remember the details of this incident when i delete this blog and look back at the stuff i wrote when i was young and stupid. I just want to remember that it happened, thats' all.
If you want to know more maybe i will tell you, but im NOT trying to get attention or sympathy...
2 men worked at a company with the same salary and qualifications. One of the men is given more opportunities to organize the company then the other man, because he is a friend of the supervisor .
The other man on the other hand, is quite monotounous, doing the same things everyday.
But Both Men Work Equally Hard, Only On Different Things
At the end of they year, the man who worked on different events was given twice the christmas bonus of the other man, and was also promoted.
The promotion and bonus was decided by the boss, who is fair, not the supervisor.
Isit fair that the man gets promoted because he is given more opportunities ?
Isit fair that the other man doesn't get more money even though he worked equally hard and keeps the company together, working on loose ends ?
Maybe not
but life's like that
Regrets are necessary to make people grow
P.S. BOWLING FOR SOUP ROCKS
I do not want to write the details down because i dont want to remember the details of this incident when i delete this blog and look back at the stuff i wrote when i was young and stupid. I just want to remember that it happened, thats' all.
If you want to know more maybe i will tell you, but im NOT trying to get attention or sympathy...
2 men worked at a company with the same salary and qualifications. One of the men is given more opportunities to organize the company then the other man, because he is a friend of the supervisor .
The other man on the other hand, is quite monotounous, doing the same things everyday.
But Both Men Work Equally Hard, Only On Different Things
At the end of they year, the man who worked on different events was given twice the christmas bonus of the other man, and was also promoted.
The promotion and bonus was decided by the boss, who is fair, not the supervisor.
Isit fair that the man gets promoted because he is given more opportunities ?
Isit fair that the other man doesn't get more money even though he worked equally hard and keeps the company together, working on loose ends ?
Maybe not
but life's like that
Regrets are necessary to make people grow
P.S. BOWLING FOR SOUP ROCKS
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
The Anti - Life Equation
Free Will can be described as life itself.
To phrase it mathematically, it would be known as the "Life Equation"
The opposite also exists, known as the " Anti Life Equation"
It is used to destroy free will, as not having any will would be equivalent to not being alive.
loneliness + alienation + fear + despair + self-worth ÷ mockery ÷ condemantion ÷ misunderstanding x guilt x shame x failure x judgment
n=y
where y=hope and n=folly, love=lies, life=death, self=dark side
.
If you knew of this equation, how would you use it?
Get more money?
Get that really cute guy/girl to fall in love with you?
Get control over your teacher?
Get the whole school to worship you?
Get your birthday to be the next national holiday?
Get that guy you really hate to be your slave?
How many people would choose not to use it.
despite the power it carries.
Knowing full well that nobody can stop you.
There would be no side effects, no faults,
no punishments, no jail terms,
nothing
Would you still do it
Before you answer this question
Think of yourself as a human being
With Every Basic Human Right
And Free Will
Don't think of yourself as
a father
a mother
a sibling
a student
a friend
a caretaker
FULLSTOP
Just one of the many questions of life i manage to stumble upon.
To phrase it mathematically, it would be known as the "Life Equation"
The opposite also exists, known as the " Anti Life Equation"
It is used to destroy free will, as not having any will would be equivalent to not being alive.
loneliness + alienation + fear + despair + self-worth ÷ mockery ÷ condemantion ÷ misunderstanding x guilt x shame x failure x judgment
n=y
where y=hope and n=folly, love=lies, life=death, self=dark side
.
If you knew of this equation, how would you use it?
Get more money?
Get that really cute guy/girl to fall in love with you?
Get control over your teacher?
Get the whole school to worship you?
Get your birthday to be the next national holiday?
Get that guy you really hate to be your slave?
How many people would choose not to use it.
despite the power it carries.
Knowing full well that nobody can stop you.
There would be no side effects, no faults,
no punishments, no jail terms,
nothing
Would you still do it
Before you answer this question
Think of yourself as a human being
With Every Basic Human Right
And Free Will
Don't think of yourself as
a father
a mother
a sibling
a student
a friend
a caretaker
FULLSTOP
Just one of the many questions of life i manage to stumble upon.
Saturday, November 11, 2006
The First Day Of Work ......EVER
The first day of work sucked. I work as handphone sales at bedok, clementi or imm, whichever 1 has less people. I worked at bedok from 1030-2100 . The pay is about $30-$40 per day, so itz kind of a loss.
I went in with my dad at about 1030, then see a guy opening the shop. His name is Jason and he is quite friendly. he asked me to vacuum the floor before any customers come in. so i did for about half an hour. then the first few customers came in and jason served them, because he didnt teach me anything. So throughout the whole morning i just sat there and watched him serve. Then about noon another guy came in, Desmond. He helped him out a little and did a little paperwork. Then A Chinese Guy came in and asked me why he phone kept hanging up when he called others. so i tried it on my fone and it worked smoothly. Then he asked Jason why so he just help him reformat the phone and teach him how to off programs properly. Then after that, there was a message that it diverted the call, so he kept bugging Jason about it. Then he tried to ask Desmond to help while he went to buy lunch. then Desmond still couldnt help, so jason beg the guy to let him finish lunch firs tcuz he never eat breakfast, so the guy say that he will wait till he finish his lunch. So he try calling nokia hq but they also cannot solve the problem, then he say ask his friends who also have his friend, then jason become so happy.
After Lunch they teach me how to write the plan application for ppl who want to sign up a new line, so i finally knew what to do , at least a little bit. then the afternoon i just sat around until they have customers, otherwise i would explore the computer a bit. then near 530 pm, i was drawing on the computer, suddenly a voice told me i couldnt use it, i was shocked lor, summore the voice very familiar, like my past instructor during camp. Then as long as he was inside i just moved away or pretended i was looking at some handphone manual.
By Dinner, he went off so i just helped around a bit. I sold a few hi-cards and helped a few customers, by the end of the night.
My parents fetched me home, and they said that they might not have helped me if I wasnt their bosses son. They were the kind that are very crude in their language, so i wasnt surprised. I was thinking that if i gt another job where no one knew who i was, would i be able to slack. Its like they have to be good to me, or as they scared i tell my father and they might lose their jobs. So I was wondering how i would survive in the real world outside.
Many people I have come across call me rich or lucky or 'shao ye' (boss son), basically beacuse of my dad's work, and they treat me differently. I never really felt what the real world is like, especially those less fortunate. I probably never will. Although this is actually at my advantage, i dont like it 1 bit, because if you think for the one at the losing end, how does he feel that hos boss is treating someone else better than him for something he did not do.
I went in with my dad at about 1030, then see a guy opening the shop. His name is Jason and he is quite friendly. he asked me to vacuum the floor before any customers come in. so i did for about half an hour. then the first few customers came in and jason served them, because he didnt teach me anything. So throughout the whole morning i just sat there and watched him serve. Then about noon another guy came in, Desmond. He helped him out a little and did a little paperwork. Then A Chinese Guy came in and asked me why he phone kept hanging up when he called others. so i tried it on my fone and it worked smoothly. Then he asked Jason why so he just help him reformat the phone and teach him how to off programs properly. Then after that, there was a message that it diverted the call, so he kept bugging Jason about it. Then he tried to ask Desmond to help while he went to buy lunch. then Desmond still couldnt help, so jason beg the guy to let him finish lunch firs tcuz he never eat breakfast, so the guy say that he will wait till he finish his lunch. So he try calling nokia hq but they also cannot solve the problem, then he say ask his friends who also have his friend, then jason become so happy.
After Lunch they teach me how to write the plan application for ppl who want to sign up a new line, so i finally knew what to do , at least a little bit. then the afternoon i just sat around until they have customers, otherwise i would explore the computer a bit. then near 530 pm, i was drawing on the computer, suddenly a voice told me i couldnt use it, i was shocked lor, summore the voice very familiar, like my past instructor during camp. Then as long as he was inside i just moved away or pretended i was looking at some handphone manual.
By Dinner, he went off so i just helped around a bit. I sold a few hi-cards and helped a few customers, by the end of the night.
My parents fetched me home, and they said that they might not have helped me if I wasnt their bosses son. They were the kind that are very crude in their language, so i wasnt surprised. I was thinking that if i gt another job where no one knew who i was, would i be able to slack. Its like they have to be good to me, or as they scared i tell my father and they might lose their jobs. So I was wondering how i would survive in the real world outside.
Many people I have come across call me rich or lucky or 'shao ye' (boss son), basically beacuse of my dad's work, and they treat me differently. I never really felt what the real world is like, especially those less fortunate. I probably never will. Although this is actually at my advantage, i dont like it 1 bit, because if you think for the one at the losing end, how does he feel that hos boss is treating someone else better than him for something he did not do.
Saturday, October 28, 2006
Breaking Away From WOW
at 1130 hrs
im seriously tired, i have been plaeing the same game for 3 consecutive nights till 12-1am
if you know me well, you would know that i dont usally sleep so late.
The Ultimate Example of Karma happened today...
I shouted at my bro for irritating me and saying that he wanted to play my game. I really shouted at him. Then he go 1 corner cry and go tuition after that. My mum called from work and told me that she explained things to my bro. As soon as he is gone from my house, i gt disconnected from my game, hten i keep trying to log in back for 3 hrs that he was in tuition but cannot. then my friend suggested that i change my password in case someone was hacking, so i changed. then When he come home right next to me then i can log back in. AMAZING. Maybe Some Guy Up There wanted to take revenge on me for shouting at him. Who Knows.
after playing wow for 2 weeks im officially addicted. so far its th onli game that made me stay up till 12 EVER. my neck hurts
The PTM was irritating. tan bee tin kept epeating he is one the the brighter ones. damn irritating lor. She wrote the longest comments i have ever received in my life. Usually its just "Glennard is a smart and good team worker. He can excel if he puts in more hard work" or something like that. This time is almost extended version lor. Then Keep saying to my father that i can do better if i put in more effort. i gt 15 for l1r5, apparently nt good enough. BUt my dad reminded me of why i like that when he mentioned my Primary 4 life. During then, My Parents Kept Pushing me to get better results. Then my results were usually band 1 around 80. But they kept pushing me and i Dropped till just pass. Somemore my neghbour then p6 ad psle and went in raffles, so they pushed me harder, then i just fell apart. At p5 they just let me learn at my own pace,( although i didnt realise it then until now).
This made me realise how i actually study. I hate relying on other people. I prefer studying at my own pace and if anyone tries to push me i will just stop there. I actually learn more when i teach others, a fact i realised this year ( thx ).
Its only 2 weeks after exams and people are alreday getting back to the studying mood already. AND I JUST PAID $100 FOR WOW TO PLAY FOR THE HOLIDAYS. ARRGH!!! sianz. the 'joys' of 3 hum.
im seriously tired, i have been plaeing the same game for 3 consecutive nights till 12-1am
if you know me well, you would know that i dont usally sleep so late.
The Ultimate Example of Karma happened today...
I shouted at my bro for irritating me and saying that he wanted to play my game. I really shouted at him. Then he go 1 corner cry and go tuition after that. My mum called from work and told me that she explained things to my bro. As soon as he is gone from my house, i gt disconnected from my game, hten i keep trying to log in back for 3 hrs that he was in tuition but cannot. then my friend suggested that i change my password in case someone was hacking, so i changed. then When he come home right next to me then i can log back in. AMAZING. Maybe Some Guy Up There wanted to take revenge on me for shouting at him. Who Knows.
after playing wow for 2 weeks im officially addicted. so far its th onli game that made me stay up till 12 EVER. my neck hurts
The PTM was irritating. tan bee tin kept epeating he is one the the brighter ones. damn irritating lor. She wrote the longest comments i have ever received in my life. Usually its just "Glennard is a smart and good team worker. He can excel if he puts in more hard work" or something like that. This time is almost extended version lor. Then Keep saying to my father that i can do better if i put in more effort. i gt 15 for l1r5, apparently nt good enough. BUt my dad reminded me of why i like that when he mentioned my Primary 4 life. During then, My Parents Kept Pushing me to get better results. Then my results were usually band 1 around 80. But they kept pushing me and i Dropped till just pass. Somemore my neghbour then p6 ad psle and went in raffles, so they pushed me harder, then i just fell apart. At p5 they just let me learn at my own pace,( although i didnt realise it then until now).
This made me realise how i actually study. I hate relying on other people. I prefer studying at my own pace and if anyone tries to push me i will just stop there. I actually learn more when i teach others, a fact i realised this year ( thx ).
Its only 2 weeks after exams and people are alreday getting back to the studying mood already. AND I JUST PAID $100 FOR WOW TO PLAY FOR THE HOLIDAYS. ARRGH!!! sianz. the 'joys' of 3 hum.
Monday, September 18, 2006
The Problem Is Choice
i have been getting this question a lot lately, especially since the Final Year papers are approaching
Why Do I never seem to need to study or feel stressed or can still be so happy and hyper when the exams are just around the corner, Dont I Care?
to say the truth, I care,
i care a lot
but i just dont want to let others know that
i like having a shroud of mystery around me
i like people thinking that im happy, when im not
but ya, sometimes the emotions overwhelms you and you lose control for a while
but usually what you see of me isnt what is real
a mere shell
but sometimes you do see the real me
thats when you start hating me
because i myself hate me
so i need to put on a shell
so i can live through my school life in resonable shape
i dont like people to care about me
i find that it puts unneccesary stress on themselves and me
so i need to put on this mask
so people will think im happy and well
and doesnt have problems at all
thats the kind of person who doesnt need anyone to care for him
thats how i like my life to be
but regarding the exams part
i dont study much
even if i do i do it subconsciously
i do it during lessons and listen in class
rather then going home and trying to figure out everything by yourself and failing
except for a maths ive slept throughout the whole of term3 her lessons are just too boring
i dont like to study
i cant read a book without sleeping
much less read notes
i have no idea how im going to make it through my O Levels
so pray hard that i dont fall asleep in class
i detest people who study so much that other parts of life are neglected
even if it is during exam periods
i think of it as being controlled
i dont like being controlled
some people may think of it as focus or concentration
but i think its a waste of time
there's no point sacrifising health and sleep for books
sure it may be important but what about the other days
they are important too
the only reason why i care about my studies
are because of the ones who love me
my parents
they are the only reason i want to study
i dont want to be a burden
i dont want them to regret having me as their child
i dont want to make their sacrifises be wasted
i am probably going to study after looking at my parents
having to be able to take care of me and my brother
with love and joy
even though i know they wont see this
i want to thank them for everything
i want to study well so i can have a good job and give my parents and my future wife and children
a comfortable life, even if it means having 1 meal a day
that is if i dont do well in my studies...
i hope i can do you proud
Why Do I never seem to need to study or feel stressed or can still be so happy and hyper when the exams are just around the corner, Dont I Care?
to say the truth, I care,
i care a lot
but i just dont want to let others know that
i like having a shroud of mystery around me
i like people thinking that im happy, when im not
but ya, sometimes the emotions overwhelms you and you lose control for a while
but usually what you see of me isnt what is real
a mere shell
but sometimes you do see the real me
thats when you start hating me
because i myself hate me
so i need to put on a shell
so i can live through my school life in resonable shape
i dont like people to care about me
i find that it puts unneccesary stress on themselves and me
so i need to put on this mask
so people will think im happy and well
and doesnt have problems at all
thats the kind of person who doesnt need anyone to care for him
thats how i like my life to be
but regarding the exams part
i dont study much
even if i do i do it subconsciously
i do it during lessons and listen in class
rather then going home and trying to figure out everything by yourself and failing
except for a maths ive slept throughout the whole of term3 her lessons are just too boring
i dont like to study
i cant read a book without sleeping
much less read notes
i have no idea how im going to make it through my O Levels
so pray hard that i dont fall asleep in class
i detest people who study so much that other parts of life are neglected
even if it is during exam periods
i think of it as being controlled
i dont like being controlled
some people may think of it as focus or concentration
but i think its a waste of time
there's no point sacrifising health and sleep for books
sure it may be important but what about the other days
they are important too
the only reason why i care about my studies
are because of the ones who love me
my parents
they are the only reason i want to study
i dont want to be a burden
i dont want them to regret having me as their child
i dont want to make their sacrifises be wasted
i am probably going to study after looking at my parents
having to be able to take care of me and my brother
with love and joy
even though i know they wont see this
i want to thank them for everything
i want to study well so i can have a good job and give my parents and my future wife and children
a comfortable life, even if it means having 1 meal a day
that is if i dont do well in my studies...
i hope i can do you proud
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
the most specialest day of the year.......................turned out to be like any other day
the most specialest day of the year
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turned out to be like any other day
yesterdae
lessons lessons lessons until 1130
then see binghui chasing xiaomin
then decide to rot there
UNTIL 1 still gt geog lesson
his lesson ultra boring
summore he say eoy paper is 1 and half hr
OHNOES
anyway, my parents picked me up to go bathe and take my ic photo
i think i blinked...
then go food court eat as part of bdae celebration
then my mum ask me what i want for bdae
i just randomli say rollerblade
then she realli go buy
first time no need beg 1 leh
then after tt go royalsportinghse buy
my bro try out then in the end he aso dunno then fall on his butt
hahas
.... then nuthing liao lor
todae 69
wake up then first sms i receive
from linda happy bdae i nvr forget hor or sumthing liddat
thx
then on the computer
let my bro play a while then some back
from dawn happy bdae
thx
from xt
happy bdae
thx
then chatchatchat then i gt a new mei and her name is
(drum roll)daWn tAn YAY (clapclapclap)
then rot online
from mushroom
happy bdae
thx
from jelena
happy bdae
thx
from gangyi
happy bdae
thx
THEN suddenli i hear vibrate sound i tot is from the computer
realised is phone
then pickup is joanna and jess and still gt 1 person cannot hear carefulli?
happi bdae
thx
everything within tt para happened b4 12
todae 69 after 12
rot arnd the hse then go down test run the new rollerblades
who know how to brake can teach me
after tt then sit there thinking
NO ONE IS GOING TO JIO ME OUT CELEBRATE oh well
who can blame them
i aso seldom give bdae presents to other ppl aso
or celebrate with them
serves me rite, maybe sum1 up there dun like me for tt
then give me 'bao ying'
SO after all tt time wasting space to talk abt myself
i want to use this space below to write about steve irwin
this maybe a post for my bdae but i feel tt out of respect he deserves a little recognition
He was a rather impressive person
he gt popular without using gimmicks or songs or frauds
he gt popular bcuz he cared about preservation of wildlife
and he didnt stop there he still continued to spread the word on wildlife
he is a unique individual who rose to fame for a good cause nt like singers or actors
he rose to fame bcuz he cared about wildlife
nt by singing or acting on the silver screen
i may nt watch him much but i think he shld have lived longer
we need more people like him on earth
more people who use their influence for the good of the world
nt like paris hilton
or eminem
or jj
or milubing
or jim carrey
im nt dissing them or anything
im just saying that we shld spend less time and attention on them
and more time on the more important things like
wildlife or recycling
or whatever
this post was way too long
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turned out to be like any other day
yesterdae
lessons lessons lessons until 1130
then see binghui chasing xiaomin
then decide to rot there
UNTIL 1 still gt geog lesson
his lesson ultra boring
summore he say eoy paper is 1 and half hr
OHNOES
anyway, my parents picked me up to go bathe and take my ic photo
i think i blinked...
then go food court eat as part of bdae celebration
then my mum ask me what i want for bdae
i just randomli say rollerblade
then she realli go buy
first time no need beg 1 leh
then after tt go royalsportinghse buy
my bro try out then in the end he aso dunno then fall on his butt
hahas
.... then nuthing liao lor
todae 69
wake up then first sms i receive
from linda happy bdae i nvr forget hor or sumthing liddat
thx
then on the computer
let my bro play a while then some back
from dawn happy bdae
thx
from xt
happy bdae
thx
then chatchatchat then i gt a new mei and her name is
(drum roll)daWn tAn YAY (clapclapclap)
then rot online
from mushroom
happy bdae
thx
from jelena
happy bdae
thx
from gangyi
happy bdae
thx
THEN suddenli i hear vibrate sound i tot is from the computer
realised is phone
then pickup is joanna and jess and still gt 1 person cannot hear carefulli?
happi bdae
thx
everything within tt para happened b4 12
todae 69 after 12
rot arnd the hse then go down test run the new rollerblades
who know how to brake can teach me
after tt then sit there thinking
NO ONE IS GOING TO JIO ME OUT CELEBRATE oh well
who can blame them
i aso seldom give bdae presents to other ppl aso
or celebrate with them
serves me rite, maybe sum1 up there dun like me for tt
then give me 'bao ying'
SO after all tt time wasting space to talk abt myself
i want to use this space below to write about steve irwin
this maybe a post for my bdae but i feel tt out of respect he deserves a little recognition
He was a rather impressive person
he gt popular without using gimmicks or songs or frauds
he gt popular bcuz he cared about preservation of wildlife
and he didnt stop there he still continued to spread the word on wildlife
he is a unique individual who rose to fame for a good cause nt like singers or actors
he rose to fame bcuz he cared about wildlife
nt by singing or acting on the silver screen
i may nt watch him much but i think he shld have lived longer
we need more people like him on earth
more people who use their influence for the good of the world
nt like paris hilton
or eminem
or jj
or milubing
or jim carrey
im nt dissing them or anything
im just saying that we shld spend less time and attention on them
and more time on the more important things like
wildlife or recycling
or whatever
this post was way too long
Saturday, August 19, 2006
To compliment Yang's post
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haha i crazy le my thinking wont change de will alwaes be high happy hyper funny sarcastic lame idioticly funny
ya so if you are reallly know me, you can see sometimes is real, sometimes is acting with a really good mask la, so LETS ALL BE CRAZY !!!! yay !!!
btw sry linda, this time really really my fault.
IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...IM CRAZY...
haha i crazy le my thinking wont change de will alwaes be high happy hyper funny sarcastic lame idioticly funny
ya so if you are reallly know me, you can see sometimes is real, sometimes is acting with a really good mask la, so LETS ALL BE CRAZY !!!! yay !!!
btw sry linda, this time really really my fault.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
another reason to bang my head against the wall
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we are no longer ncos anymore
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we were not good enough
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even the TOs said so
we have no initiative
no bonding
no telepathy
no respect for rank
no nco mindset
i am just 1 of them
i think im the one who pulled them down
i couldnt help them just because im tired
i always shout at people even though its not their fault
i bring peoples morale down
i make peoples worried about nothing ( me)
i waste other peoples time
i think they are better off without me
i just cant help them
i just cant make people listen
i just dont have the SHI LI
i just want to make them a higher profile squad even if
im not in it
i dont wan to be the best anymore
i just want everyone give their 75%
iz enough liao
maybe without me they can do better
i feel like biting myself
for letting them down
for not being SHI LI PAI
for simply being there when we are scolded
for not speaking up when i have ideas
for not making people listen when i shld make a decision
for not making decisions when i shld
im sorry
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every single decision i have made sucked until now
every decision others make rocks like hell
everything i do makes people piss off and scold me
everything others do gets them praise
but if they include me in what they do
the decision automatically sux
im sorry
i cant help yu guys
i cant do anything useful
i only make you all lose face
sry
BINGHUI NOW I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL...
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we are no longer ncos anymore
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we were not good enough
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even the TOs said so
we have no initiative
no bonding
no telepathy
no respect for rank
no nco mindset
i am just 1 of them
i think im the one who pulled them down
i couldnt help them just because im tired
i always shout at people even though its not their fault
i bring peoples morale down
i make peoples worried about nothing ( me)
i waste other peoples time
i think they are better off without me
i just cant help them
i just cant make people listen
i just dont have the SHI LI
i just want to make them a higher profile squad even if
im not in it
i dont wan to be the best anymore
i just want everyone give their 75%
iz enough liao
maybe without me they can do better
i feel like biting myself
for letting them down
for not being SHI LI PAI
for simply being there when we are scolded
for not speaking up when i have ideas
for not making people listen when i shld make a decision
for not making decisions when i shld
im sorry
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every single decision i have made sucked until now
every decision others make rocks like hell
everything i do makes people piss off and scold me
everything others do gets them praise
but if they include me in what they do
the decision automatically sux
im sorry
i cant help yu guys
i cant do anything useful
i only make you all lose face
sry
BINGHUI NOW I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL...
Sunday, July 16, 2006
You aint never gonna keep me down...
Friday
went to the steamboat at marina. Edwin and priscilla planned 2 weeks beforehand then on that day realised dunno how to go. hahas. after training go mrt wiat for them from 7.30 to 8.30 then decided to go. hwen we at the busstop waiting for them, gt 1 auntie keep harassing us saying what 1person $12 all that crap, she keep annoying us until the bus come lor. when we reach kang yue take alot of eggs then crack into the soup until the colour like milk liddat. so very little people use the soup only use the foil for cooking meat. then later, ms nai and mrs goh come join us. mrs goh always behind other people's back talk about them like say teacher lousy all that. after the steamboat, all the boys go arcade except takkin who wait for his parents with yang. ben and me went to the busstop to go back the mrt station. we didnt the bus was 1 way so walk for three stations until the we wanted to take taxi, then lucky gt bus come. the side at night almost no light 1, not like hougang midnight still so bright. reach home 12.30 kanna scolding by my mum. hahas
saturday morning
games day at north vista again like last year. we reach there then realised that we need to bring the challenge trophy. hahas. i played for tug of war but i only played for 1 match. we lost the challenge trophy that day but i feel that everyone gave their all including the instructors who were always by the side encouraging us. although we lost, i feel that we shouldnt have kept on complaining about the game like unfairness or whatever, it only makes us more angry and disappointed, instead we should tell our team good job everyone, its healthier that way.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=P-bWsOK-h98 ronaldinho, footballing great
blame the coach for putting him in a bad position
went to the steamboat at marina. Edwin and priscilla planned 2 weeks beforehand then on that day realised dunno how to go. hahas. after training go mrt wiat for them from 7.30 to 8.30 then decided to go. hwen we at the busstop waiting for them, gt 1 auntie keep harassing us saying what 1person $12 all that crap, she keep annoying us until the bus come lor. when we reach kang yue take alot of eggs then crack into the soup until the colour like milk liddat. so very little people use the soup only use the foil for cooking meat. then later, ms nai and mrs goh come join us. mrs goh always behind other people's back talk about them like say teacher lousy all that. after the steamboat, all the boys go arcade except takkin who wait for his parents with yang. ben and me went to the busstop to go back the mrt station. we didnt the bus was 1 way so walk for three stations until the we wanted to take taxi, then lucky gt bus come. the side at night almost no light 1, not like hougang midnight still so bright. reach home 12.30 kanna scolding by my mum. hahas
saturday morning
games day at north vista again like last year. we reach there then realised that we need to bring the challenge trophy. hahas. i played for tug of war but i only played for 1 match. we lost the challenge trophy that day but i feel that everyone gave their all including the instructors who were always by the side encouraging us. although we lost, i feel that we shouldnt have kept on complaining about the game like unfairness or whatever, it only makes us more angry and disappointed, instead we should tell our team good job everyone, its healthier that way.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=P-bWsOK-h98 ronaldinho, footballing great
blame the coach for putting him in a bad position
Friday, June 30, 2006
U noe that feeling ...
U noe that feeling u get when u work very hard for a veryhat long time and end up you completely hate the results?
that feeling that makes you feel completely worthless because u think that nothing good happens after so long?
that feeling that makes you feel like kill yourself because you are making others who are better than you seem average?
that feeling that makes you feel completely worthless because u think that nothing good happens after so long?
that feeling that makes you feel like kill yourself because you are making others who are better than you seem average?
i realli feel very very hopeless rite now
i am the lowest profile in my squad
im like the" oh ya still gt glennard hor, dunno anyhow put him anywhere aso can la" that kind of guy.
here is my proof
(tears are flowing down onto my keyboard as i write them down...)
Third class
I last to take squad, every 1 tired, i shouted command worng for 3 times then they see me so pathetic then do la
score me 0-1
creative parade
first day never do much, second day help quite a lot becuz no time liao, but still get last
score me 0-2
MOI first try at campcraft
a lot of knots dunno, then dun dare to speak up, then maam come teach me and them, so pathetic
score 0-3
MOI first try at drills
although i tried my best, t=they say no style and i failed pathetically
score 0-4
MOI second try drills
I try to make my own style but still fail
score 0-5
words of commands
I cannot shout, cannot break up command, cannot have tone, cannot have the "zai" in my voice
score 0- 6
MOI after school
my style is encouraging words but becuz no one respond then i cant do much, summore i dun have standard in my drills, not even in the top five when they chose me in the drill team.
score 0-7
second class
do my best to shout, help jian yong yo the toilet and become very tired tts why i lousy in drills , but still fail
score 0-8
posting
no squad leader
score 0-10
no head of anything
score 0-11
no nothing useful
score 0-12
now there is exactly proof and reason why I am the lowest profile in the squad.
just the " still gt glennard leh, anyhow put la he aso cannot help much" type of guy
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
BREATHE IN, BREATHE OUT, I LOVE NPCC!!!
The NCO CAMP 06,
I have only one word to describe it , MARVELOUS
It was 1 of the very very few times that I volunteered myself because i wanted to, not like usually because nobody wants to do it.
It was also 1 of the even fewer times where I was praised for my efforts in npcc as an individual.
Some of the highlights of the camp was the creative parade. My Creative parade grp gt Me,linda,guanzhong,gangyi,jingyi,cheeseng,junliang,eugene,weiting, still gt 2 more i forget name, lols pai seh. Basically, Come up with a unique parade that can involve anything. Sounds simple? HELL NO. We had no help from any instructors and we had no idea to start with. So the first day, Chee Seng was still in Msia and we cant teach him yet. Gangyi and me tried a few different ideas but in the end all throw in the dustbin. why? we realised for the first time that taking a squad is truly truly not easy. The sec 2s cannot concentrate and there was quite a few communication probs. So we were the slowest on the first day as the others had already started practicing. The next day was slightly better.we had 1 session before campfire prep, so we used the time to fuse all our ideas together to create a slightly better 1. Gangyi had an injury and cannot participate in the parade, but he really contributed alot. We managed to do about half of our parade but not enough time. Later, after the campfire, the instructors decided to change our bunk inspection to the actual parade, but WE HAVENT FINISHED PLANING. Fortunately, there was about ten minutes to prepare, and we did. but during the parade we forgot most of it like dressing and stuff so it ended up lousier than expected. but even tho we didnt win, i found it meaningful as it gave us an insight on being a squad leader.
Another highlight was the PT session. We had to take the sec2s for pt session for the very very first time. our group of PTIs include gangyi,junyuan,jesslyn,joanna,jianyong and me. jian yong and jesslyn looked around for safety measures while the others gave instructions and demos. I felt that it was quite good as every1s morale was high and every PTI participated. But the instructors felt that it was too long and we were "too high". Nonetheless, i still feel that all the PTIs did a good job.
Last but not least is the campfire. Its the first campfire we ever organized. before the camp we prepared a lot of firewood which took a lot of time. the campfire prep had the songleaders teaching the juniors cheers,while the runners and firefeeders(me) carried logistic items around. Our ic was jesslyn and junyuan. They did a great job of organizing us while the MCs gangyi and joanna were also good at bringing up the morale.
In an NPCC camp, there is bound to be takken-ing(scold and punishment) session. our session took place in the morning as the instructors wanted us to have a feel of nco standard before starting.
The first night of the camp was the bunk inspection. They were not happy with our bunks and wanted us to bring all of our stuff down to the parade square form our bunk which is at the third floor. Many of us, including the sec 2s dropped our stuff along the way. At the parade square, we were in pumping position as the instructors scolded us. Even our flag was rolled up as we were not able to portray what we wrote in our flag, SPEED SAFETY SERIOUS=STANDARD. Later, we went to wall for our half squat, we had to lean on some of squadmates for support. We were in that position for about 3-5 minutes. Our instructors were motivating us throughout even thought they were punishing us. They even took a photo of us in that position as a momento. It was really very touching, a few of us cried.
the second session was during the morning arnd 5 am. We were called down for a fire drill. every1 was late. jian yong woke me up and i couldnt even stand. my right knee was completely numb and i tried to stand three times but all land on my butt. lucky jian yong still nearby to pull me up. we gathered at parade square. 1 of the sec 2s was missing and the sec 2s were being scolded for not taking care of him. We had to help them search the entire school for him. I didnt bring my specs along so jian yong help me around. WE searched for a lot of time until the CIs decided to ask us return to bunk. After which we gathered for another fire drill. this time the CIs brought the missing person, joshua from the command post. He scolded the sec 2s as well as asked for reasons of the activity but they couldnt answer, so they pumped,recover,pumped,recover until they anyhow guess the answer. it was a good lesson for the sec 2s.
At the end of the camp, the instructors gave individual comments on us. I will wrote them here so i wont forget when i be an nco ( this is not to hao lian seriously)
You have done well in PT and MOI(method of instruction) but you should increase your profile in the squad.
I have really seen you grow up during this 3 days, you have don quite well in PT and MOI but brush up on your drills.
You are a firefeeder, you shouldnt forget your post and leave when you are needed.
You need to brush up your drills, but you have done quite well for your MOI and PT, good job.
good luck in your nco life and work hard for your post.
This NCO camp was amazing
I really want to thank all the instructors especially
SI Tan Jia Hao
ACI Lee Hui Ying
WCI Jocelyn Neo
CI Joey Pear
They really motivated our squad and me to push ourselves even further
I also want to thank my squad, Sec 3s 06 for helping me and each other throughout the camp
Joanna
Junyuan
Jesslyn
Jingyi
Gangyi
Jianyong
Chengboon
Anastasia
Linda
Guanzhong
Weichean
Joshua
Glennard
The sec 2s also helped out alot during the camp, thanks
As well as the sec 1s during campfire
THANK YOU FOR ALL THE MEMORIES
I have only one word to describe it , MARVELOUS
It was 1 of the very very few times that I volunteered myself because i wanted to, not like usually because nobody wants to do it.
It was also 1 of the even fewer times where I was praised for my efforts in npcc as an individual.
Some of the highlights of the camp was the creative parade. My Creative parade grp gt Me,linda,guanzhong,gangyi,jingyi,cheeseng,junliang,eugene,weiting, still gt 2 more i forget name, lols pai seh. Basically, Come up with a unique parade that can involve anything. Sounds simple? HELL NO. We had no help from any instructors and we had no idea to start with. So the first day, Chee Seng was still in Msia and we cant teach him yet. Gangyi and me tried a few different ideas but in the end all throw in the dustbin. why? we realised for the first time that taking a squad is truly truly not easy. The sec 2s cannot concentrate and there was quite a few communication probs. So we were the slowest on the first day as the others had already started practicing. The next day was slightly better.we had 1 session before campfire prep, so we used the time to fuse all our ideas together to create a slightly better 1. Gangyi had an injury and cannot participate in the parade, but he really contributed alot. We managed to do about half of our parade but not enough time. Later, after the campfire, the instructors decided to change our bunk inspection to the actual parade, but WE HAVENT FINISHED PLANING. Fortunately, there was about ten minutes to prepare, and we did. but during the parade we forgot most of it like dressing and stuff so it ended up lousier than expected. but even tho we didnt win, i found it meaningful as it gave us an insight on being a squad leader.
Another highlight was the PT session. We had to take the sec2s for pt session for the very very first time. our group of PTIs include gangyi,junyuan,jesslyn,joanna,jianyong and me. jian yong and jesslyn looked around for safety measures while the others gave instructions and demos. I felt that it was quite good as every1s morale was high and every PTI participated. But the instructors felt that it was too long and we were "too high". Nonetheless, i still feel that all the PTIs did a good job.
Last but not least is the campfire. Its the first campfire we ever organized. before the camp we prepared a lot of firewood which took a lot of time. the campfire prep had the songleaders teaching the juniors cheers,while the runners and firefeeders(me) carried logistic items around. Our ic was jesslyn and junyuan. They did a great job of organizing us while the MCs gangyi and joanna were also good at bringing up the morale.
In an NPCC camp, there is bound to be takken-ing(scold and punishment) session. our session took place in the morning as the instructors wanted us to have a feel of nco standard before starting.
The first night of the camp was the bunk inspection. They were not happy with our bunks and wanted us to bring all of our stuff down to the parade square form our bunk which is at the third floor. Many of us, including the sec 2s dropped our stuff along the way. At the parade square, we were in pumping position as the instructors scolded us. Even our flag was rolled up as we were not able to portray what we wrote in our flag, SPEED SAFETY SERIOUS=STANDARD. Later, we went to wall for our half squat, we had to lean on some of squadmates for support. We were in that position for about 3-5 minutes. Our instructors were motivating us throughout even thought they were punishing us. They even took a photo of us in that position as a momento. It was really very touching, a few of us cried.
the second session was during the morning arnd 5 am. We were called down for a fire drill. every1 was late. jian yong woke me up and i couldnt even stand. my right knee was completely numb and i tried to stand three times but all land on my butt. lucky jian yong still nearby to pull me up. we gathered at parade square. 1 of the sec 2s was missing and the sec 2s were being scolded for not taking care of him. We had to help them search the entire school for him. I didnt bring my specs along so jian yong help me around. WE searched for a lot of time until the CIs decided to ask us return to bunk. After which we gathered for another fire drill. this time the CIs brought the missing person, joshua from the command post. He scolded the sec 2s as well as asked for reasons of the activity but they couldnt answer, so they pumped,recover,pumped,recover until they anyhow guess the answer. it was a good lesson for the sec 2s.
At the end of the camp, the instructors gave individual comments on us. I will wrote them here so i wont forget when i be an nco ( this is not to hao lian seriously)
You have done well in PT and MOI(method of instruction) but you should increase your profile in the squad.
I have really seen you grow up during this 3 days, you have don quite well in PT and MOI but brush up on your drills.
You are a firefeeder, you shouldnt forget your post and leave when you are needed.
You need to brush up your drills, but you have done quite well for your MOI and PT, good job.
good luck in your nco life and work hard for your post.
This NCO camp was amazing
I really want to thank all the instructors especially
SI Tan Jia Hao
ACI Lee Hui Ying
WCI Jocelyn Neo
CI Joey Pear
They really motivated our squad and me to push ourselves even further
I also want to thank my squad, Sec 3s 06 for helping me and each other throughout the camp
Joanna
Junyuan
Jesslyn
Jingyi
Gangyi
Jianyong
Chengboon
Anastasia
Linda
Guanzhong
Weichean
Joshua
Glennard
The sec 2s also helped out alot during the camp, thanks
As well as the sec 1s during campfire
THANK YOU FOR ALL THE MEMORIES
Sunday, June 04, 2006
ATC + Mr Yeo = HUAT AH!!!!
Train TO Be A Leader
This is basically what the whole camp is about
something like a pre-nco camp without drills
trained to be a leader
to fight for our land
once for our lives
four years of our time
have you ever wonder why must we serve
cuz we love our unit
and want it to be first, to be first
looking all around us
people everywhere
children having fun
but we are holding gun
have you ever wonder why must we serve
cuz we love our unit
and want it to be first, to be first
The water at there s swimming pool water, suckz like hell hi spirit still nicer. The Atc very fast finish, Expected it to be longer.
This time i onli kanna 4 bites HAHAS
sianz, still need to prepare for nco camp and the graffiti
This is basically what the whole camp is about
something like a pre-nco camp without drills
trained to be a leader
to fight for our land
once for our lives
four years of our time
have you ever wonder why must we serve
cuz we love our unit
and want it to be first, to be first
looking all around us
people everywhere
children having fun
but we are holding gun
have you ever wonder why must we serve
cuz we love our unit
and want it to be first, to be first
The water at there s swimming pool water, suckz like hell hi spirit still nicer. The Atc very fast finish, Expected it to be longer.
This time i onli kanna 4 bites HAHAS
sianz, still need to prepare for nco camp and the graffiti
Monday, May 22, 2006
The end has a new meaning in my heart
Good News before the bad, the exams are OVER (ok they were over a long time ago)
BAd News, NPCC has just unleashed 3 activities in a row, BLESSING parade, ATC camp and NCO camp
firstly, the blessing is extremely significant cuz the principal likes it, or else no one wld have remembered it. She is trying to sell it to the catholics by making it sound good. i mean who cares, why should sumone care when u just feel like lazing at home rite?? For the first time, Im part of the GUARD OF HONOR, but before u celebrate, i DONT know how to do rifle drills as well as the sec 2s.
I wanna cry
the ATC camp is going to hurt me as we are going to UBIN AGAIN, YAYAY !!!! there is going to be a wet activity this time and i dont feel like bringin anything wet back home. worse still, we cant bring any home clothes there, onli np or skool shirts. its still quite okay compared to the nco camp
I wanna run away
Now, the NCO camp is going to be the highlight of this year, cuz we get to run a campfire for the first time. but i scared we not up to standard. the whole nco camp will decide what post we get. that alone leads to many questions. What if i dont get the post i want?What if Im not up to standard? What if The understudy NCOs are better then me? I WILL push myself this time, i realli hope i can do it. Joey told us today that our squad has been weak from sec1 to now. its true but its very demoralising to hear from an officer. He told us that there will be CONFIRMED understudys. that means we were not good enough to run the unit by ourselves that we need help from others. I realli wanna prove myself during the camp, i dont wanna let my seniors down. I dont wanna let me instructors down. I dont wanna let myself down (i am so selfish) but i realli hope to prove sumthing during this camp. maybe im just not cut out to be a squad leader. I realli wanna cry if i dont get the post i want. what will happen after that? i dont know. I hope i can be more iniative for my np life from now on.
I wanna hide from all my troubles and wait till they go away
Help me......
BAd News, NPCC has just unleashed 3 activities in a row, BLESSING parade, ATC camp and NCO camp
firstly, the blessing is extremely significant cuz the principal likes it, or else no one wld have remembered it. She is trying to sell it to the catholics by making it sound good. i mean who cares, why should sumone care when u just feel like lazing at home rite?? For the first time, Im part of the GUARD OF HONOR, but before u celebrate, i DONT know how to do rifle drills as well as the sec 2s.
I wanna cry
the ATC camp is going to hurt me as we are going to UBIN AGAIN, YAYAY !!!! there is going to be a wet activity this time and i dont feel like bringin anything wet back home. worse still, we cant bring any home clothes there, onli np or skool shirts. its still quite okay compared to the nco camp
I wanna run away
Now, the NCO camp is going to be the highlight of this year, cuz we get to run a campfire for the first time. but i scared we not up to standard. the whole nco camp will decide what post we get. that alone leads to many questions. What if i dont get the post i want?What if Im not up to standard? What if The understudy NCOs are better then me? I WILL push myself this time, i realli hope i can do it. Joey told us today that our squad has been weak from sec1 to now. its true but its very demoralising to hear from an officer. He told us that there will be CONFIRMED understudys. that means we were not good enough to run the unit by ourselves that we need help from others. I realli wanna prove myself during the camp, i dont wanna let my seniors down. I dont wanna let me instructors down. I dont wanna let myself down (i am so selfish) but i realli hope to prove sumthing during this camp. maybe im just not cut out to be a squad leader. I realli wanna cry if i dont get the post i want. what will happen after that? i dont know. I hope i can be more iniative for my np life from now on.
I wanna hide from all my troubles and wait till they go away
Help me......
Saturday, May 06, 2006
PILLS, the world could definitely use less of them
I hate pills.
They make children cry because of their bad taste
They make old people sick because of bad contents
They make aunties buy them because they are kiasu about health
They make men hate it because aunties make them eat it. See Above
They make ME hate it because of ALL the reasons above, except the auntie one.
In short, They just plain sucks.
oh ya, before i forget I HATE PILLS
You may be wondering why i wrote this. I have to take pills everyday, my mum forces me to take it because she says its healthy. The human body is capable of protecting and keeping itself healthy and working, so why do we need "health supplements" when its not necessary.
As I stared at the pills last night, I started wondering, What if they could create a DESTRESS pill? You take one and you are destressed. I dunno what your reaction would be, but i would most probably avoid it, possibly coz i dun develop stress like the rest of my 3 HUM classmates, thus im the 3humblacksheep. But still, sumthing that good will definitely have side effects and desperate people will deifinitely, i repeat DEFINITELY overdose and end up kicking the bucket.
So if it truly happens, there will be a huge craze over it, like the ones about slimming pills among three people, students, teachers and possibli workers. The teachers can abuse it during exam period like putting stress on the students and selling them at half price(just a thought).
But honestly, would studying really push you to such a desperate time that you will do things like pills?
Perhaps...
doing photoshop manipulation, failing horribly. O2 jam is fun. I haven study for geog [Insert random thought here]
They make children cry because of their bad taste
They make old people sick because of bad contents
They make aunties buy them because they are kiasu about health
They make men hate it because aunties make them eat it. See Above
They make ME hate it because of ALL the reasons above, except the auntie one.
In short, They just plain sucks.
oh ya, before i forget I HATE PILLS
You may be wondering why i wrote this. I have to take pills everyday, my mum forces me to take it because she says its healthy. The human body is capable of protecting and keeping itself healthy and working, so why do we need "health supplements" when its not necessary.
As I stared at the pills last night, I started wondering, What if they could create a DESTRESS pill? You take one and you are destressed. I dunno what your reaction would be, but i would most probably avoid it, possibly coz i dun develop stress like the rest of my 3 HUM classmates, thus im the 3humblacksheep. But still, sumthing that good will definitely have side effects and desperate people will deifinitely, i repeat DEFINITELY overdose and end up kicking the bucket.
So if it truly happens, there will be a huge craze over it, like the ones about slimming pills among three people, students, teachers and possibli workers. The teachers can abuse it during exam period like putting stress on the students and selling them at half price(just a thought).
But honestly, would studying really push you to such a desperate time that you will do things like pills?
Perhaps...
doing photoshop manipulation, failing horribly. O2 jam is fun. I haven study for geog [Insert random thought here]
Thursday, April 27, 2006
I LOVE BALL GAMES (no seriousli)
im going crazy
after skool bh suddenli rush up and sae gt wad gathering then ask us go canteen find janice. then reach there nobody, so yang go call then they say at hg mall macdonald. so we go there then she and sotong and jelena(feel tempted to write jel) sit at 1 corner, not enuff space for us. so we sit another corner, then bh alwaes use the" If u are part of 2 cha then u go wif us la" then in the end still boyz one side, girlz one side, dam @#@$#%@6# leh. so we ate stuff wif adrian $$ and edwin joined us later. didi fighting wif edwin den suddenli punch his bag and crush his calculator, dam nice leh.
then we ( the 2CHA rockers minus fangyuan and ben ) go back to skool to play some ball, we playing at the corridor cuz the class lined up for exam liao. den we playplayplay until tired then go in 3unity . den we tok, den suddenli yang say SONGBO, i turn around see guei big body wif a camera. he call us take picture wif the ball. dam stupid, den adrain still face the stupid camera wif "that" face. after that we go down to the office and he scoldscoldscold until he ask us wad punishment to get. we sae detention, originalli we wanted 1 week, but then he say three hrs b4 we replied. then edwin still ask can after exam anot. WTH mr guei nearli wanted to scold us for bargaining ,lucki mrs wong come out at that time then "tok" to us. then suddenli after that he sae punishment change to CWO but 1 hr onli. wah lao, i wanted detention lor. nevermind.
ON a side note,
i hate the stereotype that all humility ppl are smart and cannot fail. wah lao, it sux lor. then if we dunno sumthing, i get suaned. iz realli very unfair lor, cuz IM NOT THE TYPE VERY NERDY 1 ! but almost everyone else is in humility. summore they alwaes go home on the dot after lesson, never play sports r anithing besides wayne la. alwaes go home revise like theres no tomorrow. I WANT TO CHANGE CLASS.
after skool bh suddenli rush up and sae gt wad gathering then ask us go canteen find janice. then reach there nobody, so yang go call then they say at hg mall macdonald. so we go there then she and sotong and jelena(feel tempted to write jel) sit at 1 corner, not enuff space for us. so we sit another corner, then bh alwaes use the" If u are part of 2 cha then u go wif us la" then in the end still boyz one side, girlz one side, dam @#@$#%@6# leh. so we ate stuff wif adrian $$ and edwin joined us later. didi fighting wif edwin den suddenli punch his bag and crush his calculator, dam nice leh.
then we ( the 2CHA rockers minus fangyuan and ben ) go back to skool to play some ball, we playing at the corridor cuz the class lined up for exam liao. den we playplayplay until tired then go in 3unity . den we tok, den suddenli yang say SONGBO, i turn around see guei big body wif a camera. he call us take picture wif the ball. dam stupid, den adrain still face the stupid camera wif "that" face. after that we go down to the office and he scoldscoldscold until he ask us wad punishment to get. we sae detention, originalli we wanted 1 week, but then he say three hrs b4 we replied. then edwin still ask can after exam anot. WTH mr guei nearli wanted to scold us for bargaining ,lucki mrs wong come out at that time then "tok" to us. then suddenli after that he sae punishment change to CWO but 1 hr onli. wah lao, i wanted detention lor. nevermind.
ON a side note,
i hate the stereotype that all humility ppl are smart and cannot fail. wah lao, it sux lor. then if we dunno sumthing, i get suaned. iz realli very unfair lor, cuz IM NOT THE TYPE VERY NERDY 1 ! but almost everyone else is in humility. summore they alwaes go home on the dot after lesson, never play sports r anithing besides wayne la. alwaes go home revise like theres no tomorrow. I WANT TO CHANGE CLASS.
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
The worst has yet to come...
I HAVENT STARTED STUDYING!!! YEAH!!! and to those who havent started as well , i urge you to start for i do not want to see anyone retain , except maybe me.
I will say a few words on behalf of the part of my brain which is capable of thought before it dies later on...
English : It would be much easier if it wasnt tested, HECK everything is.
but still, its much easier when Mrs. Hendra was marking my paper
Chinese : YAY no more studying. But now the lessons are real pointless
E Maths : My teacher can revise one topic in 15 minutes while I see other classes fainting in front of their txtbks. Okay so im exagerating
A Maths :
WHY do they include this subject in our syllabus
WHY cant i understand quadratic function
WHY dont i feel that A maths is easier than E maths
WHY cant i understand indices and surds
WHY isnt she responsible for my failure
WHY do they have to bundle our exam paper and show to our parents
WHY cant i understand everything else except matrix
Pretty much
Pure Biology : Our teach hates our class, till now i still dunno why. Why bio need so much memory work. pretty much everything is memory work which i am suckish at. And then theres practical. When the o lvls are over, im gonna tear or burn or sadistically get rid of the txtbk
Pure Chemistry : The teach should work at a polytechnic, but she doesnt the salary thats why shes stuck in our school. The subject is "grasp"able but need a lot of explaination which im also suckish at.
Pure Physics : Possibly my favourite subject if not for english or something else. This subject is rather easy to grasp has only a few formulas to memorixe compared to bio and chem. BUT there are hundreds of ways they can ask you the same question and there are many factors to include in your working.
Social Studies : Basically a very simple way to revise it
1) memorize everything from chpt 1 to 3 (a lot more than u think)
2) Study the different ways to write it
3) Write everything you remember into that format
so its simply memory (which i sick at) and reformatting
Geography Elective: I like this subject becoz...
1) No need for reformatting
2) Just dump it all on foolscap
3) There is sometimes a graph or chart to help you
4) ITS ONLY 45 MINS COMPARED TO HISTORY 1 HR 45 MINS
On a side note, I liek basketball( jus kiddin)
i just donned a new hairstyle some say is cool, some dont seem to notice it whatever
People around school seem to have pimples popping all over due to stress and whatnot
I will say a few words on behalf of the part of my brain which is capable of thought before it dies later on...
English : It would be much easier if it wasnt tested, HECK everything is.
but still, its much easier when Mrs. Hendra was marking my paper
Chinese : YAY no more studying. But now the lessons are real pointless
E Maths : My teacher can revise one topic in 15 minutes while I see other classes fainting in front of their txtbks. Okay so im exagerating
A Maths :
WHY do they include this subject in our syllabus
WHY cant i understand quadratic function
WHY dont i feel that A maths is easier than E maths
WHY cant i understand indices and surds
WHY isnt she responsible for my failure
WHY do they have to bundle our exam paper and show to our parents
WHY cant i understand everything else except matrix
Pretty much
Pure Biology : Our teach hates our class, till now i still dunno why. Why bio need so much memory work. pretty much everything is memory work which i am suckish at. And then theres practical. When the o lvls are over, im gonna tear or burn or sadistically get rid of the txtbk
Pure Chemistry : The teach should work at a polytechnic, but she doesnt the salary thats why shes stuck in our school. The subject is "grasp"able but need a lot of explaination which im also suckish at.
Pure Physics : Possibly my favourite subject if not for english or something else. This subject is rather easy to grasp has only a few formulas to memorixe compared to bio and chem. BUT there are hundreds of ways they can ask you the same question and there are many factors to include in your working.
Social Studies : Basically a very simple way to revise it
1) memorize everything from chpt 1 to 3 (a lot more than u think)
2) Study the different ways to write it
3) Write everything you remember into that format
so its simply memory (which i sick at) and reformatting
Geography Elective: I like this subject becoz...
1) No need for reformatting
2) Just dump it all on foolscap
3) There is sometimes a graph or chart to help you
4) ITS ONLY 45 MINS COMPARED TO HISTORY 1 HR 45 MINS
On a side note, I liek basketball( jus kiddin)
i just donned a new hairstyle some say is cool, some dont seem to notice it whatever
People around school seem to have pimples popping all over due to stress and whatnot
Monday, April 10, 2006
I need a sanctuary...
I hate mood swings
seriously...
woke up today feeling quite okay except for a little fatigue, must be getting old. Anyway, i was quite okay until i reached school. I started feeling very depressed and my heart was heavy, i couldnt explain it. It just happened. it lasted thruout the whole day during lesson time. The whole day was just very tiring, but i didnt feel compelled to sleep, i just felt that my heart was heavy, literally.
Lessons finalli over at 2.30. met up with adrian them. we were talking in canteen the whole time until fy joined us at about 4+. I was laughing at their jokes so hard i coughed all the way home. It was very wierd and i couldnt realli have a productive thought in my head.
Then as i was going home, i saw my bus pass me at the traffic light. so i decided to walk to the other stop quite far away, then a another 62 came as i just passed the road and there was no way i could run back. Unlucky right, the one time i decided to walk, they give me a reason i shouldnt. whats was even wierder was that i didnt feel angry or pissed off or anything, it just like faded away
I realli starting to lose control of mi mind and body.
dunno when it will end, hopefully soon....
im just so tired...
someone help me...
seriously...
woke up today feeling quite okay except for a little fatigue, must be getting old. Anyway, i was quite okay until i reached school. I started feeling very depressed and my heart was heavy, i couldnt explain it. It just happened. it lasted thruout the whole day during lesson time. The whole day was just very tiring, but i didnt feel compelled to sleep, i just felt that my heart was heavy, literally.
Lessons finalli over at 2.30. met up with adrian them. we were talking in canteen the whole time until fy joined us at about 4+. I was laughing at their jokes so hard i coughed all the way home. It was very wierd and i couldnt realli have a productive thought in my head.
Then as i was going home, i saw my bus pass me at the traffic light. so i decided to walk to the other stop quite far away, then a another 62 came as i just passed the road and there was no way i could run back. Unlucky right, the one time i decided to walk, they give me a reason i shouldnt. whats was even wierder was that i didnt feel angry or pissed off or anything, it just like faded away
I realli starting to lose control of mi mind and body.
dunno when it will end, hopefully soon....
im just so tired...
someone help me...
Sunday, April 09, 2006
First law of holes: When in a hole, stop digging
A scattered dream is like a far off memory,
a far off memory thats like a scattered dream.
i wanna line the pieces up
yours and mine
This song is very meaningful, at least to me
Sanctuary (Utada Hikaru)
In you and I there's a new land,
Angels in flight
A sanctuary, my sanctuary, yeah
Where fears and lies melt away
Music will tie
What's left of me
What's left of me now
I watch you fast asleep,
All I fear means nothing
In you and I there's a new land,
Angels in flight
A sanctuary, my sanctuary, yeah
Where fears and lies melt away
Music will tie
What's left of me
What's left of me
My heart's a battleground
You show me how to see,
That nothing is whole and nothing is broken,
In you and I there's a new land
Angels in flight
A sanctuary, my sanctuary, yeah
Where fears and lies melt away
Music will tie
What's left of me
What's left of me now
My fears, my lies
Melt away...
If i ever get the mp3, maybe just maybe i will change the tune
Been having a lot of thoughts lately, never got around to blog about them, maybe later
maybe...
the video is extremely amazing
In contrast to the rather sad or low tone of whatever written above, if you have taken the time to read, some observations on life....
Enjoy
We tend to overestimate the effect of a technology in the short run and underestimate the effect in the long run
When a distinguished but elderly scientist states that something is possible, he is almost certainly right. When he states that something is impossible, he is very probably wrong.
The only way of discovering the limits of the possible is to venture a little way past them into the impossible.
Any sufficiently advanced technology is indistinguishable from magic.
As an online discussion grows longer, the probability of a comparison involving Nazis or Hitler approaches one
Work expands so as to fill the time available for its completion
The best way to describe work, SSDD, Same Shit, Different Day
When you let things go by their own, they usually go from bad to worse
Any new solution brings by itself new problems.
It's useless to make something foolproof, fools are very smart.
Never assume malice when stupidity will suffice
This post was longer than i expected
I onli realised how tired i truly am, and this is 3 weeks before my exams, great
maybe theres a way....
maybe.....
a far off memory thats like a scattered dream.
i wanna line the pieces up
yours and mine
This song is very meaningful, at least to me
Sanctuary (Utada Hikaru)
In you and I there's a new land,
Angels in flight
A sanctuary, my sanctuary, yeah
Where fears and lies melt away
Music will tie
What's left of me
What's left of me now
I watch you fast asleep,
All I fear means nothing
In you and I there's a new land,
Angels in flight
A sanctuary, my sanctuary, yeah
Where fears and lies melt away
Music will tie
What's left of me
What's left of me
My heart's a battleground
You show me how to see,
That nothing is whole and nothing is broken,
In you and I there's a new land
Angels in flight
A sanctuary, my sanctuary, yeah
Where fears and lies melt away
Music will tie
What's left of me
What's left of me now
My fears, my lies
Melt away...
If i ever get the mp3, maybe just maybe i will change the tune
Been having a lot of thoughts lately, never got around to blog about them, maybe later
maybe...
the video is extremely amazing
In contrast to the rather sad or low tone of whatever written above, if you have taken the time to read, some observations on life....
Enjoy
We tend to overestimate the effect of a technology in the short run and underestimate the effect in the long run
When a distinguished but elderly scientist states that something is possible, he is almost certainly right. When he states that something is impossible, he is very probably wrong.
The only way of discovering the limits of the possible is to venture a little way past them into the impossible.
Any sufficiently advanced technology is indistinguishable from magic.
As an online discussion grows longer, the probability of a comparison involving Nazis or Hitler approaches one
Work expands so as to fill the time available for its completion
The best way to describe work, SSDD, Same Shit, Different Day
When you let things go by their own, they usually go from bad to worse
Any new solution brings by itself new problems.
It's useless to make something foolproof, fools are very smart.
Never assume malice when stupidity will suffice
This post was longer than i expected
I onli realised how tired i truly am, and this is 3 weeks before my exams, great
maybe theres a way....
maybe.....
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