I just found another piece of evidence that shows that my life, or rather, I suck.
I do not want to write the details down because i dont want to remember the details of this incident when i delete this blog and look back at the stuff i wrote when i was young and stupid. I just want to remember that it happened, thats' all.
If you want to know more maybe i will tell you, but im NOT trying to get attention or sympathy...
2 men worked at a company with the same salary and qualifications. One of the men is given more opportunities to organize the company then the other man, because he is a friend of the supervisor .
The other man on the other hand, is quite monotounous, doing the same things everyday.
But Both Men Work Equally Hard, Only On Different Things
At the end of they year, the man who worked on different events was given twice the christmas bonus of the other man, and was also promoted.
The promotion and bonus was decided by the boss, who is fair, not the supervisor.
Isit fair that the man gets promoted because he is given more opportunities ?
Isit fair that the other man doesn't get more money even though he worked equally hard and keeps the company together, working on loose ends ?
Maybe not
but life's like that
Regrets are necessary to make people grow
P.S. BOWLING FOR SOUP ROCKS
Sunday, November 26, 2006
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
The Anti - Life Equation
Free Will can be described as life itself.
To phrase it mathematically, it would be known as the "Life Equation"
The opposite also exists, known as the " Anti Life Equation"
It is used to destroy free will, as not having any will would be equivalent to not being alive.
loneliness + alienation + fear + despair + self-worth ÷ mockery ÷ condemantion ÷ misunderstanding x guilt x shame x failure x judgment
n=y
where y=hope and n=folly, love=lies, life=death, self=dark side
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If you knew of this equation, how would you use it?
Get more money?
Get that really cute guy/girl to fall in love with you?
Get control over your teacher?
Get the whole school to worship you?
Get your birthday to be the next national holiday?
Get that guy you really hate to be your slave?
How many people would choose not to use it.
despite the power it carries.
Knowing full well that nobody can stop you.
There would be no side effects, no faults,
no punishments, no jail terms,
nothing
Would you still do it
Before you answer this question
Think of yourself as a human being
With Every Basic Human Right
And Free Will
Don't think of yourself as
a father
a mother
a sibling
a student
a friend
a caretaker
FULLSTOP
Just one of the many questions of life i manage to stumble upon.
To phrase it mathematically, it would be known as the "Life Equation"
The opposite also exists, known as the " Anti Life Equation"
It is used to destroy free will, as not having any will would be equivalent to not being alive.
loneliness + alienation + fear + despair + self-worth ÷ mockery ÷ condemantion ÷ misunderstanding x guilt x shame x failure x judgment
n=y
where y=hope and n=folly, love=lies, life=death, self=dark side
.
If you knew of this equation, how would you use it?
Get more money?
Get that really cute guy/girl to fall in love with you?
Get control over your teacher?
Get the whole school to worship you?
Get your birthday to be the next national holiday?
Get that guy you really hate to be your slave?
How many people would choose not to use it.
despite the power it carries.
Knowing full well that nobody can stop you.
There would be no side effects, no faults,
no punishments, no jail terms,
nothing
Would you still do it
Before you answer this question
Think of yourself as a human being
With Every Basic Human Right
And Free Will
Don't think of yourself as
a father
a mother
a sibling
a student
a friend
a caretaker
FULLSTOP
Just one of the many questions of life i manage to stumble upon.
Saturday, November 11, 2006
The First Day Of Work ......EVER
The first day of work sucked. I work as handphone sales at bedok, clementi or imm, whichever 1 has less people. I worked at bedok from 1030-2100 . The pay is about $30-$40 per day, so itz kind of a loss.
I went in with my dad at about 1030, then see a guy opening the shop. His name is Jason and he is quite friendly. he asked me to vacuum the floor before any customers come in. so i did for about half an hour. then the first few customers came in and jason served them, because he didnt teach me anything. So throughout the whole morning i just sat there and watched him serve. Then about noon another guy came in, Desmond. He helped him out a little and did a little paperwork. Then A Chinese Guy came in and asked me why he phone kept hanging up when he called others. so i tried it on my fone and it worked smoothly. Then he asked Jason why so he just help him reformat the phone and teach him how to off programs properly. Then after that, there was a message that it diverted the call, so he kept bugging Jason about it. Then he tried to ask Desmond to help while he went to buy lunch. then Desmond still couldnt help, so jason beg the guy to let him finish lunch firs tcuz he never eat breakfast, so the guy say that he will wait till he finish his lunch. So he try calling nokia hq but they also cannot solve the problem, then he say ask his friends who also have his friend, then jason become so happy.
After Lunch they teach me how to write the plan application for ppl who want to sign up a new line, so i finally knew what to do , at least a little bit. then the afternoon i just sat around until they have customers, otherwise i would explore the computer a bit. then near 530 pm, i was drawing on the computer, suddenly a voice told me i couldnt use it, i was shocked lor, summore the voice very familiar, like my past instructor during camp. Then as long as he was inside i just moved away or pretended i was looking at some handphone manual.
By Dinner, he went off so i just helped around a bit. I sold a few hi-cards and helped a few customers, by the end of the night.
My parents fetched me home, and they said that they might not have helped me if I wasnt their bosses son. They were the kind that are very crude in their language, so i wasnt surprised. I was thinking that if i gt another job where no one knew who i was, would i be able to slack. Its like they have to be good to me, or as they scared i tell my father and they might lose their jobs. So I was wondering how i would survive in the real world outside.
Many people I have come across call me rich or lucky or 'shao ye' (boss son), basically beacuse of my dad's work, and they treat me differently. I never really felt what the real world is like, especially those less fortunate. I probably never will. Although this is actually at my advantage, i dont like it 1 bit, because if you think for the one at the losing end, how does he feel that hos boss is treating someone else better than him for something he did not do.
I went in with my dad at about 1030, then see a guy opening the shop. His name is Jason and he is quite friendly. he asked me to vacuum the floor before any customers come in. so i did for about half an hour. then the first few customers came in and jason served them, because he didnt teach me anything. So throughout the whole morning i just sat there and watched him serve. Then about noon another guy came in, Desmond. He helped him out a little and did a little paperwork. Then A Chinese Guy came in and asked me why he phone kept hanging up when he called others. so i tried it on my fone and it worked smoothly. Then he asked Jason why so he just help him reformat the phone and teach him how to off programs properly. Then after that, there was a message that it diverted the call, so he kept bugging Jason about it. Then he tried to ask Desmond to help while he went to buy lunch. then Desmond still couldnt help, so jason beg the guy to let him finish lunch firs tcuz he never eat breakfast, so the guy say that he will wait till he finish his lunch. So he try calling nokia hq but they also cannot solve the problem, then he say ask his friends who also have his friend, then jason become so happy.
After Lunch they teach me how to write the plan application for ppl who want to sign up a new line, so i finally knew what to do , at least a little bit. then the afternoon i just sat around until they have customers, otherwise i would explore the computer a bit. then near 530 pm, i was drawing on the computer, suddenly a voice told me i couldnt use it, i was shocked lor, summore the voice very familiar, like my past instructor during camp. Then as long as he was inside i just moved away or pretended i was looking at some handphone manual.
By Dinner, he went off so i just helped around a bit. I sold a few hi-cards and helped a few customers, by the end of the night.
My parents fetched me home, and they said that they might not have helped me if I wasnt their bosses son. They were the kind that are very crude in their language, so i wasnt surprised. I was thinking that if i gt another job where no one knew who i was, would i be able to slack. Its like they have to be good to me, or as they scared i tell my father and they might lose their jobs. So I was wondering how i would survive in the real world outside.
Many people I have come across call me rich or lucky or 'shao ye' (boss son), basically beacuse of my dad's work, and they treat me differently. I never really felt what the real world is like, especially those less fortunate. I probably never will. Although this is actually at my advantage, i dont like it 1 bit, because if you think for the one at the losing end, how does he feel that hos boss is treating someone else better than him for something he did not do.
Saturday, October 28, 2006
Breaking Away From WOW
at 1130 hrs
im seriously tired, i have been plaeing the same game for 3 consecutive nights till 12-1am
if you know me well, you would know that i dont usally sleep so late.
The Ultimate Example of Karma happened today...
I shouted at my bro for irritating me and saying that he wanted to play my game. I really shouted at him. Then he go 1 corner cry and go tuition after that. My mum called from work and told me that she explained things to my bro. As soon as he is gone from my house, i gt disconnected from my game, hten i keep trying to log in back for 3 hrs that he was in tuition but cannot. then my friend suggested that i change my password in case someone was hacking, so i changed. then When he come home right next to me then i can log back in. AMAZING. Maybe Some Guy Up There wanted to take revenge on me for shouting at him. Who Knows.
after playing wow for 2 weeks im officially addicted. so far its th onli game that made me stay up till 12 EVER. my neck hurts
The PTM was irritating. tan bee tin kept epeating he is one the the brighter ones. damn irritating lor. She wrote the longest comments i have ever received in my life. Usually its just "Glennard is a smart and good team worker. He can excel if he puts in more hard work" or something like that. This time is almost extended version lor. Then Keep saying to my father that i can do better if i put in more effort. i gt 15 for l1r5, apparently nt good enough. BUt my dad reminded me of why i like that when he mentioned my Primary 4 life. During then, My Parents Kept Pushing me to get better results. Then my results were usually band 1 around 80. But they kept pushing me and i Dropped till just pass. Somemore my neghbour then p6 ad psle and went in raffles, so they pushed me harder, then i just fell apart. At p5 they just let me learn at my own pace,( although i didnt realise it then until now).
This made me realise how i actually study. I hate relying on other people. I prefer studying at my own pace and if anyone tries to push me i will just stop there. I actually learn more when i teach others, a fact i realised this year ( thx ).
Its only 2 weeks after exams and people are alreday getting back to the studying mood already. AND I JUST PAID $100 FOR WOW TO PLAY FOR THE HOLIDAYS. ARRGH!!! sianz. the 'joys' of 3 hum.
im seriously tired, i have been plaeing the same game for 3 consecutive nights till 12-1am
if you know me well, you would know that i dont usally sleep so late.
The Ultimate Example of Karma happened today...
I shouted at my bro for irritating me and saying that he wanted to play my game. I really shouted at him. Then he go 1 corner cry and go tuition after that. My mum called from work and told me that she explained things to my bro. As soon as he is gone from my house, i gt disconnected from my game, hten i keep trying to log in back for 3 hrs that he was in tuition but cannot. then my friend suggested that i change my password in case someone was hacking, so i changed. then When he come home right next to me then i can log back in. AMAZING. Maybe Some Guy Up There wanted to take revenge on me for shouting at him. Who Knows.
after playing wow for 2 weeks im officially addicted. so far its th onli game that made me stay up till 12 EVER. my neck hurts
The PTM was irritating. tan bee tin kept epeating he is one the the brighter ones. damn irritating lor. She wrote the longest comments i have ever received in my life. Usually its just "Glennard is a smart and good team worker. He can excel if he puts in more hard work" or something like that. This time is almost extended version lor. Then Keep saying to my father that i can do better if i put in more effort. i gt 15 for l1r5, apparently nt good enough. BUt my dad reminded me of why i like that when he mentioned my Primary 4 life. During then, My Parents Kept Pushing me to get better results. Then my results were usually band 1 around 80. But they kept pushing me and i Dropped till just pass. Somemore my neghbour then p6 ad psle and went in raffles, so they pushed me harder, then i just fell apart. At p5 they just let me learn at my own pace,( although i didnt realise it then until now).
This made me realise how i actually study. I hate relying on other people. I prefer studying at my own pace and if anyone tries to push me i will just stop there. I actually learn more when i teach others, a fact i realised this year ( thx ).
Its only 2 weeks after exams and people are alreday getting back to the studying mood already. AND I JUST PAID $100 FOR WOW TO PLAY FOR THE HOLIDAYS. ARRGH!!! sianz. the 'joys' of 3 hum.
Monday, September 18, 2006
The Problem Is Choice
i have been getting this question a lot lately, especially since the Final Year papers are approaching
Why Do I never seem to need to study or feel stressed or can still be so happy and hyper when the exams are just around the corner, Dont I Care?
to say the truth, I care,
i care a lot
but i just dont want to let others know that
i like having a shroud of mystery around me
i like people thinking that im happy, when im not
but ya, sometimes the emotions overwhelms you and you lose control for a while
but usually what you see of me isnt what is real
a mere shell
but sometimes you do see the real me
thats when you start hating me
because i myself hate me
so i need to put on a shell
so i can live through my school life in resonable shape
i dont like people to care about me
i find that it puts unneccesary stress on themselves and me
so i need to put on this mask
so people will think im happy and well
and doesnt have problems at all
thats the kind of person who doesnt need anyone to care for him
thats how i like my life to be
but regarding the exams part
i dont study much
even if i do i do it subconsciously
i do it during lessons and listen in class
rather then going home and trying to figure out everything by yourself and failing
except for a maths ive slept throughout the whole of term3 her lessons are just too boring
i dont like to study
i cant read a book without sleeping
much less read notes
i have no idea how im going to make it through my O Levels
so pray hard that i dont fall asleep in class
i detest people who study so much that other parts of life are neglected
even if it is during exam periods
i think of it as being controlled
i dont like being controlled
some people may think of it as focus or concentration
but i think its a waste of time
there's no point sacrifising health and sleep for books
sure it may be important but what about the other days
they are important too
the only reason why i care about my studies
are because of the ones who love me
my parents
they are the only reason i want to study
i dont want to be a burden
i dont want them to regret having me as their child
i dont want to make their sacrifises be wasted
i am probably going to study after looking at my parents
having to be able to take care of me and my brother
with love and joy
even though i know they wont see this
i want to thank them for everything
i want to study well so i can have a good job and give my parents and my future wife and children
a comfortable life, even if it means having 1 meal a day
that is if i dont do well in my studies...
i hope i can do you proud
Why Do I never seem to need to study or feel stressed or can still be so happy and hyper when the exams are just around the corner, Dont I Care?
to say the truth, I care,
i care a lot
but i just dont want to let others know that
i like having a shroud of mystery around me
i like people thinking that im happy, when im not
but ya, sometimes the emotions overwhelms you and you lose control for a while
but usually what you see of me isnt what is real
a mere shell
but sometimes you do see the real me
thats when you start hating me
because i myself hate me
so i need to put on a shell
so i can live through my school life in resonable shape
i dont like people to care about me
i find that it puts unneccesary stress on themselves and me
so i need to put on this mask
so people will think im happy and well
and doesnt have problems at all
thats the kind of person who doesnt need anyone to care for him
thats how i like my life to be
but regarding the exams part
i dont study much
even if i do i do it subconsciously
i do it during lessons and listen in class
rather then going home and trying to figure out everything by yourself and failing
except for a maths ive slept throughout the whole of term3 her lessons are just too boring
i dont like to study
i cant read a book without sleeping
much less read notes
i have no idea how im going to make it through my O Levels
so pray hard that i dont fall asleep in class
i detest people who study so much that other parts of life are neglected
even if it is during exam periods
i think of it as being controlled
i dont like being controlled
some people may think of it as focus or concentration
but i think its a waste of time
there's no point sacrifising health and sleep for books
sure it may be important but what about the other days
they are important too
the only reason why i care about my studies
are because of the ones who love me
my parents
they are the only reason i want to study
i dont want to be a burden
i dont want them to regret having me as their child
i dont want to make their sacrifises be wasted
i am probably going to study after looking at my parents
having to be able to take care of me and my brother
with love and joy
even though i know they wont see this
i want to thank them for everything
i want to study well so i can have a good job and give my parents and my future wife and children
a comfortable life, even if it means having 1 meal a day
that is if i dont do well in my studies...
i hope i can do you proud
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
the most specialest day of the year.......................turned out to be like any other day
the most specialest day of the year
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turned out to be like any other day
yesterdae
lessons lessons lessons until 1130
then see binghui chasing xiaomin
then decide to rot there
UNTIL 1 still gt geog lesson
his lesson ultra boring
summore he say eoy paper is 1 and half hr
OHNOES
anyway, my parents picked me up to go bathe and take my ic photo
i think i blinked...
then go food court eat as part of bdae celebration
then my mum ask me what i want for bdae
i just randomli say rollerblade
then she realli go buy
first time no need beg 1 leh
then after tt go royalsportinghse buy
my bro try out then in the end he aso dunno then fall on his butt
hahas
.... then nuthing liao lor
todae 69
wake up then first sms i receive
from linda happy bdae i nvr forget hor or sumthing liddat
thx
then on the computer
let my bro play a while then some back
from dawn happy bdae
thx
from xt
happy bdae
thx
then chatchatchat then i gt a new mei and her name is
(drum roll)daWn tAn YAY (clapclapclap)
then rot online
from mushroom
happy bdae
thx
from jelena
happy bdae
thx
from gangyi
happy bdae
thx
THEN suddenli i hear vibrate sound i tot is from the computer
realised is phone
then pickup is joanna and jess and still gt 1 person cannot hear carefulli?
happi bdae
thx
everything within tt para happened b4 12
todae 69 after 12
rot arnd the hse then go down test run the new rollerblades
who know how to brake can teach me
after tt then sit there thinking
NO ONE IS GOING TO JIO ME OUT CELEBRATE oh well
who can blame them
i aso seldom give bdae presents to other ppl aso
or celebrate with them
serves me rite, maybe sum1 up there dun like me for tt
then give me 'bao ying'
SO after all tt time wasting space to talk abt myself
i want to use this space below to write about steve irwin
this maybe a post for my bdae but i feel tt out of respect he deserves a little recognition
He was a rather impressive person
he gt popular without using gimmicks or songs or frauds
he gt popular bcuz he cared about preservation of wildlife
and he didnt stop there he still continued to spread the word on wildlife
he is a unique individual who rose to fame for a good cause nt like singers or actors
he rose to fame bcuz he cared about wildlife
nt by singing or acting on the silver screen
i may nt watch him much but i think he shld have lived longer
we need more people like him on earth
more people who use their influence for the good of the world
nt like paris hilton
or eminem
or jj
or milubing
or jim carrey
im nt dissing them or anything
im just saying that we shld spend less time and attention on them
and more time on the more important things like
wildlife or recycling
or whatever
this post was way too long
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turned out to be like any other day
yesterdae
lessons lessons lessons until 1130
then see binghui chasing xiaomin
then decide to rot there
UNTIL 1 still gt geog lesson
his lesson ultra boring
summore he say eoy paper is 1 and half hr
OHNOES
anyway, my parents picked me up to go bathe and take my ic photo
i think i blinked...
then go food court eat as part of bdae celebration
then my mum ask me what i want for bdae
i just randomli say rollerblade
then she realli go buy
first time no need beg 1 leh
then after tt go royalsportinghse buy
my bro try out then in the end he aso dunno then fall on his butt
hahas
.... then nuthing liao lor
todae 69
wake up then first sms i receive
from linda happy bdae i nvr forget hor or sumthing liddat
thx
then on the computer
let my bro play a while then some back
from dawn happy bdae
thx
from xt
happy bdae
thx
then chatchatchat then i gt a new mei and her name is
(drum roll)daWn tAn YAY (clapclapclap)
then rot online
from mushroom
happy bdae
thx
from jelena
happy bdae
thx
from gangyi
happy bdae
thx
THEN suddenli i hear vibrate sound i tot is from the computer
realised is phone
then pickup is joanna and jess and still gt 1 person cannot hear carefulli?
happi bdae
thx
everything within tt para happened b4 12
todae 69 after 12
rot arnd the hse then go down test run the new rollerblades
who know how to brake can teach me
after tt then sit there thinking
NO ONE IS GOING TO JIO ME OUT CELEBRATE oh well
who can blame them
i aso seldom give bdae presents to other ppl aso
or celebrate with them
serves me rite, maybe sum1 up there dun like me for tt
then give me 'bao ying'
SO after all tt time wasting space to talk abt myself
i want to use this space below to write about steve irwin
this maybe a post for my bdae but i feel tt out of respect he deserves a little recognition
He was a rather impressive person
he gt popular without using gimmicks or songs or frauds
he gt popular bcuz he cared about preservation of wildlife
and he didnt stop there he still continued to spread the word on wildlife
he is a unique individual who rose to fame for a good cause nt like singers or actors
he rose to fame bcuz he cared about wildlife
nt by singing or acting on the silver screen
i may nt watch him much but i think he shld have lived longer
we need more people like him on earth
more people who use their influence for the good of the world
nt like paris hilton
or eminem
or jj
or milubing
or jim carrey
im nt dissing them or anything
im just saying that we shld spend less time and attention on them
and more time on the more important things like
wildlife or recycling
or whatever
this post was way too long
Saturday, August 19, 2006
To compliment Yang's post
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ya so if you are reallly know me, you can see sometimes is real, sometimes is acting with a really good mask la, so LETS ALL BE CRAZY !!!! yay !!!
btw sry linda, this time really really my fault.
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haha i crazy le my thinking wont change de will alwaes be high happy hyper funny sarcastic lame idioticly funny
ya so if you are reallly know me, you can see sometimes is real, sometimes is acting with a really good mask la, so LETS ALL BE CRAZY !!!! yay !!!
btw sry linda, this time really really my fault.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
another reason to bang my head against the wall
...
...
...
we are no longer ncos anymore
..
we were not good enough
.
even the TOs said so
we have no initiative
no bonding
no telepathy
no respect for rank
no nco mindset
i am just 1 of them
i think im the one who pulled them down
i couldnt help them just because im tired
i always shout at people even though its not their fault
i bring peoples morale down
i make peoples worried about nothing ( me)
i waste other peoples time
i think they are better off without me
i just cant help them
i just cant make people listen
i just dont have the SHI LI
i just want to make them a higher profile squad even if
im not in it
i dont wan to be the best anymore
i just want everyone give their 75%
iz enough liao
maybe without me they can do better
i feel like biting myself
for letting them down
for not being SHI LI PAI
for simply being there when we are scolded
for not speaking up when i have ideas
for not making people listen when i shld make a decision
for not making decisions when i shld
im sorry
..............
every single decision i have made sucked until now
every decision others make rocks like hell
everything i do makes people piss off and scold me
everything others do gets them praise
but if they include me in what they do
the decision automatically sux
im sorry
i cant help yu guys
i cant do anything useful
i only make you all lose face
sry
BINGHUI NOW I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL...
...
...
we are no longer ncos anymore
..
we were not good enough
.
even the TOs said so
we have no initiative
no bonding
no telepathy
no respect for rank
no nco mindset
i am just 1 of them
i think im the one who pulled them down
i couldnt help them just because im tired
i always shout at people even though its not their fault
i bring peoples morale down
i make peoples worried about nothing ( me)
i waste other peoples time
i think they are better off without me
i just cant help them
i just cant make people listen
i just dont have the SHI LI
i just want to make them a higher profile squad even if
im not in it
i dont wan to be the best anymore
i just want everyone give their 75%
iz enough liao
maybe without me they can do better
i feel like biting myself
for letting them down
for not being SHI LI PAI
for simply being there when we are scolded
for not speaking up when i have ideas
for not making people listen when i shld make a decision
for not making decisions when i shld
im sorry
..............
every single decision i have made sucked until now
every decision others make rocks like hell
everything i do makes people piss off and scold me
everything others do gets them praise
but if they include me in what they do
the decision automatically sux
im sorry
i cant help yu guys
i cant do anything useful
i only make you all lose face
sry
BINGHUI NOW I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL...
Sunday, July 16, 2006
You aint never gonna keep me down...
Friday
went to the steamboat at marina. Edwin and priscilla planned 2 weeks beforehand then on that day realised dunno how to go. hahas. after training go mrt wiat for them from 7.30 to 8.30 then decided to go. hwen we at the busstop waiting for them, gt 1 auntie keep harassing us saying what 1person $12 all that crap, she keep annoying us until the bus come lor. when we reach kang yue take alot of eggs then crack into the soup until the colour like milk liddat. so very little people use the soup only use the foil for cooking meat. then later, ms nai and mrs goh come join us. mrs goh always behind other people's back talk about them like say teacher lousy all that. after the steamboat, all the boys go arcade except takkin who wait for his parents with yang. ben and me went to the busstop to go back the mrt station. we didnt the bus was 1 way so walk for three stations until the we wanted to take taxi, then lucky gt bus come. the side at night almost no light 1, not like hougang midnight still so bright. reach home 12.30 kanna scolding by my mum. hahas
saturday morning
games day at north vista again like last year. we reach there then realised that we need to bring the challenge trophy. hahas. i played for tug of war but i only played for 1 match. we lost the challenge trophy that day but i feel that everyone gave their all including the instructors who were always by the side encouraging us. although we lost, i feel that we shouldnt have kept on complaining about the game like unfairness or whatever, it only makes us more angry and disappointed, instead we should tell our team good job everyone, its healthier that way.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=P-bWsOK-h98 ronaldinho, footballing great
blame the coach for putting him in a bad position
went to the steamboat at marina. Edwin and priscilla planned 2 weeks beforehand then on that day realised dunno how to go. hahas. after training go mrt wiat for them from 7.30 to 8.30 then decided to go. hwen we at the busstop waiting for them, gt 1 auntie keep harassing us saying what 1person $12 all that crap, she keep annoying us until the bus come lor. when we reach kang yue take alot of eggs then crack into the soup until the colour like milk liddat. so very little people use the soup only use the foil for cooking meat. then later, ms nai and mrs goh come join us. mrs goh always behind other people's back talk about them like say teacher lousy all that. after the steamboat, all the boys go arcade except takkin who wait for his parents with yang. ben and me went to the busstop to go back the mrt station. we didnt the bus was 1 way so walk for three stations until the we wanted to take taxi, then lucky gt bus come. the side at night almost no light 1, not like hougang midnight still so bright. reach home 12.30 kanna scolding by my mum. hahas
saturday morning
games day at north vista again like last year. we reach there then realised that we need to bring the challenge trophy. hahas. i played for tug of war but i only played for 1 match. we lost the challenge trophy that day but i feel that everyone gave their all including the instructors who were always by the side encouraging us. although we lost, i feel that we shouldnt have kept on complaining about the game like unfairness or whatever, it only makes us more angry and disappointed, instead we should tell our team good job everyone, its healthier that way.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=P-bWsOK-h98 ronaldinho, footballing great
blame the coach for putting him in a bad position
Friday, June 30, 2006
U noe that feeling ...
U noe that feeling u get when u work very hard for a veryhat long time and end up you completely hate the results?
that feeling that makes you feel completely worthless because u think that nothing good happens after so long?
that feeling that makes you feel like kill yourself because you are making others who are better than you seem average?
that feeling that makes you feel completely worthless because u think that nothing good happens after so long?
that feeling that makes you feel like kill yourself because you are making others who are better than you seem average?
i realli feel very very hopeless rite now
i am the lowest profile in my squad
im like the" oh ya still gt glennard hor, dunno anyhow put him anywhere aso can la" that kind of guy.
here is my proof
(tears are flowing down onto my keyboard as i write them down...)
Third class
I last to take squad, every 1 tired, i shouted command worng for 3 times then they see me so pathetic then do la
score me 0-1
creative parade
first day never do much, second day help quite a lot becuz no time liao, but still get last
score me 0-2
MOI first try at campcraft
a lot of knots dunno, then dun dare to speak up, then maam come teach me and them, so pathetic
score 0-3
MOI first try at drills
although i tried my best, t=they say no style and i failed pathetically
score 0-4
MOI second try drills
I try to make my own style but still fail
score 0-5
words of commands
I cannot shout, cannot break up command, cannot have tone, cannot have the "zai" in my voice
score 0- 6
MOI after school
my style is encouraging words but becuz no one respond then i cant do much, summore i dun have standard in my drills, not even in the top five when they chose me in the drill team.
score 0-7
second class
do my best to shout, help jian yong yo the toilet and become very tired tts why i lousy in drills , but still fail
score 0-8
posting
no squad leader
score 0-10
no head of anything
score 0-11
no nothing useful
score 0-12
now there is exactly proof and reason why I am the lowest profile in the squad.
just the " still gt glennard leh, anyhow put la he aso cannot help much" type of guy
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
BREATHE IN, BREATHE OUT, I LOVE NPCC!!!
The NCO CAMP 06,
I have only one word to describe it , MARVELOUS
It was 1 of the very very few times that I volunteered myself because i wanted to, not like usually because nobody wants to do it.
It was also 1 of the even fewer times where I was praised for my efforts in npcc as an individual.
Some of the highlights of the camp was the creative parade. My Creative parade grp gt Me,linda,guanzhong,gangyi,jingyi,cheeseng,junliang,eugene,weiting, still gt 2 more i forget name, lols pai seh. Basically, Come up with a unique parade that can involve anything. Sounds simple? HELL NO. We had no help from any instructors and we had no idea to start with. So the first day, Chee Seng was still in Msia and we cant teach him yet. Gangyi and me tried a few different ideas but in the end all throw in the dustbin. why? we realised for the first time that taking a squad is truly truly not easy. The sec 2s cannot concentrate and there was quite a few communication probs. So we were the slowest on the first day as the others had already started practicing. The next day was slightly better.we had 1 session before campfire prep, so we used the time to fuse all our ideas together to create a slightly better 1. Gangyi had an injury and cannot participate in the parade, but he really contributed alot. We managed to do about half of our parade but not enough time. Later, after the campfire, the instructors decided to change our bunk inspection to the actual parade, but WE HAVENT FINISHED PLANING. Fortunately, there was about ten minutes to prepare, and we did. but during the parade we forgot most of it like dressing and stuff so it ended up lousier than expected. but even tho we didnt win, i found it meaningful as it gave us an insight on being a squad leader.
Another highlight was the PT session. We had to take the sec2s for pt session for the very very first time. our group of PTIs include gangyi,junyuan,jesslyn,joanna,jianyong and me. jian yong and jesslyn looked around for safety measures while the others gave instructions and demos. I felt that it was quite good as every1s morale was high and every PTI participated. But the instructors felt that it was too long and we were "too high". Nonetheless, i still feel that all the PTIs did a good job.
Last but not least is the campfire. Its the first campfire we ever organized. before the camp we prepared a lot of firewood which took a lot of time. the campfire prep had the songleaders teaching the juniors cheers,while the runners and firefeeders(me) carried logistic items around. Our ic was jesslyn and junyuan. They did a great job of organizing us while the MCs gangyi and joanna were also good at bringing up the morale.
In an NPCC camp, there is bound to be takken-ing(scold and punishment) session. our session took place in the morning as the instructors wanted us to have a feel of nco standard before starting.
The first night of the camp was the bunk inspection. They were not happy with our bunks and wanted us to bring all of our stuff down to the parade square form our bunk which is at the third floor. Many of us, including the sec 2s dropped our stuff along the way. At the parade square, we were in pumping position as the instructors scolded us. Even our flag was rolled up as we were not able to portray what we wrote in our flag, SPEED SAFETY SERIOUS=STANDARD. Later, we went to wall for our half squat, we had to lean on some of squadmates for support. We were in that position for about 3-5 minutes. Our instructors were motivating us throughout even thought they were punishing us. They even took a photo of us in that position as a momento. It was really very touching, a few of us cried.
the second session was during the morning arnd 5 am. We were called down for a fire drill. every1 was late. jian yong woke me up and i couldnt even stand. my right knee was completely numb and i tried to stand three times but all land on my butt. lucky jian yong still nearby to pull me up. we gathered at parade square. 1 of the sec 2s was missing and the sec 2s were being scolded for not taking care of him. We had to help them search the entire school for him. I didnt bring my specs along so jian yong help me around. WE searched for a lot of time until the CIs decided to ask us return to bunk. After which we gathered for another fire drill. this time the CIs brought the missing person, joshua from the command post. He scolded the sec 2s as well as asked for reasons of the activity but they couldnt answer, so they pumped,recover,pumped,recover until they anyhow guess the answer. it was a good lesson for the sec 2s.
At the end of the camp, the instructors gave individual comments on us. I will wrote them here so i wont forget when i be an nco ( this is not to hao lian seriously)
You have done well in PT and MOI(method of instruction) but you should increase your profile in the squad.
I have really seen you grow up during this 3 days, you have don quite well in PT and MOI but brush up on your drills.
You are a firefeeder, you shouldnt forget your post and leave when you are needed.
You need to brush up your drills, but you have done quite well for your MOI and PT, good job.
good luck in your nco life and work hard for your post.
This NCO camp was amazing
I really want to thank all the instructors especially
SI Tan Jia Hao
ACI Lee Hui Ying
WCI Jocelyn Neo
CI Joey Pear
They really motivated our squad and me to push ourselves even further
I also want to thank my squad, Sec 3s 06 for helping me and each other throughout the camp
Joanna
Junyuan
Jesslyn
Jingyi
Gangyi
Jianyong
Chengboon
Anastasia
Linda
Guanzhong
Weichean
Joshua
Glennard
The sec 2s also helped out alot during the camp, thanks
As well as the sec 1s during campfire
THANK YOU FOR ALL THE MEMORIES
I have only one word to describe it , MARVELOUS
It was 1 of the very very few times that I volunteered myself because i wanted to, not like usually because nobody wants to do it.
It was also 1 of the even fewer times where I was praised for my efforts in npcc as an individual.
Some of the highlights of the camp was the creative parade. My Creative parade grp gt Me,linda,guanzhong,gangyi,jingyi,cheeseng,junliang,eugene,weiting, still gt 2 more i forget name, lols pai seh. Basically, Come up with a unique parade that can involve anything. Sounds simple? HELL NO. We had no help from any instructors and we had no idea to start with. So the first day, Chee Seng was still in Msia and we cant teach him yet. Gangyi and me tried a few different ideas but in the end all throw in the dustbin. why? we realised for the first time that taking a squad is truly truly not easy. The sec 2s cannot concentrate and there was quite a few communication probs. So we were the slowest on the first day as the others had already started practicing. The next day was slightly better.we had 1 session before campfire prep, so we used the time to fuse all our ideas together to create a slightly better 1. Gangyi had an injury and cannot participate in the parade, but he really contributed alot. We managed to do about half of our parade but not enough time. Later, after the campfire, the instructors decided to change our bunk inspection to the actual parade, but WE HAVENT FINISHED PLANING. Fortunately, there was about ten minutes to prepare, and we did. but during the parade we forgot most of it like dressing and stuff so it ended up lousier than expected. but even tho we didnt win, i found it meaningful as it gave us an insight on being a squad leader.
Another highlight was the PT session. We had to take the sec2s for pt session for the very very first time. our group of PTIs include gangyi,junyuan,jesslyn,joanna,jianyong and me. jian yong and jesslyn looked around for safety measures while the others gave instructions and demos. I felt that it was quite good as every1s morale was high and every PTI participated. But the instructors felt that it was too long and we were "too high". Nonetheless, i still feel that all the PTIs did a good job.
Last but not least is the campfire. Its the first campfire we ever organized. before the camp we prepared a lot of firewood which took a lot of time. the campfire prep had the songleaders teaching the juniors cheers,while the runners and firefeeders(me) carried logistic items around. Our ic was jesslyn and junyuan. They did a great job of organizing us while the MCs gangyi and joanna were also good at bringing up the morale.
In an NPCC camp, there is bound to be takken-ing(scold and punishment) session. our session took place in the morning as the instructors wanted us to have a feel of nco standard before starting.
The first night of the camp was the bunk inspection. They were not happy with our bunks and wanted us to bring all of our stuff down to the parade square form our bunk which is at the third floor. Many of us, including the sec 2s dropped our stuff along the way. At the parade square, we were in pumping position as the instructors scolded us. Even our flag was rolled up as we were not able to portray what we wrote in our flag, SPEED SAFETY SERIOUS=STANDARD. Later, we went to wall for our half squat, we had to lean on some of squadmates for support. We were in that position for about 3-5 minutes. Our instructors were motivating us throughout even thought they were punishing us. They even took a photo of us in that position as a momento. It was really very touching, a few of us cried.
the second session was during the morning arnd 5 am. We were called down for a fire drill. every1 was late. jian yong woke me up and i couldnt even stand. my right knee was completely numb and i tried to stand three times but all land on my butt. lucky jian yong still nearby to pull me up. we gathered at parade square. 1 of the sec 2s was missing and the sec 2s were being scolded for not taking care of him. We had to help them search the entire school for him. I didnt bring my specs along so jian yong help me around. WE searched for a lot of time until the CIs decided to ask us return to bunk. After which we gathered for another fire drill. this time the CIs brought the missing person, joshua from the command post. He scolded the sec 2s as well as asked for reasons of the activity but they couldnt answer, so they pumped,recover,pumped,recover until they anyhow guess the answer. it was a good lesson for the sec 2s.
At the end of the camp, the instructors gave individual comments on us. I will wrote them here so i wont forget when i be an nco ( this is not to hao lian seriously)
You have done well in PT and MOI(method of instruction) but you should increase your profile in the squad.
I have really seen you grow up during this 3 days, you have don quite well in PT and MOI but brush up on your drills.
You are a firefeeder, you shouldnt forget your post and leave when you are needed.
You need to brush up your drills, but you have done quite well for your MOI and PT, good job.
good luck in your nco life and work hard for your post.
This NCO camp was amazing
I really want to thank all the instructors especially
SI Tan Jia Hao
ACI Lee Hui Ying
WCI Jocelyn Neo
CI Joey Pear
They really motivated our squad and me to push ourselves even further
I also want to thank my squad, Sec 3s 06 for helping me and each other throughout the camp
Joanna
Junyuan
Jesslyn
Jingyi
Gangyi
Jianyong
Chengboon
Anastasia
Linda
Guanzhong
Weichean
Joshua
Glennard
The sec 2s also helped out alot during the camp, thanks
As well as the sec 1s during campfire
THANK YOU FOR ALL THE MEMORIES
Sunday, June 04, 2006
ATC + Mr Yeo = HUAT AH!!!!
Train TO Be A Leader
This is basically what the whole camp is about
something like a pre-nco camp without drills
trained to be a leader
to fight for our land
once for our lives
four years of our time
have you ever wonder why must we serve
cuz we love our unit
and want it to be first, to be first
looking all around us
people everywhere
children having fun
but we are holding gun
have you ever wonder why must we serve
cuz we love our unit
and want it to be first, to be first
The water at there s swimming pool water, suckz like hell hi spirit still nicer. The Atc very fast finish, Expected it to be longer.
This time i onli kanna 4 bites HAHAS
sianz, still need to prepare for nco camp and the graffiti
This is basically what the whole camp is about
something like a pre-nco camp without drills
trained to be a leader
to fight for our land
once for our lives
four years of our time
have you ever wonder why must we serve
cuz we love our unit
and want it to be first, to be first
looking all around us
people everywhere
children having fun
but we are holding gun
have you ever wonder why must we serve
cuz we love our unit
and want it to be first, to be first
The water at there s swimming pool water, suckz like hell hi spirit still nicer. The Atc very fast finish, Expected it to be longer.
This time i onli kanna 4 bites HAHAS
sianz, still need to prepare for nco camp and the graffiti
Monday, May 22, 2006
The end has a new meaning in my heart
Good News before the bad, the exams are OVER (ok they were over a long time ago)
BAd News, NPCC has just unleashed 3 activities in a row, BLESSING parade, ATC camp and NCO camp
firstly, the blessing is extremely significant cuz the principal likes it, or else no one wld have remembered it. She is trying to sell it to the catholics by making it sound good. i mean who cares, why should sumone care when u just feel like lazing at home rite?? For the first time, Im part of the GUARD OF HONOR, but before u celebrate, i DONT know how to do rifle drills as well as the sec 2s.
I wanna cry
the ATC camp is going to hurt me as we are going to UBIN AGAIN, YAYAY !!!! there is going to be a wet activity this time and i dont feel like bringin anything wet back home. worse still, we cant bring any home clothes there, onli np or skool shirts. its still quite okay compared to the nco camp
I wanna run away
Now, the NCO camp is going to be the highlight of this year, cuz we get to run a campfire for the first time. but i scared we not up to standard. the whole nco camp will decide what post we get. that alone leads to many questions. What if i dont get the post i want?What if Im not up to standard? What if The understudy NCOs are better then me? I WILL push myself this time, i realli hope i can do it. Joey told us today that our squad has been weak from sec1 to now. its true but its very demoralising to hear from an officer. He told us that there will be CONFIRMED understudys. that means we were not good enough to run the unit by ourselves that we need help from others. I realli wanna prove myself during the camp, i dont wanna let my seniors down. I dont wanna let me instructors down. I dont wanna let myself down (i am so selfish) but i realli hope to prove sumthing during this camp. maybe im just not cut out to be a squad leader. I realli wanna cry if i dont get the post i want. what will happen after that? i dont know. I hope i can be more iniative for my np life from now on.
I wanna hide from all my troubles and wait till they go away
Help me......
BAd News, NPCC has just unleashed 3 activities in a row, BLESSING parade, ATC camp and NCO camp
firstly, the blessing is extremely significant cuz the principal likes it, or else no one wld have remembered it. She is trying to sell it to the catholics by making it sound good. i mean who cares, why should sumone care when u just feel like lazing at home rite?? For the first time, Im part of the GUARD OF HONOR, but before u celebrate, i DONT know how to do rifle drills as well as the sec 2s.
I wanna cry
the ATC camp is going to hurt me as we are going to UBIN AGAIN, YAYAY !!!! there is going to be a wet activity this time and i dont feel like bringin anything wet back home. worse still, we cant bring any home clothes there, onli np or skool shirts. its still quite okay compared to the nco camp
I wanna run away
Now, the NCO camp is going to be the highlight of this year, cuz we get to run a campfire for the first time. but i scared we not up to standard. the whole nco camp will decide what post we get. that alone leads to many questions. What if i dont get the post i want?What if Im not up to standard? What if The understudy NCOs are better then me? I WILL push myself this time, i realli hope i can do it. Joey told us today that our squad has been weak from sec1 to now. its true but its very demoralising to hear from an officer. He told us that there will be CONFIRMED understudys. that means we were not good enough to run the unit by ourselves that we need help from others. I realli wanna prove myself during the camp, i dont wanna let my seniors down. I dont wanna let me instructors down. I dont wanna let myself down (i am so selfish) but i realli hope to prove sumthing during this camp. maybe im just not cut out to be a squad leader. I realli wanna cry if i dont get the post i want. what will happen after that? i dont know. I hope i can be more iniative for my np life from now on.
I wanna hide from all my troubles and wait till they go away
Help me......
Saturday, May 06, 2006
PILLS, the world could definitely use less of them
I hate pills.
They make children cry because of their bad taste
They make old people sick because of bad contents
They make aunties buy them because they are kiasu about health
They make men hate it because aunties make them eat it. See Above
They make ME hate it because of ALL the reasons above, except the auntie one.
In short, They just plain sucks.
oh ya, before i forget I HATE PILLS
You may be wondering why i wrote this. I have to take pills everyday, my mum forces me to take it because she says its healthy. The human body is capable of protecting and keeping itself healthy and working, so why do we need "health supplements" when its not necessary.
As I stared at the pills last night, I started wondering, What if they could create a DESTRESS pill? You take one and you are destressed. I dunno what your reaction would be, but i would most probably avoid it, possibly coz i dun develop stress like the rest of my 3 HUM classmates, thus im the 3humblacksheep. But still, sumthing that good will definitely have side effects and desperate people will deifinitely, i repeat DEFINITELY overdose and end up kicking the bucket.
So if it truly happens, there will be a huge craze over it, like the ones about slimming pills among three people, students, teachers and possibli workers. The teachers can abuse it during exam period like putting stress on the students and selling them at half price(just a thought).
But honestly, would studying really push you to such a desperate time that you will do things like pills?
Perhaps...
doing photoshop manipulation, failing horribly. O2 jam is fun. I haven study for geog [Insert random thought here]
They make children cry because of their bad taste
They make old people sick because of bad contents
They make aunties buy them because they are kiasu about health
They make men hate it because aunties make them eat it. See Above
They make ME hate it because of ALL the reasons above, except the auntie one.
In short, They just plain sucks.
oh ya, before i forget I HATE PILLS
You may be wondering why i wrote this. I have to take pills everyday, my mum forces me to take it because she says its healthy. The human body is capable of protecting and keeping itself healthy and working, so why do we need "health supplements" when its not necessary.
As I stared at the pills last night, I started wondering, What if they could create a DESTRESS pill? You take one and you are destressed. I dunno what your reaction would be, but i would most probably avoid it, possibly coz i dun develop stress like the rest of my 3 HUM classmates, thus im the 3humblacksheep. But still, sumthing that good will definitely have side effects and desperate people will deifinitely, i repeat DEFINITELY overdose and end up kicking the bucket.
So if it truly happens, there will be a huge craze over it, like the ones about slimming pills among three people, students, teachers and possibli workers. The teachers can abuse it during exam period like putting stress on the students and selling them at half price(just a thought).
But honestly, would studying really push you to such a desperate time that you will do things like pills?
Perhaps...
doing photoshop manipulation, failing horribly. O2 jam is fun. I haven study for geog [Insert random thought here]
Thursday, April 27, 2006
I LOVE BALL GAMES (no seriousli)
im going crazy
after skool bh suddenli rush up and sae gt wad gathering then ask us go canteen find janice. then reach there nobody, so yang go call then they say at hg mall macdonald. so we go there then she and sotong and jelena(feel tempted to write jel) sit at 1 corner, not enuff space for us. so we sit another corner, then bh alwaes use the" If u are part of 2 cha then u go wif us la" then in the end still boyz one side, girlz one side, dam @#@$#%@6# leh. so we ate stuff wif adrian $$ and edwin joined us later. didi fighting wif edwin den suddenli punch his bag and crush his calculator, dam nice leh.
then we ( the 2CHA rockers minus fangyuan and ben ) go back to skool to play some ball, we playing at the corridor cuz the class lined up for exam liao. den we playplayplay until tired then go in 3unity . den we tok, den suddenli yang say SONGBO, i turn around see guei big body wif a camera. he call us take picture wif the ball. dam stupid, den adrain still face the stupid camera wif "that" face. after that we go down to the office and he scoldscoldscold until he ask us wad punishment to get. we sae detention, originalli we wanted 1 week, but then he say three hrs b4 we replied. then edwin still ask can after exam anot. WTH mr guei nearli wanted to scold us for bargaining ,lucki mrs wong come out at that time then "tok" to us. then suddenli after that he sae punishment change to CWO but 1 hr onli. wah lao, i wanted detention lor. nevermind.
ON a side note,
i hate the stereotype that all humility ppl are smart and cannot fail. wah lao, it sux lor. then if we dunno sumthing, i get suaned. iz realli very unfair lor, cuz IM NOT THE TYPE VERY NERDY 1 ! but almost everyone else is in humility. summore they alwaes go home on the dot after lesson, never play sports r anithing besides wayne la. alwaes go home revise like theres no tomorrow. I WANT TO CHANGE CLASS.
after skool bh suddenli rush up and sae gt wad gathering then ask us go canteen find janice. then reach there nobody, so yang go call then they say at hg mall macdonald. so we go there then she and sotong and jelena(feel tempted to write jel) sit at 1 corner, not enuff space for us. so we sit another corner, then bh alwaes use the" If u are part of 2 cha then u go wif us la" then in the end still boyz one side, girlz one side, dam @#@$#%@6# leh. so we ate stuff wif adrian $$ and edwin joined us later. didi fighting wif edwin den suddenli punch his bag and crush his calculator, dam nice leh.
then we ( the 2CHA rockers minus fangyuan and ben ) go back to skool to play some ball, we playing at the corridor cuz the class lined up for exam liao. den we playplayplay until tired then go in 3unity . den we tok, den suddenli yang say SONGBO, i turn around see guei big body wif a camera. he call us take picture wif the ball. dam stupid, den adrain still face the stupid camera wif "that" face. after that we go down to the office and he scoldscoldscold until he ask us wad punishment to get. we sae detention, originalli we wanted 1 week, but then he say three hrs b4 we replied. then edwin still ask can after exam anot. WTH mr guei nearli wanted to scold us for bargaining ,lucki mrs wong come out at that time then "tok" to us. then suddenli after that he sae punishment change to CWO but 1 hr onli. wah lao, i wanted detention lor. nevermind.
ON a side note,
i hate the stereotype that all humility ppl are smart and cannot fail. wah lao, it sux lor. then if we dunno sumthing, i get suaned. iz realli very unfair lor, cuz IM NOT THE TYPE VERY NERDY 1 ! but almost everyone else is in humility. summore they alwaes go home on the dot after lesson, never play sports r anithing besides wayne la. alwaes go home revise like theres no tomorrow. I WANT TO CHANGE CLASS.
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
The worst has yet to come...
I HAVENT STARTED STUDYING!!! YEAH!!! and to those who havent started as well , i urge you to start for i do not want to see anyone retain , except maybe me.
I will say a few words on behalf of the part of my brain which is capable of thought before it dies later on...
English : It would be much easier if it wasnt tested, HECK everything is.
but still, its much easier when Mrs. Hendra was marking my paper
Chinese : YAY no more studying. But now the lessons are real pointless
E Maths : My teacher can revise one topic in 15 minutes while I see other classes fainting in front of their txtbks. Okay so im exagerating
A Maths :
WHY do they include this subject in our syllabus
WHY cant i understand quadratic function
WHY dont i feel that A maths is easier than E maths
WHY cant i understand indices and surds
WHY isnt she responsible for my failure
WHY do they have to bundle our exam paper and show to our parents
WHY cant i understand everything else except matrix
Pretty much
Pure Biology : Our teach hates our class, till now i still dunno why. Why bio need so much memory work. pretty much everything is memory work which i am suckish at. And then theres practical. When the o lvls are over, im gonna tear or burn or sadistically get rid of the txtbk
Pure Chemistry : The teach should work at a polytechnic, but she doesnt the salary thats why shes stuck in our school. The subject is "grasp"able but need a lot of explaination which im also suckish at.
Pure Physics : Possibly my favourite subject if not for english or something else. This subject is rather easy to grasp has only a few formulas to memorixe compared to bio and chem. BUT there are hundreds of ways they can ask you the same question and there are many factors to include in your working.
Social Studies : Basically a very simple way to revise it
1) memorize everything from chpt 1 to 3 (a lot more than u think)
2) Study the different ways to write it
3) Write everything you remember into that format
so its simply memory (which i sick at) and reformatting
Geography Elective: I like this subject becoz...
1) No need for reformatting
2) Just dump it all on foolscap
3) There is sometimes a graph or chart to help you
4) ITS ONLY 45 MINS COMPARED TO HISTORY 1 HR 45 MINS
On a side note, I liek basketball( jus kiddin)
i just donned a new hairstyle some say is cool, some dont seem to notice it whatever
People around school seem to have pimples popping all over due to stress and whatnot
I will say a few words on behalf of the part of my brain which is capable of thought before it dies later on...
English : It would be much easier if it wasnt tested, HECK everything is.
but still, its much easier when Mrs. Hendra was marking my paper
Chinese : YAY no more studying. But now the lessons are real pointless
E Maths : My teacher can revise one topic in 15 minutes while I see other classes fainting in front of their txtbks. Okay so im exagerating
A Maths :
WHY do they include this subject in our syllabus
WHY cant i understand quadratic function
WHY dont i feel that A maths is easier than E maths
WHY cant i understand indices and surds
WHY isnt she responsible for my failure
WHY do they have to bundle our exam paper and show to our parents
WHY cant i understand everything else except matrix
Pretty much
Pure Biology : Our teach hates our class, till now i still dunno why. Why bio need so much memory work. pretty much everything is memory work which i am suckish at. And then theres practical. When the o lvls are over, im gonna tear or burn or sadistically get rid of the txtbk
Pure Chemistry : The teach should work at a polytechnic, but she doesnt the salary thats why shes stuck in our school. The subject is "grasp"able but need a lot of explaination which im also suckish at.
Pure Physics : Possibly my favourite subject if not for english or something else. This subject is rather easy to grasp has only a few formulas to memorixe compared to bio and chem. BUT there are hundreds of ways they can ask you the same question and there are many factors to include in your working.
Social Studies : Basically a very simple way to revise it
1) memorize everything from chpt 1 to 3 (a lot more than u think)
2) Study the different ways to write it
3) Write everything you remember into that format
so its simply memory (which i sick at) and reformatting
Geography Elective: I like this subject becoz...
1) No need for reformatting
2) Just dump it all on foolscap
3) There is sometimes a graph or chart to help you
4) ITS ONLY 45 MINS COMPARED TO HISTORY 1 HR 45 MINS
On a side note, I liek basketball( jus kiddin)
i just donned a new hairstyle some say is cool, some dont seem to notice it whatever
People around school seem to have pimples popping all over due to stress and whatnot
Monday, April 10, 2006
I need a sanctuary...
I hate mood swings
seriously...
woke up today feeling quite okay except for a little fatigue, must be getting old. Anyway, i was quite okay until i reached school. I started feeling very depressed and my heart was heavy, i couldnt explain it. It just happened. it lasted thruout the whole day during lesson time. The whole day was just very tiring, but i didnt feel compelled to sleep, i just felt that my heart was heavy, literally.
Lessons finalli over at 2.30. met up with adrian them. we were talking in canteen the whole time until fy joined us at about 4+. I was laughing at their jokes so hard i coughed all the way home. It was very wierd and i couldnt realli have a productive thought in my head.
Then as i was going home, i saw my bus pass me at the traffic light. so i decided to walk to the other stop quite far away, then a another 62 came as i just passed the road and there was no way i could run back. Unlucky right, the one time i decided to walk, they give me a reason i shouldnt. whats was even wierder was that i didnt feel angry or pissed off or anything, it just like faded away
I realli starting to lose control of mi mind and body.
dunno when it will end, hopefully soon....
im just so tired...
someone help me...
seriously...
woke up today feeling quite okay except for a little fatigue, must be getting old. Anyway, i was quite okay until i reached school. I started feeling very depressed and my heart was heavy, i couldnt explain it. It just happened. it lasted thruout the whole day during lesson time. The whole day was just very tiring, but i didnt feel compelled to sleep, i just felt that my heart was heavy, literally.
Lessons finalli over at 2.30. met up with adrian them. we were talking in canteen the whole time until fy joined us at about 4+. I was laughing at their jokes so hard i coughed all the way home. It was very wierd and i couldnt realli have a productive thought in my head.
Then as i was going home, i saw my bus pass me at the traffic light. so i decided to walk to the other stop quite far away, then a another 62 came as i just passed the road and there was no way i could run back. Unlucky right, the one time i decided to walk, they give me a reason i shouldnt. whats was even wierder was that i didnt feel angry or pissed off or anything, it just like faded away
I realli starting to lose control of mi mind and body.
dunno when it will end, hopefully soon....
im just so tired...
someone help me...
Sunday, April 09, 2006
First law of holes: When in a hole, stop digging
A scattered dream is like a far off memory,
a far off memory thats like a scattered dream.
i wanna line the pieces up
yours and mine
This song is very meaningful, at least to me
Sanctuary (Utada Hikaru)
In you and I there's a new land,
Angels in flight
A sanctuary, my sanctuary, yeah
Where fears and lies melt away
Music will tie
What's left of me
What's left of me now
I watch you fast asleep,
All I fear means nothing
In you and I there's a new land,
Angels in flight
A sanctuary, my sanctuary, yeah
Where fears and lies melt away
Music will tie
What's left of me
What's left of me
My heart's a battleground
You show me how to see,
That nothing is whole and nothing is broken,
In you and I there's a new land
Angels in flight
A sanctuary, my sanctuary, yeah
Where fears and lies melt away
Music will tie
What's left of me
What's left of me now
My fears, my lies
Melt away...
If i ever get the mp3, maybe just maybe i will change the tune
Been having a lot of thoughts lately, never got around to blog about them, maybe later
maybe...
the video is extremely amazing
In contrast to the rather sad or low tone of whatever written above, if you have taken the time to read, some observations on life....
Enjoy
We tend to overestimate the effect of a technology in the short run and underestimate the effect in the long run
When a distinguished but elderly scientist states that something is possible, he is almost certainly right. When he states that something is impossible, he is very probably wrong.
The only way of discovering the limits of the possible is to venture a little way past them into the impossible.
Any sufficiently advanced technology is indistinguishable from magic.
As an online discussion grows longer, the probability of a comparison involving Nazis or Hitler approaches one
Work expands so as to fill the time available for its completion
The best way to describe work, SSDD, Same Shit, Different Day
When you let things go by their own, they usually go from bad to worse
Any new solution brings by itself new problems.
It's useless to make something foolproof, fools are very smart.
Never assume malice when stupidity will suffice
This post was longer than i expected
I onli realised how tired i truly am, and this is 3 weeks before my exams, great
maybe theres a way....
maybe.....
a far off memory thats like a scattered dream.
i wanna line the pieces up
yours and mine
This song is very meaningful, at least to me
Sanctuary (Utada Hikaru)
In you and I there's a new land,
Angels in flight
A sanctuary, my sanctuary, yeah
Where fears and lies melt away
Music will tie
What's left of me
What's left of me now
I watch you fast asleep,
All I fear means nothing
In you and I there's a new land,
Angels in flight
A sanctuary, my sanctuary, yeah
Where fears and lies melt away
Music will tie
What's left of me
What's left of me
My heart's a battleground
You show me how to see,
That nothing is whole and nothing is broken,
In you and I there's a new land
Angels in flight
A sanctuary, my sanctuary, yeah
Where fears and lies melt away
Music will tie
What's left of me
What's left of me now
My fears, my lies
Melt away...
If i ever get the mp3, maybe just maybe i will change the tune
Been having a lot of thoughts lately, never got around to blog about them, maybe later
maybe...
the video is extremely amazing
In contrast to the rather sad or low tone of whatever written above, if you have taken the time to read, some observations on life....
Enjoy
We tend to overestimate the effect of a technology in the short run and underestimate the effect in the long run
When a distinguished but elderly scientist states that something is possible, he is almost certainly right. When he states that something is impossible, he is very probably wrong.
The only way of discovering the limits of the possible is to venture a little way past them into the impossible.
Any sufficiently advanced technology is indistinguishable from magic.
As an online discussion grows longer, the probability of a comparison involving Nazis or Hitler approaches one
Work expands so as to fill the time available for its completion
The best way to describe work, SSDD, Same Shit, Different Day
When you let things go by their own, they usually go from bad to worse
Any new solution brings by itself new problems.
It's useless to make something foolproof, fools are very smart.
Never assume malice when stupidity will suffice
This post was longer than i expected
I onli realised how tired i truly am, and this is 3 weeks before my exams, great
maybe theres a way....
maybe.....
Friday, March 17, 2006
The Big Fat Liar
Let me tell you a tale,
Once upon a time, a little boy loves to lie. He would lie all day long to avoid getting into trouble. He was a very good liar and only few can tell if he is lieing or not. However, he did not feel good when he lies. He would always feel very guilty about lieing but he would never admit or stop lieing.
One night, as he saw a shooting star speed across the skies, he made a wish, to stop feeling guilt after lieing. A great and beautiful fairy descended from the star after hearing his call, he said to him, " If I take away your guilt, I would have to give you another ......" The boy immediately replied, " Anything but this " So the fairy agreed.
The next day, the boy woke up happily as he remembered the incident last night. He tried it out by telling his mother that he was feeling very ill today and could not go school. True enough, he did not feel guilt at all. So he stayed at home the whole day and played and had a lot of fun. His mother did not know that he was lieing. The next day, he woke up a little taller than yesterday, but he did not notice. He went to school and told all his friends that his father won the lottery and invited them over for a party. As soon as he said that, he grew an inch taller and 1 pound heavier. All his friend came over while his parents were out and partied the whole day. During the evening, his parents returned home and wanted to know why it was so noisy. The little boy lied to cover up for his first lie. Later, he had to lie to his friends to make them leave. He lied to his parents the whole night to make sure they did not know what happened. He could not stop lieing. The lie just got bigger and bigger.
The next morning, he woke up to find that his bed was only size of his head. He tried to walk but everytime his feet touched the ground, it would tremble. His mother heard the noises and went to his room, onli to find a 1500 pounds giant. His mother screamed and fainted from the sight. His father came in and saw te great monstrocity that was his son. But, he could not see his son's face as it's cheek was too large and covered a large portion of his face. His voice also changed due the large weight of his new head. He could not tell his father that he was his son. So he ran. His father called the local authorities about him. the little boy ran and ran. He did not know where he was going but he still ran. Soon police cars and helicopters were chasing him. The boy kept running and running till he reached the forest. The police decided to stop chasing him and wait till he came out......
This story is partly written by me, parts of it are from references in the net and Television
I have not written the end of this story as i feel that there is no fitting end form the little boy. I feel that as i wrote the story, i reflected and found most of it familiar as i was the little boy. I LIE very OFTEN. I sometimes cannot control myself. I am rather capable of lieing and i can make people believe me. But, I will always feel very guilty about it. Although the guilt has driven me to near depression, I still cant kick the habit.
Maybe I need help...... I realli need help
This post was written when the author was feeling guilty after a big mistake/lie
Once upon a time, a little boy loves to lie. He would lie all day long to avoid getting into trouble. He was a very good liar and only few can tell if he is lieing or not. However, he did not feel good when he lies. He would always feel very guilty about lieing but he would never admit or stop lieing.
One night, as he saw a shooting star speed across the skies, he made a wish, to stop feeling guilt after lieing. A great and beautiful fairy descended from the star after hearing his call, he said to him, " If I take away your guilt, I would have to give you another ......" The boy immediately replied, " Anything but this " So the fairy agreed.
The next day, the boy woke up happily as he remembered the incident last night. He tried it out by telling his mother that he was feeling very ill today and could not go school. True enough, he did not feel guilt at all. So he stayed at home the whole day and played and had a lot of fun. His mother did not know that he was lieing. The next day, he woke up a little taller than yesterday, but he did not notice. He went to school and told all his friends that his father won the lottery and invited them over for a party. As soon as he said that, he grew an inch taller and 1 pound heavier. All his friend came over while his parents were out and partied the whole day. During the evening, his parents returned home and wanted to know why it was so noisy. The little boy lied to cover up for his first lie. Later, he had to lie to his friends to make them leave. He lied to his parents the whole night to make sure they did not know what happened. He could not stop lieing. The lie just got bigger and bigger.
The next morning, he woke up to find that his bed was only size of his head. He tried to walk but everytime his feet touched the ground, it would tremble. His mother heard the noises and went to his room, onli to find a 1500 pounds giant. His mother screamed and fainted from the sight. His father came in and saw te great monstrocity that was his son. But, he could not see his son's face as it's cheek was too large and covered a large portion of his face. His voice also changed due the large weight of his new head. He could not tell his father that he was his son. So he ran. His father called the local authorities about him. the little boy ran and ran. He did not know where he was going but he still ran. Soon police cars and helicopters were chasing him. The boy kept running and running till he reached the forest. The police decided to stop chasing him and wait till he came out......
This story is partly written by me, parts of it are from references in the net and Television
I have not written the end of this story as i feel that there is no fitting end form the little boy. I feel that as i wrote the story, i reflected and found most of it familiar as i was the little boy. I LIE very OFTEN. I sometimes cannot control myself. I am rather capable of lieing and i can make people believe me. But, I will always feel very guilty about it. Although the guilt has driven me to near depression, I still cant kick the habit.
Maybe I need help...... I realli need help
This post was written when the author was feeling guilty after a big mistake/lie
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
知己知彼, 百戰百勝 (If you know your enemies as you know yourself, Victory will be yours)
How often does a teacher come across something that a student does outside school and actually praises it. I would say close to never. But it happened to me in my 9th year of school. Gotta stop before i get too bhb.
A wise person once told me that she wanted to be a secondary teacher, even though she knew it was going to be hard work. She said that she wanted to do something to understand people in their period of growth, both physical and mental. She wanted to help teenagers to learn and help themselves. Try and guess who she is.
I know of teachers who can connect to their pupils, not just because they are young and know what students do at home. They are generally more accepted as they actually make an effort to care about students, and they respect us at individuals. Thus when we feel that, we in turn care and respect them as a form of appreciation.These are the types of teachers we come back to visit when we graduate. A very good example would be Miss Jacqueline Nai( dunno if i spelt it right). She really helped us through our lower secondary life.Thanks!!
Then when there is a good side of things, there will definitely be the dark side. Teachers who have a philosophy of " My job is a teacher, I get students to pass their O levels and nothing else." These types of teachers are usually less significant, mainly because we 'switch off' during their lessons or seriously dislike them due to harsh punishment or useless lectures which can help us. They should not be mistaken with teachers like Mr Jamil, who is a really nice guy. This type of teacher do not care about their students, even if its their form class, they just take care of the admin stuff, make sure the class is alive and running. They also take credit if the students get good grades, which they do not deserve since its the pupils hard work and not the teachers. I shall call them the objective teacher
Teachers like that should really get another job. Students in primary or scondary school are growing up and the people around them are going to be the ones that mold them in to what they will be. The objective teachers simply act as a form of communication like a postman. Then why does the government pay them so much more than a postman. The government pays the teachers a lot because the children are the future of the country, the teachers are responsible for its well-being and growth, apart from friends and parents. However, the government is paying that much because it truly takes a lot have effort and talent to be a teacher. He needs to think like an adult, a friend, as well as a social worker at the same time. Only so, will the children be able to learn and grow. but the objective teachers only focus on the academic aspect of their job and thus is "cheating" the government and parents of their time and money. I can honestly say that at least 30% of the teachers in Singapore are objective teachers. There are many people around us that should become teachers, but they lack the knowledge and drive to be one, thus they would rather have another job.
Children and teens need someone to help them grow. Their friends can influence them a lot but they also sometimes do not know the light from the dark. The parents know whats right and wrong, but their efforts are ignored more often than not. A caring teacher is the balance between the two and they have more influence on the kids if the children trust them. These are the people we should really celebrate, not some guy who sings about change and doesnt do anything.
Teenagers between ages 13-18 are very vulnerable as they are given a
lot more freedom and responsibility than they can handle. But parents dont keep them under check, most of the teens stray away due to peer pressure( parents are uncool).If the teachers onli focus on teaching O lvls, they will feel that the classroom is just another place where the unpleasant always seem to happen.
In this post, I really want to commend the caring teachers that have helped me in my life from pri 4 to now. I will list them down another time.
A wise person once told me that she wanted to be a secondary teacher, even though she knew it was going to be hard work. She said that she wanted to do something to understand people in their period of growth, both physical and mental. She wanted to help teenagers to learn and help themselves. Try and guess who she is.
I know of teachers who can connect to their pupils, not just because they are young and know what students do at home. They are generally more accepted as they actually make an effort to care about students, and they respect us at individuals. Thus when we feel that, we in turn care and respect them as a form of appreciation.These are the types of teachers we come back to visit when we graduate. A very good example would be Miss Jacqueline Nai( dunno if i spelt it right). She really helped us through our lower secondary life.Thanks!!
Then when there is a good side of things, there will definitely be the dark side. Teachers who have a philosophy of " My job is a teacher, I get students to pass their O levels and nothing else." These types of teachers are usually less significant, mainly because we 'switch off' during their lessons or seriously dislike them due to harsh punishment or useless lectures which can help us. They should not be mistaken with teachers like Mr Jamil, who is a really nice guy. This type of teacher do not care about their students, even if its their form class, they just take care of the admin stuff, make sure the class is alive and running. They also take credit if the students get good grades, which they do not deserve since its the pupils hard work and not the teachers. I shall call them the objective teacher
Teachers like that should really get another job. Students in primary or scondary school are growing up and the people around them are going to be the ones that mold them in to what they will be. The objective teachers simply act as a form of communication like a postman. Then why does the government pay them so much more than a postman. The government pays the teachers a lot because the children are the future of the country, the teachers are responsible for its well-being and growth, apart from friends and parents. However, the government is paying that much because it truly takes a lot have effort and talent to be a teacher. He needs to think like an adult, a friend, as well as a social worker at the same time. Only so, will the children be able to learn and grow. but the objective teachers only focus on the academic aspect of their job and thus is "cheating" the government and parents of their time and money. I can honestly say that at least 30% of the teachers in Singapore are objective teachers. There are many people around us that should become teachers, but they lack the knowledge and drive to be one, thus they would rather have another job.
Children and teens need someone to help them grow. Their friends can influence them a lot but they also sometimes do not know the light from the dark. The parents know whats right and wrong, but their efforts are ignored more often than not. A caring teacher is the balance between the two and they have more influence on the kids if the children trust them. These are the people we should really celebrate, not some guy who sings about change and doesnt do anything.
Teenagers between ages 13-18 are very vulnerable as they are given a
lot more freedom and responsibility than they can handle. But parents dont keep them under check, most of the teens stray away due to peer pressure( parents are uncool).If the teachers onli focus on teaching O lvls, they will feel that the classroom is just another place where the unpleasant always seem to happen.
In this post, I really want to commend the caring teachers that have helped me in my life from pri 4 to now. I will list them down another time.
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