Friday, January 27, 2006

Cleaning the bloodstains off my sword

wah January so fast pass by like that, remember durin dec holidays still worring go wrong class or mess up. But sad thing is this month onli 6 posts, but then again 6 posts get 300 hits not bad leh.

Never thought my class, 3 hum wld have ppl that reali tell off( or insult) a trainee teacher like that quote" I want to hear your opinions about me lah, cuz i heard some pretty nasty things about me from the other groups" Ms Toh. Damn sad lor, here all booksmart not streetsmart.
this has given me a lot insight on what the ppl here could really be......

I got to take a squad for drills during NP training . IT ROCKED. But too bad onli 5 sec 2s. cheng boon, jing yi, jian yong take 2 cadets while i take 3 of them. They are quite good lah onli not alert and slack abit, but its okay. i dun like tense training. quote " IT ROCKED" seriousli.

Todae, got CNY celebration. the stupid government sae is not new year eve cannot give half day off. but i slacked off for the whole day lah. go find edwin and didi booth, then talk until go concert. THANK YOU for giving onli 40mins concert, but the carnival a bit lame. I get 2 free chop from my squad mates and junior(THX) then meet up with takkin and kang yue help me get the rest. kang yue bluff almost every1 for free chops. We get 1 packet of free sweets for getting everything yay!!

After go visit pri skool with frenz, finalli talked to mrs Seet unlike last year, she said she take bio in sec skool, interesting that she likes to dissect animals(backs away slowly). She aso said that chen suo (my old skool fren) teach his maths teacher how to do maths with model drawing in 1 step(rebellion rox). Which brings me to another point, y cant we use model to solve our problems, it seems so much easier and faster than algebra, even mrs Seet agrees with me. I wanna go back (to a time long long ago) wen i actually understood sumthing in class

during yesterdae after skool talk with bh and didi abt uniform and hair style a little quote

didi: we shldnt get punished, cuz they aso never go by the rules
gs: that case ask teachers wear uniform lah...
chuckle chuckle.....
gs: then paint the skool black and white then realli look like jail liao...
HAHAHAHAHAS (not funni)

Sunday, January 22, 2006

If there is an exception to every rule, then isnt there an exception to the rule that there is an exception to every rule...

YAY chinese new year is coming....
i only have 1 rant this update
y do we have to sit down in the hall until our butts are numb and watch stupid chinese new year "programmes" i mean isnt there a more meanigful and less numbing way of celebrating the lunar new year. so moe and the school thinks it helps us "understand our culture". we have been "understanding" that same culture every year for 8 years, doncha think we wld have understood by now. bsides thay wanna teach less and learn more, so y no less teaching. i mean itz boring, if we wanted to learn, we wld have googled it or sumthing. 1 simple but time consuming alternative wld b to actualli visit sum1, that way malays and indians could actualli learn and see sumthing abt us, instead of listening to "theory lessons".

i have recently felt the amazing gift, i did part of my a maths hw by myself. lemme tell you that after failing so many times at the same questions, It feels great to wipe the smile off the txtbks face and say" take that stupid question" i got the urge to jump up on my desk and dance "numa numa yay"

I was looking for a few free mp3s sites cuz my dad doesnt want me to download a p2p program
anybodi noe 1 lemme noe

Theory is practically useless, while Practical are, in theory not practical.
numa numa is a weirdly addictive song
yawnz im sooo tired.....

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Has the defintion of genius changed in the past 100 years....

2dae lesson until 2.30 dam tired. somemore got a maths homework + last week 1 i haben hand in. buried under algebra, requesting medical attention.....

but the fun doesnt stop here, cuz 2moro gt another 3 periods with algebra (AAAAAHHHHHHH)

k enuff with the rants. went to sonic house for studying, when we were supposed to be studying in school until """Sumbody""" wanted to eat. helped sonic install flash at his com. tried to do 2 A maths qns until fedup then! #^!%@#! at the stupid book and see him talk to davis. i never realised msn could be so fun, seriously. but he creeps me out sometimes. aso sonic sumtimes never say his true thoughts 1 i figured out today. girls mus beware !!! (jus joking)

In school, since mr ong is at HK doing aome bigtime, ultra secret, confidential, hushhush business, MY npcc madam took over, she is teaching us geog temp. extremely informally.
aso SQ keep pestering mi abt qns, so i tell her to go online, then never show up.............
waste time

A little quote during sonic and my conservation

sonic: wah lou eh, damn leng(cold) lor the way he talk
gs: He is a prime example of a sad case
sonic: Wah, humiltiy ppl suan, gt full pakaging 1 ar
gs: hahas

Friday, January 13, 2006

empty...........

Im a liar, Im a hypocrite.

Im both

My trip home on the bus, i suddenly felt so lonely, so empty, like i was missing something. I realised why almost immediatly, i was not accepted. Everywhere i go i see people in groups or pairs, and yet im alone.

I asked myself a crucial question, why?
Mayb cuz im a hypocrite, mayb cuz im a liar, mayb cuz im not physically atrractive, mayb cuz im dont have a good personality. i feel so empty right now...... in the past, when i look at face, i feel so comforted, so lighthearted almost instantly. now, i feel so crushed, wanting to slam my head against the wall thinking i am stupid.....

but still i really want 2 noe mi faults

alittle philosophical(is that a word) sentence b4 i end off

Everything, Sin or goodwilll, begins or is linked with fear, nothing has to end that way.....

Thursday, January 12, 2006

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Still waiting for a chio girl to fall in love with me........

Saturday, January 07, 2006

sleepy....

its 10.19 at night and im getting sleepy after some time of experimenting with different styles of drawing myself, i finally got it, it may not seem like much but it will be the base of most of my self drawings in the future. ill post it when i feel like it(or when some1 requests 4 it, its just a doodle)

it feels good to noe something in paper looks like you. im so tired. used the photoshop most of the time during the day. tried to make a sin costume out of my photos. FAILED BADLY, i finally know how hard it is. and it needs alot of layers like 50+ for a acceptable 1.......

lifes like that u noe, make u work on (and get excited over) something that is so seemingly worthess after 10mins of straight thinking. but its worth it, i did get some practice and find out the truth about ps the hard way. too tired must sleep .......

Thursday, January 05, 2006

1st post......6/1/06

wow first post yay!! hopefully it will last till end of year. k so today my maid has been painting the rest of the door(they started since who noes when)
In skool met a few new teachers. 1 teach in particular, her lesson according to the clock is an hour, according to me forever. i dunno why it just is...
but not all teachers are bad yet. a few indian and malay teachs but its okay.

ANTIRACISM YAY

so recess cam and went to find the guys( which u probably dunno) watched the sec 1s play with water during camp(we never have that) so we recall of memories when we were sec 1s .
recess ended too quickly so met our e maths teacher. quite scary at first but he s ok
then english, nothing much then LCE then go home

went home and found devart gt lotsa things I cant Bliv I GT CHOSEN

not a bad day.