The end has a new meaning in my heart

Good News before the bad, the exams are OVER (ok they were over a long time ago)



BAd News, NPCC has just unleashed 3 activities in a row, BLESSING parade, ATC camp and NCO camp
firstly, the blessing is extremely significant cuz the principal likes it, or else no one wld have remembered it. She is trying to sell it to the catholics by making it sound good. i mean who cares, why should sumone care when u just feel like lazing at home rite?? For the first time, Im part of the GUARD OF HONOR, but before u celebrate, i DONT know how to do rifle drills as well as the sec 2s.

I wanna cry

the ATC camp is going to hurt me as we are going to UBIN AGAIN, YAYAY !!!! there is going to be a wet activity this time and i dont feel like bringin anything wet back home. worse still, we cant bring any home clothes there, onli np or skool shirts. its still quite okay compared to the nco camp

I wanna run away

Now, the NCO camp is going to be the highlight of this year, cuz we get to run a campfire for the first time. but i scared we not up to standard. the whole nco camp will decide what post we get. that alone leads to many questions. What if i dont get the post i want?What if Im not up to standard? What if The understudy NCOs are better then me? I WILL push myself this time, i realli hope i can do it. Joey told us today that our squad has been weak from sec1 to now. its true but its very demoralising to hear from an officer. He told us that there will be CONFIRMED understudys. that means we were not good enough to run the unit by ourselves that we need help from others. I realli wanna prove myself during the camp, i dont wanna let my seniors down. I dont wanna let me instructors down. I dont wanna let myself down (i am so selfish) but i realli hope to prove sumthing during this camp. maybe im just not cut out to be a squad leader. I realli wanna cry if i dont get the post i want. what will happen after that? i dont know. I hope i can be more iniative for my np life from now on.

I wanna hide from all my troubles and wait till they go away

Help me......

PILLS, the world could definitely use less of them

I hate pills.
They make children cry because of their bad taste
They make old people sick because of bad contents
They make aunties buy them because they are kiasu about health
They make men hate it because aunties make them eat it. See Above
They make ME hate it because of ALL the reasons above, except the auntie one.
In short, They just plain sucks.
oh ya, before i forget I HATE PILLS

You may be wondering why i wrote this. I have to take pills everyday, my mum forces me to take it because she says its healthy. The human body is capable of protecting and keeping itself healthy and working, so why do we need "health supplements" when its not necessary.

As I stared at the pills last night, I started wondering, What if they could create a DESTRESS pill? You take one and you are destressed. I dunno what your reaction would be, but i would most probably avoid it, possibly coz i dun develop stress like the rest of my 3 HUM classmates, thus im the 3humblacksheep. But still, sumthing that good will definitely have side effects and desperate people will deifinitely, i repeat DEFINITELY overdose and end up kicking the bucket.

So if it truly happens, there will be a huge craze over it, like the ones about slimming pills among three people, students, teachers and possibli workers. The teachers can abuse it during exam period like putting stress on the students and selling them at half price(just a thought).

But honestly, would studying really push you to such a desperate time that you will do things like pills?

Perhaps...

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