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today is chinese new year so means got ang pao and skip school. but also means have to visit extended family, which sucks. anyway, does anyone know why i hate them. but tts not important


in the past week many things happened

we played rock band! me, chen, joel, darren, junqiang, yuan hong rocked at rock band. this is significant because its the first time i have photos to back it up, hahahs



and then there was the flag day
i neded to spend 5 hours doing flag day cuz i skipped school during the holidays, allegedly.
so i had to go for this o joy care flag day in kallang
i saw the map on the internet and then decided to take 80, because it seemed quite close. then i went and took 80, on the way i smsed kh jelena xt and yang to come out and kill time with me
kh cldnt make it, but the rest could, so on the sms we decided to watch inkheart
anyway about the trip, i just passed by the aljunied mrt station and then i decided hey its only a few more stops away, so i was like intently looking at all the bus stops which indicated where i am, so i sat there and waited and waited and waited, i waited until i realised i was in bugis, so i was like screwed, so i went out and took the mrt station, and ended up reaching 1 hour late, which means by the time my cip finish, i would have only clocked 4.5 hours, which is .5 hours too little. damn it, then as i was walking out, i realised that a 62 woould have reached here, damn it, my house has a 62!.

but that was the interesting part about that day, we, yang xt and jelena, went to plaza sing to talk and eat, so we went shopping for jelenas backpack first, then went to the coffee club to eat, and talk. so i showed some of my magic tricks, with brand new bicycle poker cards, woohoo!. anyway, some tricks failed miserably, but some were quite funny to watch. but we talked abit about life in a new environment, we should be studying, all that. by the way, xiaotong drinks faster now! so after that we went to sushi teh to makan. jelena started to ask me about some stuff like abortion, things that are in the moral grey area. so thats kind of what we talked about from that time all the way till the mrt stopped. we talked about religion and abortion and gender and lots of stuff, about how we process things in our heads. and we sat at the mrt stairs until they made the announcement that it was the last train leaving. anyway, there is a lot to be learnt about each other, we just never take the opportunity to open up.

now back to CNY eve, my brother wanted to go the chinatown, so we did, there wer a lot of china ppl there, like a sea of them, so we walked the streets, as we reached a junction, we started to realise oh shit, i can't move anywhere, it was likethis wave of people around you pushing and pulling, and i was holding on to my mother's hand like i never held on before, the "tide" was so strong that as my mother was pushed further in front, people immediately took up the space between her hand and mine, it was quite a fun experience, but quite scary also in the sense that we would get lost, but that wouldnt matter since we had handphones and money to take cabs. hahas. but, this is the kind of experience that kind of defines how much of life you have been through, that kind of thing.

anyway, im ending off here, and still don't wanna visit my extended family.



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BTW it's the dark knight

last friday, we had the first day of the pre orientation training camp, potc(pirates of the carribean)
it was quite fun, the GFs were surprisingly responsive and they were all very responsive, you could almost feel the vibe that they have pride in what they do work, so i hope they keep this up. the 5 houses also did a good job despite it being after their school and all.

the second day, a saturday, we started off with leadership talk by ms ang and mrs theng. i think they were the perfect people to give any kind of lecture because they are a lot more interesting and they can keep people engaged. anyway, it was followed by the amazing race which, we realised that the maps were printed out for them, so we had to lead them, and the route was quite screwed up so theres a lot more traveling by bus than required, plus it was quite a hot day so we ended up very shag after that

but the very uplifting thing was that, after that during the scavenger hunt. the people became much more lively, and the GFs were also much more enthusiastic, i'd like to think they influenced each other somehow. my house, Aquila starting running to the other stations, leaving ms ang behind running slowly in her what looks like expensive shoes. so i was really proud of them for being so upbeat during this.

after that was the warm fuzzys thing, people passed around cards with their names and just wrote good stuff and well wishes on the card. it was simple and cheap and meaningful, perfect for the school.

so at dinner time, we ( me , jelena and wen hui) went to pizza hut to celebrate the birthday of YANG, yay!. hahas, we ate quite a lot, and i blurted out about his cake, thinking that we forgot about it, clearly girls don't forget anything. anyway, the only people who caught the joke was like only 4. we went to pool after that to play for about 2 hours before going home


anyway, if theres one thing i learnt throughout the weekend, its that people like to be encouraged, and they work better when encouraged. but im not that kind of person, nobdy in my house encourages anyone else, we just say you better do this ( score well) or i will kick you out of the house. maybe that's why



anyway, really proud of aquila, hope they keep it up, plus i've been listening to some classic beatles songs, like help and please mister postman, and when i look at them, i find it very difficult to believe that they are the ones who do hard drugs like rockers, they just look so friendly




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A Thought-Provoking Paragraph

[He] Won, Harvey's prosecution, everything he fought for, undone, every chance you get for fixing our city dies with Harvey's reputation we bet it all on him,[He] took the best of us and tore it down, people will lose hope. They won't, they must never know what he did,

[He] cannot win, Gotham needs a true hero. You either die a hero or you live long enough to see yourself become the villain. i can do those things, because i'm not a hero, unlike dent, i killed those people, that's what i can be.

No, no, you can't. You're not.
I'm whatever Gotham needs me to be

Harvey, a hero, not the hero we deserved, but the hero we needed, nothing less than a knight, Shining.

They'll hunt you. YOU will hunt me. you'll condemn me, set the dogs on me. Because that's what needs to happen, because sometimes the truth isnt good enough, sometimes people deserve more.

Sometimes, people deserve to have their faith rewarded.

Why is he running, dad? Because we have to chase him. But he didn't do anything wrong. Because he's the hero Gotham deserves, but not the one we need right now. but he can take it, because he's not a hero. He's a silent guardian, a watchful protector, a dark knight.


Anyone wanna take a shot at guessing where its' from

Today

today was a good day

i woke up at 9
came to school in hihs pe shirt
went to SR open house
skipped duty
laughed with mrs ang about skipping duty, people still cannot get over the fact that she did
went to AJC open house
saw some old friends
came back
waited for them to do the walk in
went to concourse
had a chat
a meaningful chat

so there were 2 things that went well for me today
number 1, i skipped duty in their faces, that was just fun, doing it in front of them and then having a teacher laugh along with me, instead of just ponning and missing out on their reaction

and then there was number 2
we had a meaningful talk where we voiced out what we din like about ourselves, by we, i meant some, by some i meant like 8 people. but the fact that we sat down and talk had to mean something
i'd like to think that i helped in one way or other to make this possible

i'd really like to have that assurance that i actually did something to help ourselves

it helps me sleep better at night




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help them
we only need your voice

Stuff People Say 2009

that was actually the title of the text file i used to put what all you people said about me, i was just finishing up and then i put it in a TXT file and i realised that i din have a good name to name it, so i just called it stuff people say 2009. I told everyone else that i was doing a "self-evaluation" cuz it sounded cool at that time, on hindsight, maybe not.

anyway, anyone who bothers enuff to go back into the history of this blog will realize that i do this every year. or you know u could just know me, that would be easier.

so, in case u don't know what this is all about. the is a collation and analysis of all the things that people think they know about me in the year 2008. i do a little reflection about each and everyone of them and it helps me become a better person.

People chosen to judge me went through a immensely difficult selection process otherwise known as being online at that time. It pays to be online, and it pays nothing. i did one face to face, and i learned to never ever do it ever again, it is incredibly difficult to quote them because i cant write on my handphone that fast. ya, so lesson learned.

So on to the actually important part of this post.

i categorized them according to which group of friends they belonged to. im gonna leave out their names for privacy sake. what they say will be in ""double quotation marks"" and i write my comments below

The Student Council, or rather My Student Council

""i think you are frank
you dont care what other ppl think
as long as you think its justifiable, its okay
and like, you have strng and firm beliefs
like, you stand by what you believe in
sarcastic sometimes!
and you appear to be unapproachable at times (:
you are willing to help others, and you bother
can be a bit crude
but thats cos you dont think its impt to care bout what others think (which i agree with to a certain extent)
haha playing cards in the sac....
you dont realy believe in being a role model? idk.""

what really struck me was the you are willing to help others, and you bother part, i din think anyone noticed. strong and firm beliefs is good

""hmmm...my impression of you quite neutral ah...sometimes see you as a slacker, but not in a bad way...then you super laid back...like everyone else chiong proposal all, you just relax one corner...can be good and bad ah...see you slack like that sometimes a bit irritating, like we all got proposal to do, you nth to do...but most of the time not bad ah...like too demanding and all and asking us serious, then your slack-ness can keep our moods relaxed
low patience level like sometimes we planning and stuff, then you keep saying "faster leh""

That was actually the kind of personality i was trying to portray, i knew right from the start i din wanna be a mugger nerd type, so this persona was born. but what i din expect is that my supposed "slackness" can make people relaxed, i always thought its the opposite, hahas. Impatience is one thing i can't really change as much as i like because im just that impatient, but yet i can wait for hours on end for my computer to reboot and uninstall.

""at first when i dk you and judge based on appearance i thought you were some ganster pai kia, super cheena freak etc etc
then like your attitude also quite heck care kinda so i didn't like click at first la
but after like slowly knowing you, you don't seem that bad a person
i mean you're much nicer and that whole attitude thingy, thats just the way you are i guess
you either have to accept or not
although you seem really heck care, but i guess you do really care inside
you've just got that attitude abt you
maybe thats why you say you don't really click w council people
sometimes very qian zou
but after knowing you then its not so bad la
as in you will know that thats just part of you
i mean you don't really mean to be harsh but it just comes out sounding harsh kinda thingy
v hard to explain leh""

this really captures the fact that a lot of what i want to say is not really intended to sound nasty but it just comes out like that. and the fact that i choose my friends. and i do care.

""you're a helpful person, easy to get along with and you look like you're able to handle stress
I dont know you well enough to crap about you lah!
but you do seemed like that kind of person who gets easily angered""

I'm Helpful!! the stress part is an on-and-off thing, but the fact that i "look" like that kind of person is nice to know.

""i thought u r a good friend, like a council mate
cool" on the outside
and rather sociable i think
bad...
nothing bad ma..
i dun think u offended anyone, hahahaha
dun worry, you're a nice person
maybe make yr blog alive
yeahh, u didn't do anything bad what
like towards yr friends or teachers
maybe laugh more, come up with more jokes to entertain yr friends""

ok when the first sentence came out, i was like, huh u thought ar, that means past tense leh, that means u now dont think of it anymore la. oh ya, and if you haven't noticed it yet, some people think i can socialize while others think i can.

""hmm... basically its quite good
although most of the time its last minute but you will still manage to get your things done
i think that's all generally
start to remember things and not ask people to remind you
character... less apathetic?""

start to remember things is something very important, i should remember that. and i shows my amazingly astonishing ability to finish last minute work.

""u are quite a nice person
cause u will help someone when in need
very direct
cause u dun hide your feelings
u need more confidence
especially when showing your ability in front of teachers""

simple and short, nice.

""i think you are smart actually
like those with higher eq. can think on spot
not restricted to model answers kind of person
you are able to take charge of things when it gets out of hand smtimes
but sometimes you are quite blunt
like you want to say what then you will just say
regardless of if it's the right place and time to say or not
you irritating.
but i feel that sometimes you are quite aloof
like you don't exactly are on best terms with most of the people""

i believe in not being restricted to model answers so ya, i jus din noe that it is eq. i can take charge of stuff when it gets out of hand, its a gift, im not going to teach you, hahas. blunt part, already mentioned. oh ya and this is where i understood the meaning of "aloof", its a really fun word to say

""Moody cause must see feeling then can talk to 1
witty
fast thinker""

this was too short to be helpful because a lot of other people already said it.

Now, My class, 1s112008

they write quite little, but wad can u expect, we aren't art students for a reason



""hmmm
basically. u are glennard
wa jialat
damn hard question
i dunno what u want leah
u like to scold sometimes, is that counted?
but u scold too little than some ppl in our class, so its not that jialat
erm...
u think i am lame, (ok i am)
u like to say shut up la ( according to darren)
u are a happy go lucky person
smart
smart cause u dun really seem to like hand in hw, but then results come out zai
maybe cause u study a lot at home
u are quite a sensible guy sometimes, sometimes crazy
your character changes as the situation changes, quite adaptable to ppl around u
which is actually good la, like that can make more friends
but sometimes u dun look like a councilor
as in the ideal kind
very hard to explain this point
just not the nerd la
your display pic 1 year liao still haven change, very zai
ok super zai
sometimes u sleep in class
but is sometimes
well, that has got nth to do with what u want -.-
u are punctual generally.
mainly because i am taking darren as the benchmark. (LOL best late king)
well i dun really talk to u a lot, cause u usually mix with the other ppl...
but still not bad, cannot say never talk to u.
in between ba...
well... i dun go out with u, so i dunno your out of school character
sometimes u are a little bit emo
but not better than wee teck every lessons emo at the front corner""

i love this person man, helped the most. he said i am sensible, thats new, and adaptable, can change behaviour to the situation.


""-witty
-straight to the point
right now i can only think of these 2 lol
but seriously the only 2 things i see about you
that i can think of right now
smart,quick
straight to the point (like dont like to beat around the bush kinda thing, dunno how to explain, prolly you know what im talking about)""

bring smart AND quick is totally awesome.




""you;re the 'can hang out w anybody' kind of person
as in youre fine w almost everybody
[suck] at being tactful i think
like let say someone suck at sth
then you'll say it right into their face
sth like being too straight forward""

so i nid change to be less tactful or more tactful?


""not funny
when you wanna do the stuff you want you're notlazy
when you dont feel like it then you're lazy
a lil nerdy
average in sociability
you sometimes make unnecessary comments
like irritating""

right off the bat, not funny, sianz diao.

""what i think ah...i think you are an okay person to get along with. just that some times, you are dam guai lan (sorry im just stating the truth=P). in a sense you try talk back when someone said sth. but thts also your good point, cause you just want to speak up. just try not to overdo it, cause it gets on ppl's nerve at times""

i try to talk back to people who say something, its not so much a character flaw, than a bad habit

and then there's my PW group, i have worked with them like dogs, and i should be expecting more from them, the operative word being should.




""i think u are kinda stubborn
cuz sometimes u simply dun wan to see from other points of view
thats basically all the bad i can see in u
i think u are quite fun to hang out with as quite often u are fun ingeneral
i think u are smart as well
u are smart""

I dun see from other people's point of view because i tink my own is good, he is probably the only one to think i am stubborn and had the guts to say it to me

""i think you're capable of doing things, but at times when you do not yet see the urgency in completing a task, you would slack off, but when you do see the urgency, you do well.
smth like that
yeah the suck part is that often
esp at the beginning of the year
you dont see the need/urgency
so in my opinion, you slack off quite a bit
but however, at the end of the year, i think you worked real hard and yeah
you did well
you should socialize much more outside your friend circle
imporatnt""

so basically i do things when i see the urgency, fair enuff. and i nid to socialize outside my friend circle, but mine's a square, no fair!


And then there are 2 friends who know me since sec 1, if i grew at all, they would have noticed

""then....u taking up more responsibility lor..like joining council
but like still dun really study alot
then...though not same class but still same sch..but still will say hello to each other when see in sch lor
thats all i can think of..
okok..fine..then i think attitude like still same lor..
then dun study as hard as people but do better lor
u also nv changed much
stilll same same
nv change to the worst can liao lah...
nv change is a good thing ok..
dun think is sad thing lor...change too much mayb ppl dun like even worst lor
aiya..enough of ur evaluation liao lah..i already cannot think of anything else..if i think of smth then i tell u lor...""

i din change much, apparently, but thats good, because i can still do less studying and get better results than other people

""you've become slightly open
i was quite surprised when you joined student council (we supported you okay! HAHA)
eh you know youre a very frank person
thats really good sometimes and sometimes, it could become quite a touchy- sensitive issue
so just take note of that
if not, youre great
yeah
i told you to be careful of your speaking
and you alrdy know what (you blogged) that you feel a lik; awkward making small talk and sitting thru long silences
try to loosen up and make small talk lor, im sure student council helped you""

i nid to loosen up, u'd think the council helped me, but u'd think wrong.


so anyway, if you are still reading this after so much, congratulations, you have officially killed 15 minutes that you will never get back.

i realized something, people say things that are ambiguously not positive or negative, so should i change them,k i'm going on my gut feeling here.
ya and my new year resolutions based on this review is that

1) be more sociable
2) say things less bluntly
3) help out more in the student council because they really need it
4) not put entire song lyrics as a blog post, that's just being lazy
5) study for about 5 hours for the year
6) practice small talking
7) Pay more attention in class


that's about it i cant think of more, really

the 2nd post in '09

recently i have been googling up stuff along the lines of face reading, and by recently, i meant the past few hours. anyway, face reading, or physiognomy, is simply the "science" of reading faces.

a little more specific. physiognomy tries to profile you based on what kind of face you have. an example would be if the distance between your eyes is small, i.e. less than the length of an eye, it means that you have very strong focus and concentration. stuff like that. but that wasn't exactly what i was looking for, i knew i wanted to learn how to face read, but that kind of personality reading is about as reliable as horoscopes. No offense, horoscopes, but to me, as much scientific research has been put into this, i still don't see the connection.

anyway, what i was looking for was more towards cold readings, kind of like how a supposed "psychic" can talk to the dead that he never knew. Many magicians rely on this trick, they basically observe their subjects and try their luck at a few random statements. when any of that hits the jackpot, the subject would have an involuntary physiological reaction, maybe a gasp or their face turning pale, or something less obvious. so the magician picks up on that reaction and continues from there, saying more meaninglessly random sentence until they get a reaction. of course the statements they say try to get as vague as possible, so that they "hit" more people.

but most of the information i found generally involved some sort of a show kind of thing and that wasnt what i really wanted. what i wanted to learn was how to understand and pick up on that kind of involuntary reactions. many of those reactions are split second and i want to train myself to pick up on the different kinds and know what they are, i mean theres no point seeing someone sway from side to side, their heads tilted down if you don't know what it means.

so thanks to the wonders of wikipedia, or in this case wikiHow, i found out what i wanted to learn, body language. ya, it was that simple, body language. i wanted to know how to pick up on different body language, but reading on the web wasn't good enough. i knew i needed practice, but the thing is, you don't really know if you are correct, nothing is more than a hunch. so i kinda bummed out. i needed a teacher or some other way of learning.

so after that, i decided to do more clicking and stumbled on to how to detect lies. quite interesting and useful.
i also stumbled onto something called the Forer effect.
its basically magic through the computer screen, i will show you how it works.

with the power of the Forer effect, i will attempt to read your personality through the internet, i will try and analyze your personality and it will only be through the computer screen, all you need to do is fill out a little poll at the end to help out. if i get more than 50 hits, i will tell you how i did it.

anyway, understand that this report applies to you only and it generates a unique one for every visitor

You have a need for other people to like and admire you, and yet you tend to be critical of yourself. While you have some personality weaknesses you are generally able to compensate for them. You have considerable unused capacity that you have not turned to your advantage. Disciplined and self-controlled on the outside, you tend to be worrisome and insecure on the inside. At times you have serious doubts as to whether you have made the right decision or done the right thing. You prefer a certain amount of change and variety and become dissatisfied when hemmed in by restrictions and limitations. You also pride yourself as an independent thinker; and do not accept others' statements without satisfactory proof. But you have found it unwise to be too frank in revealing yourself to others. At times you are extroverted, affable, and sociable, while at other times you are introverted, wary, and reserved. Some of your aspirations tend to be rather unrealistic.


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New Year

my tagbox is screwed up, yo need to highlight it to read it
should i just change one?

anyway, some of u may have heard of the zune 30
if you havent, its basically an mp3 player with 30gb

so now, since many of you have not heard it, it shows that its not a very popular brand of mp3 player,

so the problem now is that many zune owners found their zune bricked, or spoilt, on new years' eve. so that kinda pulls their marketing down by a bit

what's even funnier is that the fix for the spoilt zune is to just wait for 24 hours
you read correct, just wait and do nothing
apparently the problem is about the internal clock being unable to read leap years or something

so thats a damn powerful technical support team, solving your problem without even breaking a sweat

it also begs the question, how would the whole system be linked to the clock, such that when the clock fails, everything else fails with it.
its not like it records what time you play a certain song right.
maybe it does, i dunno, i dun really hear much about zunes

anyway, surfing around youtube, saw a few videos about song backwards, hear the spongebob theme song, very funny
some people believe that messages were deliberately put there, so its even more stupid when they think people are out to get them. i saw on miley cyrus' songs, the person who uploaded the video thinks that miley is innocent and isnt putting any *bad* messages to her beloved fans, its those evil producers!!

hahas, funny people

anyway, i have asked a few of my friends for their opinion on me, im planning to write that out someday, before january ends, hopefully...



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