Not A Good Week

Aug 20 - Aug 24
is nt a good week

Unfortunate things happened 1 after another
and the worst thing is to have lost maybe more than just 1 friend

1) Went out of the class cuz gt no file on Aug 20
2) Handed in a crappy maths file on Aug 21
3) blablabla (dont say here) on Aug 22
4) Completely forgot how to do physics, the science im banking on for A1 on Aug 23
5) Gt scolded by friends + enemies over 27 dollar issue on Aug 23
6) Offended a friend + his friend on Aug 23
7) Lost a Friend. Rest In Peace, Gabriel Goh on Aug 24

Not a good week at all

Have you ever gt the feeling that because you are a man, you cannot show emotion
when it overwhelms you, you will feel very ashamed of yourself, especially when others say that
so you try to act as if nothing happened afterwards, then the people who didnt see you show emotion will think your heartless, or something


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Losing Faith

To Gabriel Goh Wee Siang:

You are a great student
An even greater man
You have many accomplishments that i cannot even dream to have
but yet you passed so quickly
so suddenly
all of your friends at HIHS, 2charity 05, 4sincerity 07, and 6E 03 are missing you, including me
you are not a quitter
and you never said offended your friends
you are a catholic by faith

so please help me ask the man upstairs

he said that he has a plan for each and everyone
is that all you were meant to do?
are all of us the only people that will experience you?
if he had a plan,
is that it for you?
or was it for an even greater plan for the ones around you,
the plan is so great that he had to sacrifice you to do it
you, of all people
the scout,
the student leader,
the friend,

im starting to lose faith in every religion
Can someone help me?



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Open...

Open
Do you know where i want to be right now?

Right there beside you




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Really Insensitive Questions

After Reading Some Other People's Blogs
and from conversations with other people

i realized what kind of world i lived in
"the world is beautiful, yet the people who lived there weren't "

Here are some very VERY insensitive questions
If you think you will be offended, please don't read
i will refer to everyone by name
including my friends

Chances are, some of what i wrote there are wrong, so correct me, besides I'm already being so brutally honest.


To Bryan:
Why is it that you study ( a lot more than me ) and yet you get very low scores, as if you didn't study at all?


To Wei Quan:
Is it worth being a Chairman and adding one more thing to your already impressive list of achievements, when you are forced to make decisions that will hurt the ones that you were supposed to lead and become the dog of your superiors?


To Zheng Yang:
Why are you wearing the tie when we all know you hate it?


To Evon:
Does staying in the EXCO for 2/3 years collecting money and writing down staff count as experience in the sense that you know how to deal with people better? eg. How can you believe a newbie counsellor instead of me when i have stayed in the EXCO for 2/3 years ( Because I think i have more experience than you in handling people while working for 1 month )


To Wayne:
What if it was you were fat and people were laughing at you for being fat?


To Caiyi:
Why must talk as if every statement was directed at you, as if everyone was talking to you?


To Wen Hui:
Why do you remain friends with a hypocrite, AFTER knowing that they are hypocrites?


To Xiao Tong:
Why do you remain friends with a hypocrite, AFTER knowing that they are hypocrites?
(Same Question)


To Chun Ling:
Why are you such a hypocrite, and start scolding me just because your friends are too?


To Grace:
Why must you type at everyone else's tagboard that i decided to "lock my blog up"
And Why do you cheer when theres no lesson even though you don't participate in it when there is a lesson?


To Wei Xiang:
Why do you talk so big and yet do so little?


To Eugene:
Why do you deny it (your relationship)?


To Miss Tan Bee Tin:
Why do you keep saying i can't achieve my goals, when you tell my parents that i can because i am intelligent?


To Joan:
Why do you think phark shouldn't be said in front of you, when you say shoots and oh my tian regularly in front of everybody? ( Its just another slang word )


To Guan Zhong:
Why do you deny studying after getting high marks for a test, but not when you get low marks for 1?


To Xin Hui:
What is wrong with my pool table fund?


To Sirs and Ma'ams Of HOLY NPCC ( Probably Not Everyone ):
Why did you always scold us for our mistakes, while you can laugh and joke with the 4 when they commit one? ( not always, but it happens quite often that most of us realizes it)


To Qianru:
Why let go of your hatred for pretty much everything? eg. 2 charity 05


To Miss Lim Lin Lin:
Why do you need so many people to be your lackeys? Doesn't the SLB have enough people that you need those CCA Leaders


To Mrs Wong Vei Li:
Why must you always chuckle a bit ( Hum Chio ) After you scold someone?


To God / Buddha / Whoever:
Why weren't humans made perfect when you have the power to make it so?


To Myself:
Why am i doing "art" when i clearly suck at it?




Qns: Should I really post this entry?
Ans: Yes


Everyone must question their own conscience some time or rather
and i realized that prayer helps you connect with your god, rather than make you find your own mistakes

Sometimes people cannot see their own faults, including me

Sometimes we need other people to tell it to us straight, no sugar-coating
Its not worth being sensitive to feelings when nothing gets done.

Chances are, some of what i wrote there are wrong, so correct me, besides I'm already being so brutally honest.


If you hate me after reading this post, too bad
But ask yourself, Am i accusing you of anything ot merely making a statement not intended to offend you?
remember to check the definition of "accuse"

"The world is beautiful, yet the people who lived there weren't"

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Goals

Took Back Our Chinese olvl results on monday
got a c6 with merit for the oral
not gonna retake because i most probably won't use it for l1r5

Had English oral today
could have been better
but when i saw those 2 examiners
suddenly panic
then a lot of things planned to say but never
could have been better, a lot better


with only 1 week +++ to prelims
its about time i set some goals

these are my targets for prelims
English B3
Humanities B3
E Maths A1
A Maths B3 or B4
Physics A1
Biology A1
Chemistry B3 or B4

but im still not working hard, at all
plus those targets can only get me a 12 for L1R5
shyt

i REALLY wanna get a 9 for L1R5 for Os
REALLY REALLY
my targets for Os
English A2
Humanities B3
E Maths A1
A Maths A1
Physics A1
Biology A1
Chemistry B3

mostly to change after getting back prelims results
if i were to show my am and chem teachers my goals
they will probably laugh
out loud
then i will be emo after that
haha
...

sometimes i feel that my Os are just to prove to other people that Im not stupid
i dunno why
i just wanna get an A1 and laugh in their faces
and then they will say i know you will get 1 la, i just trying to push you to work harder
sianz
but what if i don't
they will be laughing at me
sighz

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Pass The Message

i know i started it without everyone's ideas
i know there wasn't a theme
i know only maybe only bryan or nisha wanted me to design
i know my design sucks
i know i was stupid to not ask for help
i know i was stupid enough to only ask for people whom i know will support me
i know i should not have wasted time to go that far
i know i was stupid to waste other people's time
i know that alot of people didn't like my design but never said anything
i know many people din like my design because it was mine
i know i know that wayne is a much better communicator than me
i know that i will shout when i speak to people i hate
i know you are stubborn
i know you are very stubborn
i know that mr tan is a good teacher
i know that everyone has different views
i know i should not have taken anything for granted
i know she only sa jiao to some people
i know i suck
i know i suck alot
i know i suck alot at design cuz im nt an art student
i know people probably have scolded me in their posts
i know alot of you hate me
i know ONLY polo has that specific texture that you like
i know you are allergic to black
i know 38 people must change their views just so you 3 can be happy
i know my friends are all fed up of you
i know the class is ready to go to war
i know you are blocking me on msn
i know im blocking you on msn
i know that the class's opinion is important
i know i took my friends for granted
i know you are the boss and im here to serve you

guess wad?

i don't really care
but since you can't really read the message
i will ask those who can to pass the message


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The Power of Silence

Some pharkers need to learn to shut up
as in really stop talking and think for a little while
help them make tshirt make so much phreaking noise
u so pro u make yourself la
no one stopping you wad
bloody hell
dun pay dun pay la
like i earning your money liddat

eh please la remember wad kind of small fry you are before you start making so much noise
the whole class only you one person and that b*tch making noise okay
you think wad, say redesign den redesign so easy arr
say change colour means change colour so easy arr
you ask some other people make they also will tu lan 1 leh
is no energy fight with you nia
cuz you overwork them by asking them redesign wad
u so pro u do la, need me for wad
make me waste my time spend 2 trips go queensway and some ulu place

texture not good not happy
gt collar nt happy
colour too black nt happy
picture too big nt happy
gt number nt happy
uncomfortable nt happy
too expensive nt happy
so pro make urself la
irritating pharker

still gt 1 more b*tch
never do anything keep asking
eh so is polo or jersey
polo or jersey
eh pharking irritating leh you noe
like if jersey means will lose your arm liddat
a stupid pharking reason like this make my friend cry
eh ask yourself, is also your friend leh, this is how you treat your friend 1 is it
somemore is more of your friend than mine leh
you know wads her rationale for stopping
is cuz she know you are tt type of ppl leh,
even your own friend pity you, tts why be your friend
you honestly think you got attractive and sociable personality arr
even conscience also dont have, only have other people sympathise for you
pharking b*itch

Anyway, if you are a reader of my blog, chances are that you are not those 2 b*tches
today during recess i ask wei quan write on whiteboard to bring 20$ buy shirt, gt extra den return
so during chinese lesson, they ask me is polo or jersey, see her face so pissed off liao, so just say 1 word jersey.
she shout across the room "ehh jersey leh, i dun wan buy liao"
so i shout back from beside her " DUN BUY, DUN BUY LA"
she look back at me say " gt talk to you arr"
bloody hell
she can shout i cannot shout arr
den keep talking among the girls, say wad jersey cannot, uncomfortable dunno wad shiite.
like the texture can make you die liddat
think wad toxic arr
those girls only like 8 odd people with maybe a few spectators
den onli about 2 people talking
so that 2 people influence everyone listening
somemore say that they represent all the girls leh
how is it possible that they represent all "27"(i dunno where she get this figure) when i already know of at least 6 girls who are not for their ideas
den keep asking the same stupid questions, polo or jersey?
answer until tu lan liao arr
so while they doing [nothing productive]
I or rather the boys tried to ask for the size of their pe t shirt so we can average the size when we going there on wednesday
den 5 mins later they keep asking
wad colour, wad design, wad texture
so wenhui go there and explain to them
explain liao still ask somemore
somemore is ask the same way as some gangster would ask you "ehh you borrow my money when going to return" that kind of tone.
of course i tu lan la
say like i owe them money liddat
den tt b*tch call wayne, say dunno wad, den he ask me draw the design at the board
i draw the design which we found to be less than 20$ at queensway
den they nt happy, say gt number as crest very weird.
bloody hell never see before say weird
tts not even the worse part yet
keep saying dun wan dun wan cannot put number, liddat very weird
den their own people say dun put number means like copy unity class tee
wad the hell
you want everything to look exactly generic (IE the same) but you still want unique
you are contradicting yourself rite
i stand there shout that line in chinese or singlish or sumthing
ready to shout somemore
den i remember i still in classroom and mr tan still inside
so i stop as a sign of respect to him
den wayne keep taking my phone show them number at the crest is not weird
they see liao nothing to say, so start to argue about the colour
say black not nice
i tot that was settled like 3 weeks ago
think so easy change colour, change yourself la
bloody hell i hear liao dam tu lan lor
lucky wynnie was their "representative"
den even more lucky she understand that cannot change colour so easily
den for some reason she can convey that message to them, thankfully
and the best part is she also don't support them, hurray!!
many people said then that the class was divided by where we sat
and we were ready to go to war
i "send" wenhui there help me explain to them the design
during the second time she go there
her own friend was arguing with her
as if she from iraq liddat
please la
wad kind of backstabber can you be
anyway by looking at her facial expression
we knew she was failing
den me and guanzhong at the side kept saying must send wayne liaoz
den suddenly she walked to the toilet
naturally at least 5 girls followed her
i was damn pissed off at that time lor
if no teacher there i confirm shout back or even throw a chair
i followed them out after a while
lucky she there laughing liao
if not i will be damn guilty
anyway, we tried to compromise
because they couldn't send a sample without us paying
they bo bian must send people there to represent the girls
if the representatives can agree to that SPECIFIC texture or colour or price over THERE. den we settle there liao, no more changing
guess wad that b*thc say
orr i go la, but i cannot on national day celebrations cuz i go out celebrate wad birthday watch wad jay chou movie
so you expecting us to change the date for you la
bloody hell
den the 2 pharking representatives they send HAD TO BE the other b*tch and her best friend
great i have to spend 1 pharking afternoon with them
bloody hell
i hope i have enuff friends to talk to then so i wont shout in front of the shopping center



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