VDAY'S EVE another sucky "holiday"

Its tat time of the year again where people get all lovey dovey and flower sellers (botanists?) get all high from the pure cash they are getting. Just by going out with a flower basket can net you $4 per rose if you know where lovers roam.

ok im bored

Once again its the stupid holiday that reminds me of the infinite loserdom that im trapped in. as if Christmas hasnt done enough to the poor psyche of a young fragile teenage mind.
life sucks when you cant celebrate valentine's day. If only.

I've always wondered whats wrong with me. Maybe i wasn't born with looks like mr.shawn and maybe i wasn't born with talent like alam shah. Maybe i wasn't born with social skills like edwin or maybe i wasn't born smart but who really likes smart guys anyway. maybe im just too scared or maybe i dunno the right words to use or maybe im just dumb.

Someday
When my life has passed me by
I lay around and wonder why you were always there for me
One way
In the eyes of a passerby
I look around for another try and fade away
Just close your eyes and Ill take you there
This place is warm without a care
Well take a swim in the deep blue sea
I go to leave and you reach for me
Somesay
Better things will come our way
No matter what they try to say
You were always there for me
-sugar ray

i wonder who will be the 'you' for me in those lyrics.

maybe im just too stupid to realize that 'you' are just in front of me

Dam Migraine

Dammit Migraine for 2 weeks liao
every attack seem to happen after go in or go out of aircon room or very cold place
summore onli gt migraine when brain stop working

when
play com
surf net
listen music
play with dog
or do homework den no attack
summore everytime sleep wake up either migraine or no appetite
been trying to act macho to the problem for 2 weeks
onli try using panadol 3 days ago
gt abit effect but must have relatively slow music
like SUGAR RAY

summore when do homework until dunno how to do sit there stare at qns den start migraine again

dam

doctor say may be due to stress
but everytime i tell ppl i have stress they laugh at me think i joking
sianz nvm its your own opinion

my mum say maybe have 'hidden' stress, cuz got stress also dunno or trying to repress it

today went to see doctor during lessons
at start of lessons during chem no problem onli start when doing corrections in english lesson
den recess force myself eat
so that can eat panadol
but when eating feel like want to vomit cuz no appetite
dammit
den take 1 panadol see gt effect
after 10 mins migraine worse so take second 1
then later go up 4th floor with eyes almost closing like wanna faint like that.
feeling like when you stand at NDP until the stupid guest of honour come that type

try to endure the pain through maths lesson
cuz we go com lab
dam stuffy plus hot so pain become worse
then finally give up weixiang bring me go find mrs ng
she say call parents so can go home
my mum came in about five minutes time cuz she working nearby
then go see Doctor H. H. Tay (i think)
around kovan area
the doctor say that nothing wrong with muscles
he also say its hereditary cuz my mum had it as well plus hers is worse
he also say maybe due to sudden change light or sound
extra sensitivty
he also say maybe cuz nerve problem in my right side of the brain
cuz i still young den maybe gt have more severe problems or blood clot

sianz

scarly i gt nerve or brain cancer sianz

my brain right side pain onli left side not pain

Sorry to all the people who had to waste time because i was sick
sorry mrs ng for making u waste your time on me when you could have marked other papers
sorry Weixiang for making you waste curriculum time to bring me to sickbay
sorry guanzhong for helping me tell teacher i was sick
sorry wenhui for wasting your time to worry about me and calling me
sorry xiaotong for wasting your time to bring down my bag
sorry bryan for helping me carry my books up
sorry ZhiHui for asking about how i feel and wasting your energy on me
sorry MUM for making you waste money on going doctor and taxi fare

AND THANK YOU ALSO for worrying about me
but i dun wan uall to waste your energy as you could have done better things at that time


PS CONGRATS LIONS!!! for winning the ASEAN Cup

esp Daniel Bennett, MUSTAFIC FAHRUDIN, Aide Iskandar, Noh Alam Shah, Khairul Amri, Indra, Precious, LIONEL LEWIS, Baihakki, SHI JIA YI, Ridhuan, Fazrul Nawaz, Shahril Ishak, Subramani, Hafiz Osman, Noh Rahman

and Of course

Raddy Avramovic