o lvl results plus post 90

gt back o lvl results on thursday
not the best of results
a frigging 15
but i couldnt really complain

at first i got my paper
i was liek 15?
my cousin gt a 9
but now i realised tt
only 10 ppl in my school could have gotten 9 and above
whats more is that he could have factored in cca and bonus pts
but i couldnt care less

but i was sad at first
then i tried to laugh so that i wouldnt cry there
its more or less a simple philosophy i have
but anyway
what really pissed me wasnt really my results
my mum's godmother ( which is my grand godmother, now that i think about it) actually called me tt day and asked about my results
so i just said 15
then she said tts good what tt means u passed
"now in retrospect i should have shut up here, but no i chose to keep saying)
i said ok la, alwin(my cousin) gt 9
orh liddat ar nvm still quite good
then i went pool at dhoby gaut
so FAST FORWARD to at night when i reached home
my mum had tt really sad/disappointed/angry face
so i was like i gt a 15 ,k still quite ok can go in jc
then she told me the whole story

apparently after the call my godmother told my grandmother(which was her sister) pretty much everything i told her
then she calls my mother and says
cannot like that compare 1
you son get 15 very good le

i hear already i want to take chopper kill her liao lor
talk until like i worthless like that
like my mother cannot produce smart children
so what her bloody grandson got a friggin 9
he not even the same surname as her arh
bloody hell

so as i hear finish her story
i felt very angry and also very sad at myself as well
i feel as if i let my mother down
make her throw face
i cried there on her bed
then my dad told me to choose whether jc or poly
i was still having teary eyes
so i told them i would take a shower
i cried there too
i just felt like my immediate family,
my mom dad and brother were ostrasized by them
most of my cousins were tan
me my brother and 2 cousins( my eldest uncles' sons) were the only sim
as in the 3rd generation
and they both are not like them
they are very kind and they think of others before themselves
something that seems to be lacking in my paternal family tree
maybe its because of their upbringing, they are not very rich
unlike the tan


but anyway i try not to think of them as much as i physically possible
which is difficult since we HAVE to visit each other every new year and good friday, which they make use of to sao mu, or pay respects to the deceased


anyway, i put tampines jc and catholic as my 1st 2 choices
hope i get in


remember what i did last year around this time of year
i tried to compile a list of what people felt and thought about me
so as to properly make my new years' resolution
this year i planned to do the same
but everyone seems busy
maybe i choose less people to give their opinions
maybe 6 or 4
but they will probably be close friends

well, we'll just have to wait and see




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SRJC Orientation

The jc orientation is finally over
after 2 long weeks

the first five days were seriously boring, very very boring
there were subject talks where you'd sit in the hall for close to 2 hours
and my first orientation grouping was not very memorable
i honestly contemplated leaving the school and not coming back for the rest of the days
and the sample lectures sucked
alot

but then came the last 3 days
everyone was reassigned new groups
this time, it was much more fun
because we could open up more
and there were games to keep us occupied

there were hell lot of fun
everyone was writing in their surveys
too short
must be longer
my second group(the fun one)
were more ready to speak up and try to lead in cheers
at least better than my first one
I also met a friend from primary school
PAUL
we didn't know each others names at first
so i just said u from hips 1 right

hahas
easy starter conversation

also
for this orientation
i felt different
i wanted to stand out from the rest
be a leader
because i remember myself back in all the past camps, sec 1 sec 2 sec 3
npcc orientation also
i remember telling myself to shut up, even when i had a good idea
because i was always afraid that they would shoot me down
den i become very lau kui
very jia lat
then i look back and realise that
hey if i kept quiet i ended up after 4 years with nothing but a sergeant to show and not even any quartermaster or squad leader or even any best cadet award or something
den you will regret for the rest of your life
just like mine, always thinking, how i wished i spoke up more.

This time, i chose to speak up
i wanted to stand out from the rest
i at first tried being loud, but after the first hour
when it was not getting me or even any of us anywhere
i tried teaching the best of the best cheer
because our cheering was "subtle"
hahas
ya so i tried
and it feels good when people is paying attention
and then u tell them thisthisthisthisthatthatthatthat
and they actually listen!!! OMGWTF

hahas
yeah of course no one can master anything so quickly
then ended up having i shout the first few words den they just continue
but its good to know they actually tried
im not a student leader so i dont know how that feels
den play station games for all 3 days but the thing is that everyday gt like different "theme"
like first day is just normal
den second day is water games
and then third day is ra-ra games which is quite rough and competitive

when we dominate certain games,its usually because of individual brilliance
such as me when i tried to pass the chair from the back of the line in the first game we played as a grp
or paul for the taboo game, where he said american pa giu and the eagle puiA(fly in hokkien) in the sky
or sam and brenda in the passing out ball, their muo qi very gd can together carry so many ball across

we rocked
period
and i always forget how to cheer unless is my own cheer, so we everytime kanna confusion

i was also part of the aquila performance because i got forcefully "chosen" by my ogl
nicholas and xue fong
cuz they know that im loud
at first very xia suay
but den i sabo michael aso
so we tried our performance
and in turn made even more new friends
i think the performance group will naturally bond because we all have to work very hard together and come up with a performance in 2 days
so we will like go into overdrive straight away
something like how ppl will only study very very hard just before their o levels
something like that
oh ya and i gt kanna whack in the nose during our performance
but at least it looks smooth
and the mascot really flew and i feigned being beaten up

and the amazing race,
i brought nothing but a bottle
so i carried the flag most of the way
it really reminded me of my 10 km hike with my npcc unit
when i was as nco
we were always pushing for people to
CLOSE UP THE GAP!!
hahas
and the crossword puzzle has very ridiculous clues
like no coke only pepsi
which is kfc
and the crossword puzzle was very difficult to even find the pieces

So thanks to all the OGLs, especially nicholas and xue fong, as well as our teachers, mr Ho and mr Lee.

NEWYEARPLUSPOP

happy new year
but not much with the happy

i mean yeah i gt an xbox360(hinthint)
but i would have rather enjoyed more time out with friends and family
so it work both ways


last year i had a bunch of ppl whom i asked what they felt about me
that was so i could figure out what i did wrong last year and do it better in 2007
i wanted to do that again this year, but everyone seems so busy, no ones really online, so bo bian
everyone is busy as heels, so im bored


this holiday was supposed to be spectacular
i was gonna do this, do that, play this, play that
now it seems very meaningless
everyones off to work or whatever the heels they do
no fm with the 4 la liga teams
no soccer every week
no actual fun stuff
just work all the way
even the chalet was messed up ( the word "messed" is supposed to be replaced with the f word ) its called a 4hum chalet
not a private get together
the last time i checked 4hum had what 40 odd people excluding teachers
less than 20 were there
and even less stayed overnight
ending up with lots of excess food no one could eat( poor sherlyn, wee kiat, xin hui)
i mean hey its not their fault
but is the class of sec 4 humility 2007 seriously so pathetic, so spineless
or are we so very ashamed of our own class, we can't even come to a little gettogether, which they did not have the privilege of planing
BTW thanx to othe organizers of the chalet, sherlyn, xinui and weekiat and his parents! THANK YOU!!!





the biggest thing that happend before 2007 ended ( i used the term biggest loosely )
was POP
or passing out parade
it was the first of which we could use rifles or arms in the parade itself
so coming back to train brought back nostalgic moments
i honestly thought the parade itself was great
yeah there were a few mistakes here and there
but it happens
i just wished the day ended with the high from the parade.
the phototaking session after was also great

the party was abit less high
maybe it was because not all of us were there
the performance was there
the food was there
the atmosphere was there, thx alot to sec 1s and 2s
but something felt missing
i couldn't really pinpoint it
but i felt very strongly that it was because there were guests
i got the "vibe" that the people there were more or less entertaining guests
but thats just me you know

honestly, i know that everyone has put in alot of hard work for us
THANKYOUVERYMUCH
thanks
seriously



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